I AM / I Exist / I AM Presence / awareness of being

　　
I am the center/master of all of who I am grounding in this reality;
I am all that I am;  I am all that Is;  IS-ness;  being;  Yo-ham;  full-self;  soul self;  source
being whole and complete unto itself;  being unity of King and Queen;  being Oneness;
being who you truely are;  being Spirit/God also/sovereign/true Creator;
　

< Creator 10 > There are words of power that you will soon learn to understand. You have thought these words in your mind, but you have not so much brought them into your life. It is the simple energy of the words of "I AM." This is the essence of our teachings dear friends. That is why we say to you it is no longer appropriate to give intent. Intent separates you from reality. Intent says that you are not quite there. "I AM" places you in the moment, in the now. It is not separate or different or apart. IT IS and it emanates from within you.

< Creator 10 > As you move into the new energy you will begin to understand the power of the I AM, of the NOW and of the DIVINE MOMENT. You will no longer need to pray to an outside entity or to a spirit that you do not know so well. You will not need to a guide who you have never met and do not even know their name! You will not need to do that in the new energy. It will simply be in the I AM with no intent, but simply IS-NESS.

< Creator 10 > We know each of you are familiar with the I AM concept, but it has been difficult for you to integrate this past your intellect, into your heart, and to bring it forth into reality. In a sense there has been a closed door that has not allowed the true understanding and the true compassion for the I AM to come forward.

< Creator 10 > I AM in the DIVINE MOMENT.
We say to you NEW ENERGY is here. This DIVINE ENERGY that emanates from within you is here at this moment. Search no longer for it. Struggle not in your mind but open your being to allow it to come forth.

< Creator 10 > After initiating the process with a broad-brush stroke, after taking in your passion which is the fuel, then vibrations go out of your new house, out into the world around you. These are vibrations of love and compassion and wisdom that you emanate to others. It is like a light that is shining out to them, but there is also a reverse vibration that comes back to you. With the assistance of your runners, this vibration brings back all of the appropriate things to you, to the front door of your house (Lesson 9). This is part of the creation process. It is being in your new house, it is saying I AM, it is initiating a process that then is fueled by your passion, then goes out into the physical world around you and what comes back are all of the appropriate things for you.

< Creator 10 > When you begin working with this lesson, you will wonder, "What is this Divine Will?" or, "Is this my crazy brain talking to me once again?" And you may become paralyzed to a degree in making that decision. But we tell you, when this happens simply be in a place of peace and say, "I AM in Divine Will." Understand that what comes forth is Divine Will.

< Creator 10 > Where you are going with this, where we are going even in the next several lessons is to help you to understand how to truly move energy when you are sitting in the position of I AM. I AM is the basic, is the foundation, is the NOW. We will be working with you to help you understand how to move energy, how to affect energy, and how to become a true Creator.

< Creator 10QA > You must step into it to understand that you are in it. There is no way that we, from this side of the veil, can define it for you. While you are dancing with what comes to your door, take your left foot or your right foot and move it from the dance floor of duality into the dance floor of Divinity. You think you must struggle and you must work hard at this and you must make it difficult. It is as simple as saying "I am now in Divine Will. I AM NOW in Divine Will." It is not saying, "I intend to be" for you will intend for a long, long, long time. (audience laughter) "Intending" sets a space and, a distance and a time between you and an outcome.

Divine will says: "I AM in my Divine Will." Then keep dancing and understand that this will change the entire energy dynamics and pattern of all things. When you look at much of what we speak of here, it is about literally changing energy patterns and dynamics. It is going from the very slow and cumbersome dynamics of the human experience into the very refined, efficient and enlightened new energy structures. To move from the old to the new is simply a matter of BEING in that new energy. Then you will automatically go there.

There was a time when you first came through the Wall of Fire, past the original Creation, when you could travel in the void simply by thought, simply by desire. As you continued your experiences and you came to Earth and took on body, all of these processes slowed down so that you would no longer THINK and BE simultaneously. Now you are coming full circle. You are coming back to a point where you can be in a consciousness simply by allowing yourself and it will be there very rapidly. You do not need complex exercises to move to Divine Will. See your left foot or your right foot doing the dance step that takes you there. And keep it simple.

< Creator 10QA > What you are experiencing is an evolution in what you are learning. Prayer was an important part of your life early on. You moved from prayer to intent and now you are moving past intent to what we call the I AM. A simple Isness exists now. It is part of you. It is already here. As you teach others, you will walk through the process of prayer … to intent … to now simply I AM. Intent was appropriate at the time when we spoke to you of it. It is still appropriate for most humans. But you are now moving past intent into Isness, into the All. You are transcending intent, and moving into the Divine Moment where all things that you need exist. Intent has been an important tool. We are not saying that it was inappropriate, for it served its purpose at its time. But now we are moving you past that.

< Creator 11 > As you move into the new energy, the ego is transforming. It is changing. You are transforming and changing. Instead of "I go" you are becoming "I Am." I AM. This is the new energy. This is the new balance of the male and the female, the King and the Queen. That is the new balance. Dear friends, be kind and gentle to your ego. It is a father or male oriented energy within you. Love it and bless it as much as you would love and bless your own biological father in this lifetime and the fathers who have come before them, and the Father from the Kingdom who helped to birth you.

< Creator 11 > It will take a bit to get over the old concerns of ego. You will have to work through this. You will have to bring in your own balance of male and female. It will take a bit of work. Some of you will be so challenged by it that perhaps you will even give it up and go back to the old ways. We are challenging you to move beyond the old feelings of the ego, which was filled with that male energy that we have spoken of. Move beyond to understand that the ego has served you well. Understand that you are going from the journey, that could be defined as "I GO" to the new energy which is the "I AM."

< Ascension 6 > Feel this energy. Feel my love and caring and friendship, directly through you, through all of the seven human senses that we have talked of. Feel the presence of your own "I am." It is not something removed or different, not something outside of you. Sense your own "I am" presence birthing at this very moment within you.

< Ascension 6 > Imagine the shape of a star, of a five-pointed star. At the top of the star is the first of these five senses. It is the SENSE of AWARENESS. Now these are etheric, spiritual, divine senses, the first being awareness. You developed this sense immediately when you left Home, when you left the Kingdom. Up until this time, you really did not have an awareness of who you were. You simply were. But, when you left the Kingdom and went through the Wall of Fire, you immediately developed a sense of awareness. This is the "I am" Sense. "I am part of God, but yet I am my own identity." It is the first of these five senses.

< Ascension 6 > Moving again counterclockwise on this five-pointed star is the divine SENSE of COMPASSION. Compassion. We also call this the Unity Sense. This is the divine sensitivity that gives you an understanding that you are I Am, but you are also part of All That Is. This sense of compassion allows you to see God in another's eyes. It allows you to feel and to understand another. This is what links you to every other human, to every other animal and to every molecule on this planet. This is the sense that links you to All That Is.

< Ascension 6 > When combined with the seven human senses, you will find it so possible to do things that you would have called magic or a mystery or a miracle only a few years ago. But, the interesting thing is when these things happen, they will not appear so miraculous. You will have the understandings of the physics and the science behind them. And, you will say to others when they are standing in awe and marvel of what you have done… you will say to them the words that the Master of Love said to you and to the others, "And this, you can do also." It is not a miracle. It is not a gift from God in the sense that God gives this gift everyday. It is not a special gift. It is one that God, that I Am created… what you call this miracle.

< Ascension 6QA > Work on and acknowledge the divine sense of awareness, but now an awareness of "I am… I am human… I am Spirit… I am one… I am all."

< DivineHuman 4 > Breathing, breathing, dear friends… it brings life, and it tells your entire body that you want to continue living. No more suffocating. No more being partly present. Breathing tells your body "Yes, I want to continue living. Yes, I want to rejuvenate. Yes, I find the value in my life now. I Am That I Am in the moment." Breathing is so simple, so simple . It is not a complex tool. It does not cost anything. You do not need extensive schooling to learn how to do it. It is natural, God-given, and powerful. Use it if you are in a difficult situation, under tremendous pressure, as we know so many of you are. Use the breath to bring new life, to bring new "is-ness" into the power of "I Am."

< DivineHuman 5 > Let us tell you the main difference about the New Earth, as compared to anything else. Right now you still ask the question, "Who am I?" On the New Earth there is no question. There is simply the knowingness, "I AM. I AM. I AM." You’ve gone through a very long journey to get to this point, and you no longer need to answer the question, "Who am I?" You come to the new awareness of "I Am." When you go to this New Earth - sooner or later - you will find things very different than on the old planet Earth. You will find that you do not need to create situations for yourself to answer the question, "Who am I?" When you go to the New Earth, you will understand, "I Am."

< DivineHuman 5 > On the New Earth, you will be working with and studying and playing with New Energy. As we have told you before, New Energy has never been created before. There was a finite amount of energy that left the Kingdom, and you have just been switching its forms and its ratios (of light and dark) back and forth. But, now, you as humans on Earth have created New Energy for the first time outside of the Kingdom. The New Earth is the place where you will study this energy. You will learn about the potentials of New Energy. You will learn what can be done with it. You will learn how to be true creators. The biggest difference is you will no longer ask the question, "Who am I?" You will understand the statement, "I Am."

< DivineHuman 5 > On the New Earth, you will not have a brain (central processing facility) like you have now as a human because you will FEEL everything. You will not need this barrier, this filter of the brain, to process things through. In a sense, all of the records of all of your experiences will be contained within you. You will have access to them, but it will not be like a brain that makes judgements, that tells you what’s right or wrong. On the New Earth there is no right and wrong. It is simply "I Am."

< DivineHuman 5 > On the New Earth you will have incredible senses of feelings… and understanding… and compassion… and love… and joy. On the New Earth you won’t have to experience the things that you did on the Old Earth, of fear and anger. Those were all part of this game of answering the question, "Who am I?"

< DivineHuman 5 > The New Earth will be a laboratory for studying the applications of New Energy, and how to use it for creation. The New Earth will be a learning place where the energies of Home can come in fully. Yes, indeed the New Earth will be a beacon to Home, to allow the energies of the Kingdom, of the King and the Queen, to now expand outwards.

< DivineHuman 5 > The question is also asked, "What is the name of the New Earth?" We tell you that it has not been given a name yet. The energies are still being built. It would not be appropriate to name it at this point. We also tell you that the New Earth is a separate place, not a planet, but rather an energy build-up. This is a wonderful place from what we have seen, from what we perceive it will be. It will be a place where you will truly understand the "I Am-ness" of who you are.

< DivineHuman 5 > What happens to the Old Earth? We don’t know yet. It is up to you. It is up to the other humans. We see the strong potential for the same changes that are taking place on the New Earth to also happen on the Old Earth. We see that the understanding of "I Am" can occur here on this physical Earth, just as well. We see that the Old Earth, the physical Earth, also has the potential to release duality. We see the potential that you do not have to carry around the physical body all of the time on the Old Earth. We see the potential where there are not wars because there is nothing to battle about anymore. With the understanding of "I Am" there is no need to battle.

< DivineHuman 5QA > Duality was a wonderful game that you (God) created to help you see both sides of yourself, to help you see the mirror in order for you to understand who you were (* in the kingdom). But, now you are moving into a time and energy of "I Am. I Am Spirit. I Am God also. I Am the light, and I Am the dark. I Am That I Am." (* re-uniting of the king and the queen, male and female)

< DivineHuman 7QA > Allow yourself to express in your fullest, grandest way in the moment that you are in. Allow yourself to feel a bit uncomfortable at first with this. Allow those old feelings from the past to come back to visit (to be addressed and healed). You know the reason why old feelings, people or experiences from the past are coming to visit you now also? It is that they want to see what you have. They want to feel your enlightenment. They want to feel your divinity. So, we say to you, release all of this. Understand that the power was an illusion, that you simply are. The sabotaging and self-sabotaging will disappear.

< Embodiment 8QA > The thing that causes the most fear is remembering who you are. It causes such a violent reaction in your being - particularly when you bring yourself back to this three-dimensional state of being - that again you freeze. You allow yourself to believe that you're less than you are. There is this intense fear of letting yourself out, this intense fear of being who you are. So, you have to consider why is this fear there? Why would you possibly fear being who you are? So, why? Why would you fear being God also?

First of all, those are some big shoes to fill - to be God… but only under the current hypnotic state that you're in… the belief that you have in God… that God that is big and powerful and controls everything. So, there is this intense fear that you can't possibly fill those shoes. On the other side is the fear that perhaps there is no God, perhaps you are just the result of some cosmic accident that created life here on Earth, and you live, you know, a simple life, and then you die, and nothing happens. There is no God - that is the other fear.

So, these two fears are here, causing you - but really causing everyone - to freeze in their tracks and to then create imaginary things, like dark holes, and beings holding them back. And, it causes them to believe in conspiracy theories, and all of these other things that simply hold you back. So, if you could let go of all the belief systems and all of the hypnotic effects that you carry with you about what God is, or isn't, and you just let yourself feel what Spirit has always been and always will be, you have no shoes to fill. It is only about letting yourself experience the God-self within once again.

< Embodiment 10QA > So, these energies will come forth. You will feel them. You can feel them in your life. They, in a sense, are like a bad driver in a taxicab, taking you to all of the places you didn't want to go. It is time to dismiss that again. You dismiss it by loving it, letting it know it can be released. Hand it its walking papers, literally if you want to create that type of scenario. Hand it its walking papers. You are not bound by your family karma anymore. When Saint Germain says the words, "I am; yes, I am," that means I am free of all of those other things. "I am my own sacred and sovereign identity. I am; yes, I am."

< Clarity 6 > Now, let us add spirit to the car, spirit. Oh, imagine what that does! Spirit is purpose. Spirit is awareness. Spirit is "I am." The car now realizes that it is a car. It has its own personality, its own identity. It has a body and a brain and some feelings. But, now it is truly complete. With spirit added to this vehicle, now there is meaning. Now, there is purpose, not just survival, not just avoiding pain and seeking pleasure. But, there is the purpose of evolving and expanding, growing and creating.

< Clarity 6 > One of the other blockages, Shaumbra, the biggest blockage, the biggest blockage of all… you've been operating in the body, in the brain, and to an extent the feeling levels or dimensions. You've been removed from Spirit. Spirit has been with you, even though you've been looking out there. Spirit has been there. Now, let's bring in Spirit into this mix. It is you; it is the "I am." It is the awareness. It is the part that knows no death… you see. Spirit cannot know death… ever… never. There is no death in the heart of Spirit. It is re-creation, re-creating, re-inventing yourself over and over.

< Clarity 10 > The Ballards brought in this tremendous "I AM" energy. They were ridiculed for it, they were greatly misunderstood by many people. They were a threat to the churches who saw a million-plus followers of the work. So they were ridiculed for what they did. But, they stayed to their core. They stayed to their truth. They stayed to the "I AM" work, and they come in today very proud to be with this group of Shaumbra, sharing a new time and a new energy. Both Guy and Edna wanting to come back to this Earth soon to take part in this whole evolution of new energy.

< Teacher 10QA > By default, Shaumbra, when you have these entity visits, you feel an energy lingering around and particularly feeding off of you, by default it is going to be an aspect of yourself first. It is going to be one of these disassociated or parts of you that is still lingering. A part from another lifetime perhaps, but very often an aspect of you even from this lifetime. You are so clever, you're such a grand creator that you can disguise even these entities as something outside of yourself, but understand it is part of you.

Now, with any of these entities, whether they are a part of you or outside of you, you - the essence who exists in this Now moment, the one who is conscious of these thoughts - is the Master ... is the Master in the moment - in every moment - and you can literally demand that these entities leave. If it is an external entity, which does happen - they will play games with you at times, pretend that they have control or power over you - simply demand from your place of mastery that they leave. They have to, by the way. And if they don't leave the first time because they don't necessarily believe you - why should they believe you when you don't believe yourself? - demand three times. Use the I am. "I am the Master. I demand you leave. I am the Master." You say it long enough to yourself, even, you might even begin to believe it! But use those simple words.

Now if it is an aspect of yourself, let that aspect know that you are the Master. Let them know that they are simply an aspect and without you they are nothing. Feel the energy of that aspect. Feel where it is blocked or wounded or hurt and then release that energy. You're not trying to annihilate that aspect, you are releasing its blocked energies. "I am the Master, therefore, I release the blocked, wounded or distorted energies of you."

Now, you are tougher to deal with than an external energy because you know all of your tricks. You know your shortcomings and weaknesses, and that aspect entity is going to try to fool you. It's going to try to tell you all sorts of things; that it can't leave until you give it all of these things; it's going to lay a guilt trip on you; it's going to try to fool you, perhaps even tell you that it's not you. But again, you go back to "I am the Master, therefore I release all energies that no longer serve me - and you don't serve me! So I release you back to your pure essence."

Simple as that. If you get more complicate than that; if you get into long discussions with these entities; if you allow them to keep coming back; if you give them an inch, they'll take a foot. "I am the Master and I release you from your blocked energies. And so it is." It's that simple. They will go away.

< QuantumLeap 1 > Perhaps if there was to be one truth, it goes back to the Is-ness, the I AM. It goes back to something very basic, something you've heard for thousands of years: It's already within you. Whatever you need - already within. Healing - already within you. Knowledge, infinite, far beyond the mind. Discernment. It's an integral part of your intuition. It's there. You just have to use it. Ability to work with energy - you're a natural at it. You've been doing it ever since you left Home. You're an adept at working with and moving energy, but sometimes you like to deny that. You like to hold back. Everything - Yeshua said it, so many times - everything is already within. So as we go forward into this New Energy, this is one issue that will come up again and again as long as you allow it to be something that holds you back. You have it within. It is already there.

< QLCeleb 3 > Take the deep breath and ask yourself that question in this field of clear and easy potentials. If you feel that you're struggling with your mind right now, arm wrestling with your own head, just let it go. You don't need to do that anymore. That was from the Old. There is this thing called whatever you want - Divine Intelligence, the I Am, Yo-ham - it is the answer. Not here (pointing to head), not from the brain, but it is the answer. It is the gnost, the solution. But now we do it in the New Energy. Now be patient, after you ask the question. Be patient. Be in the moment.

< QLCeleb 4 > In this New Energy that you are in, in this new consciousness, the "I" becomes most important. Kuthumi talked about that yesterday. In the beginning there was the consciousness of "I," what Tobias calls the First Circle, back Home. It was the "I" consciousness. In the middle, especially in your times here on Earth, it was about the "We" consciousness - the groups, the families, the countries, the companies. Take a look around you. Everything is about groups - churches, fraternities, groups. Everything was about the discovery of the "We" - the collective, the together - because through that you could eventually come to the next era. It is the era that you have just entered into, the era of "I." It is You.

< QLCeleb 4 > Kuthumi talked about yesterday "What's missing." You. What's missing? The human in their life. What was missing? The sacred importance of "You" in the "We" consciousness. You were taught not to think about Self but to think about All. It was part of the learning of the angels and the humans. It was taught that it is not proper to talk well of yourself, to think of yourself first, to put yourself first and foremost and in the center of anything. But now, you transcend from being children of God to being adults of God. And as an adult God, you understand the sacred importance of "I." Without the "I" things don't shift and change. Without the "I" you don't have the discoveries and the breakthroughs. Without the "I" you don't have all of the resources of Old and New Energy coming in to create with you, to help you manifest your highest level of dreams.

< QLCeleb 4 > You come into the era of "I" where it is about taking care of yourself; about feeling into yourself; about knowing yourself; about putting yourself in the center. For when you are in the center of anything - including a void - when you are in the center of this new physics, even though it may appear to be nothing but a vacuum, the moment you put yourself there, creation happens. Right now you're sitting in a type of empty, yet full energy in this room. There seems to be nothing but there is everything. The moment you put yourself here in this "I" moment, everything starts happening.

< QLCeleb 4 > We are in the era now of "I" and it is time to shed some of the old, old hypnotic beliefs that it's about everything else. "Give up the self, be of service to everyone else, do everything for everyone else to earn your way back to heaven." We're beyond that. It is about you. Put yourself in the center of your reality. It is the energy of Yo-ham, I, the presence of God, not just in the moment or in the Now, but in the reality, in the space, in the consciousness. When your I Am presence allows Itself to be in this conscious presence, this conscious moment, anything can happen. This is where what others will call miracles will take place. But you'll understand there is no such thing as a miracle. It's all about the "I" in the present conscious moment. I am.

< QLCeleb 4 > When you become "I" ... "I" ... that changes everything. When you let go of having to take on the burdens of your families, of your companies, of your countries and all of the other things and allow yourself to be "I" - Yo-ham - in this moment, that, that will allow the New Energy to radiate all across the world. It will make it so that the change doesn't have to be so difficult, that it can be smoother and easier. It will create a consciousness reverberation across the world that will inspire researchers and scientists and artists and others. "I" make the difference. "I" am that I Am. This is a profound moment for each and every one of individual "You's." This is the moment of Yo-ham - I am God. "I am here. I am whole and complete. I can make a choice."

< QLCeleb 4 > And Shaumbra, somewhere, somewhere right now, I don't know where, somewhere the original energy of I Am, God, Spirit and All That Was is celebrating right now.

< QuantumLeap 2 > But you are learning that the most important thing is you. There's nothing missing. When you wake up in the morning and you take that first breath, whether it is a rainy day or sunny day, and you acknowledge your presence in your life in this moment, then all things shall come to be. When you acknowledge you, your divinity, then all things shall come to be. Without acknowledging you, as so many other humans do, nothing can come to be - other than what appears to be chaos, destiny, choice by others, fate, bad karma or just really shitty luck (laughter) on that particular day. But when you are fully present, your full being, every part of you - your past, your now, your potentials - all right here, then all things, all things do work out. It is a very simple principle.

< QuantumLeap 2QA > One of the things that ... by the way, in the past with Shaumbra: Shaumbra come from many different celestial families - angelic families - and Shaumbra have spent many, many lifetimes on Earth, more than any other group. Shaumbra has killed each other and stolen from each other and warred with each other - and that's the good news! (much laughter) Because they come from such different lineages and have had so many conflicts in the past, they've also said, "This isn't going anywhere. Let's gather ourselves together in this energy of this thing we call the Crimson Council and the Crimson Circle, and let's work on a way to help evolve the consciousness, not only for ourselves and between ourselves, but for humanity if they choose to accept it. Let's find a way to come from diverse backgrounds and be together."

And Shaumbra has found that the best way to be together is to be "you" first, you see. I know I've harped on this today, but when you are "you," totally complete in yourself with no need of anything from anyone else, well then it's easy to get along with everyone. So through this whole process of families and lineage and groups, you have learned to become individuals.

< MNEC2009-SG > The Awareness of Being is the New Energy confidence. It doesn't need anything else. It doesn't need to feed, it doesn't need to build, it doesn't need to keep finding new ways to identify itself. It is that it is. And oddly enough, in that state of is-ness that each and every one of you are coming into, now what you would call your accomplishments or your capabilities suddenly become very natural. You don't have to work at manifesting anything. It just is. It's a natural result of the awareness of your being.

< MNEC2009-SG > An odd thing happens. You scratch your head and say, "So for all of those lifetimes I struggled, I challenged, I went through difficulties, I went through pain and stress - all to get the things that are absolutely the natural result of the awareness of your being." Yes, absolutely. It seems like a contradiction, but it actually isn't, because in this new Awareness of the Being you also bring in all of the Old Energies of the old confidence. And they come in now to create what you always tried to create before, and they do it naturally. They do it without any pressure. They do it without any sort of challenge. It just happens.

< MNEC2009-SG > You come to realize that everything just comes to you. It's just attracted. It's just there. There's no reason to make it difficult. Spirit never demanded that it was difficult - you did. Spirit never wanted it to be a challenge for you, but you were fascinated with the challenge. You were fascinated with this whole game. But now as I see in each and every one of you, you're done with that. You're ready to move on.

< Master 2 > You're now choosing to release that energy. You're now choosing to bring it into this Now moment, this reality. You're choosing to realize, above and beyond anything, that your history itself is an illusion. Your history itself is nothing but potentials. You are not … you are not your history. You are not the past that you think you are. And this is the "I Am" principle.

< Master 8 > And they actually quiet down for a moment. They're ready to pounce again at any point, but they quiet down for a moment. In this sacred safe space is when you really start hearing your real voice, your Body of Consciousness voice, your aware voice. So this is a safe space. You know all these voices haunt you at times, but now you're really starting to realize the I Am. You're not letting them run the farm anymore, you're taking back the leadership. You're taking back yourself. You're taking back the I Am that I Am.

< Master 9 > So, no, humans don't, but you, my dear friends, can integrate the divine will, the free will, back into the I Am where it's no longer differentiated. The I Am is everything. You don't need free will at that point. You don't even need divine will. The two come together, and it becomes the I Am.

< (Next) 1 > Take a deep breath and feel and imagine the potentials of your I Am - every potential that was written and every potential from this moment on - for you. Not in some far off place, but right here. Right here in this amazing creation called you. In this amazing creation of the human and the divine, the thing that ETs and aliens would love to have, but it's yours; the thing that they're drooling at the mouth, if they had one, to have - to be human, to be divine, to be so very real, to have a mind, to really understand the existence of the I Am. Imagine every potential. Just feel into it.

< (Next) 6 > It's not about being intelligent or smart. It's about being the I Am. The intuitive nature is quantum leaps ahead of the mind. The knowingnesses that come in, the ability to just energetically tap into the Akashic Records, which are just a small part of everything, the ability to tap into mass consciousness and future potentials will never come from the mind. It comes from the Body of Consciousness, which is the physical body, the mind, the spirit, the gnost - every part of you coming together.

< (Next) 6 > "I Am that I Am, because I don't give a damn." When you give a damn, you literally block out the I Am. Humans get caught in the giving a damn. As a matter of fact, it becomes part of their reason for living. They have to care about something. They have to have a passion. They have to have a mission and a cause and a purpose. It keeps them going. It keeps them very righteous. Ultimately, in the true I Am Presence, it doesn't matter. It really doesn't. I don't give a damn. It doesn't matter, because it's all in perfection. It all works out. You are God also. Stop struggling with it. Stop caring about it.

< (Next) 10 > "I Am." And it's not "I Am that I was," but that's the way you live! That's how you are living. "I Am that I was. (laughter) I'm not sure what the hell I'm going to be." It is that "I Am that I Am becoming." And the becoming is in this moment. "I Am the becoming. I Am that I Am." Simplified - "I Am."

< (Next) 10 > Everything else (but I Am) is an act. Everything else is just for fun. Everything else is part of an experience. But instead of being unaware of who created the experience, instead of being unaware of why the experience, instead of being unaware of how you get out of the experience, suddenly it all comes together. It all starts to make intuitive divine sense. Not human sense. It will not make human sense, but it will make divine sense.

< (Next) 11 > There's nothing within except the I Am. That I Am, if you can trust that in yourself, brings in all the appropriate energies without effort, aligns them in the most brilliant way that doesn't cause you any suffering, doesn't cause you to pay for your sins, doesn't cause you to have to play games and manipulation and energy. It just is. It's such a grand way to live. Very few have done that while in human form, very few. Many have tried. Many have not gotten there yet. There have been what you would call collective beings, brilliant masters, but they were a collective energy of groups, of people that have come here and done amazing things. But true souled beings like you? Very few.

< (Next) 11 > Why are there so few that have really gotten to that point of pure consciousness? Because you came here as a representative of your angelic families, and you still have that attribute, that responsibility is a large part of you. You are connected into mass consciousness of the planet, because you love the planet. So naturally you would be very connected to mass consciousness. Mass consciousness is not something that you can do just a little bit of or get a little bit away from. It's kind of an all-or-nothing, and it's difficult to make that kind of split.

And then on top of that there are those who profess the grand oneness (angelic family). They talk about "You are all one." Do you really want to wait for the last one to pass through that? No. No, and for a very good reason. They need you. They need to see your light. They need to see the walking conscious Master on Earth, otherwise they're not going to come through. Otherwise, they're going to stay back there. And that big oneness, that big Borg, is just going to stay stuck in its big drifting square in the ethers. ("Borg" refers to a collective portrayed in Star Trek)

But it's very difficult to let go of the oneness, of the spiritual family, of the Order, of the commitment. That's why there's been so few. That's why so many have turned back when they're within sight of the ascension, of the understanding, the knowing of the I Am. They turn around.

< e2012 1> As you start to become aware of it through the senses, your physical senses, even through your mind, and the mind starts saying, "Am I present?" and then through your intuition, you're finally going to start feeling yourself more present. You're going to start feeling more around you. You're going to have more awareness of yourself present.

And the moment you have awareness of what is present, what is here, you're going to start understanding what is not present. You're going to understand what you've been holding back on. Then, my dear, you get that state of pure consciousness that goes beyond any of these types of awareness. It becomes the I Am awareness. The I Am awareness, and the fact that "I am present and that's all that counts. I Am that I Am, every part, every piece, the Body of Consciousness, every aspect, every thought, every feeling. I am fully aware. I Am that I Am."

< e2012 2 > But the real magic is the awareness of yourself, of your presence right now, in every dimension that you're operating. You like to think that you're just operating here, but you're operating in a multitude of dimensions. This (human reality) is kind of the center where so much of it's happening. Yes, a lot of amazing things are happening for you, with you, in these other realms. This is kind of the point where it's all coming together, where it's all coming into focus and it's all coming into materialization.

< e2012 3 > Well, what's wrong is you're not allowing yourself to be a sensual being, with every sense that you have; so immersed into life that you don't care if you get lost, because you won't. You really won't. So immersed into yourself, the I Am, that you really don't care where you go or what happens, because you're on such a sensual journey into yourself, and therefore, with others. There's definitely a resistance to immersing into you. It's like, "Well, that sounds selfish." It sounds like you should be doing everything for everybody else. Absolutely not. Letting yourself be so into you, so wildly and madly in love with yourself - that's what changes this planet.

< e2012 3 > Religions cannot exist the way they are today with the imbalance - the dramatic, enormous imbalance - between the masculine and feminine energies. They cannot. It's inconceivable that they would even have those conditions in the churches. Just the same as you cannot have a religion based on just the feminine - just Isis. Isis wouldn't do it anyway, but you could not do it. It's about the balance of masculine and feminine, because that together is God, is the I Am. You can't exclude one. Religions are holding back what should be a burst of consciousness right now, because of a lot their rhetoric, their rules, their imbalances.

< e2012 5 > Inviting your soul, your wisdom, potentials, your I Am-ness into the tube, into this reality is perhaps the greatest gift you could have ever given yourself. So a funny thing happened. We talked about what would you tell a human being about this year. Imagine just for a moment that you are the soul; you were outside now giving advice to the human in the tube, that you gave all these for yourself. You're the divinity giving it to that human aspect. What if it wasn't the human sitting here inviting the divine in, what if it was just the other way around? What if it wasn't the human sitting here making a list, but those were from the divine?

< freedom 1 > When Spirit, the Eternal One, gifted you with your potential sovereignty, your unique I Am-ness, said, “Go forth. Discover yourself. Discover the I Am,” you did. All of you did. Any souled being did. But they came to a point, a point that still exists, a point that's still in its form of stuck energy because of stuck consciousness. Consciousness of all of the angelic beings played and had fun and created cosmic, angelic experiences. But at a certain point, this consciousness –your consciousness, the consciousness of your angelic families, of the Order of the Arc and everything else – suddenly stopped and said, “The next step is freedom.”

Freedom from what? Well, essentially freedom from Spirit. Freedom from Home. Freedom from God. Freedom from the Eternal One. You see, as children of God, we all come to the point of even releasing that. Some of you saying, “But, but, but … how can I possibly have freedom from Spirit? Am I not Spirit? What happens when I accept my freedom from Spirit, from the Godhead?” Well, you suddenly accept the I Am-ness and your own sovereignty, free and independent – something that Spirit always wanted. Always wanted.

< freedom 1 > Now it's time for freedom, something the Eternal One has always wanted. Why? Well, you could say that to truly know the I Am-ness of the Eternal One, of Spirit, Mother/Father God, however you want to put it, to truly understand it, there had to be freedom. There had to be a final release of self, a final letting go of self. No more control of self, and for a long time that self was also you. But ultimately it's about the release, about letting go, so Spirit, the Eternal One, can really know thyself. As you come to know yourself, to accept your freedom and sovereignty, Spirit will understand Its sovereignty.

< freedom 6 > And then, in this globe, if you look at its entirety, that is the Eternal YHWH, the I Am that cannot be spoken, but that is always present. And this is you also. This is beautiful you, and right now there is an aspect that is shining, a beam of light illuminating an aspect, the name that you wear on your name badge or have on your lost driver's license. Shining the light on there, but did you know that there is another name that you have? It's the culmination of all of your earthly lifetimes that's yet another aspect.

< freedom 6 > You can study. You can work hard, but ultimately it's only the love of self that will bring you into the I Am-ness of yourself. It's not how much you know, how much money you have, how many spiritual rituals you've ever done that will bring you to this wholeness. It is simply the acceptance, the compassion and the love of self. Period. Nothing else needs to be studied. Nothing else needs to be attained. Nothing needs to be bought or bartered for. Simply the love of self, but perhaps also the most difficult thing you'll ever do.

< freedom 6 > The soul is much like this beautiful globe. The soul comes initially empty simply wanting to know itself, so it creates this thing called aspects that eventually turn into facets. And the aspects, through their experiences, start filling the empty vessel with experience and knowingness, wisdom and love. Within the empty vessel when it first starts, it is filled with potentials, but the potentials have yet to be realized or experienced. So it is like it is empty, and the desire of the soul is to fill itself with its potentials and its experiences, to know the I Am of itself. And it cannot do that through Spirit. It cannot do that through another being, even though it has tried. It can only do it through the experience of its potentials (of energy).

And when this vessel is full, when it has felt into its potentials and experienced as many as it chooses to experience, and even felt into the ones that were never experienced in physical reality, it becomes complete, pure, crystalline, fulfilled. That is the I Am. And within that state of I Am, this vessel, this soul, knows itself beyond knowingness. It knows all of its facets, all of its angles,

And you ask, “Does it continue to experience?” Yes, it does, but not like a human experiences. It continues to experience its love for itself, and that's all it needs, all it wants, all it desires. When the vessel is full, complete, it continues to fall in love with itself every breath, every moment, without condition, without doubt, certainly without shame. It continues to fall in love with itself, because that is the grandest thing of all. I Am that I Am falling in love with myself each day.

< freedom 7 > The appropriate answer to the truth of truths is “I exist.” That's it, Shaumbra. I exist. That is the original truth – “I exist, therefore, I am.” I exist. Nothing else matters. Everything after that is either another truth but not the core, or a mistruth. From the simple words “I exist” come all truths and mistruths. I exist. That's what you felt when you left Home – the loving, comforting home of Spirit – went into the darkness, went into absolute nothingness and said and felt, “I exist. I Am that I Am.” Nothing else matters. There is no other truth more important than that. Do you realize the significance of that? “I exist, therefore, I can create. Therefore, I can live. Therefore, I can be. Therefore, I can feel. I can be sensual. I can have joy. I can have sadness. I can have lack and I can have abundance. I exist.”

< freedom 8 > Consciousness continues to unfold. It continues to become. It's not static. It doesn't just stay in its current level of consciousness. To say that it grows isn't quite right, or to expand; it continues to become more conscious. So we put a circle around that – the circumpunct, the symbol for consciousness, the I Am. Very simple. You could say also it started with the spark of Spirit. You're going to discover sooner or later that that wasn't actually true, but we'll use it. We'll pretend for right now that it was, hopefully confuse a few of you about that.

< freedom 8 > So this is the I Am. As I said before, it doesn't exist anywhere. It doesn't have a place in outer space of its own. It doesn't need it. It does not exist within time. It doesn't need it. It is totally on its own. It is not energy. This is one of perhaps the greatest illusions, fallacies, or mistruths that humans believe. Consciousness does not contain energy. Because, first of all, if you thought that it did, and particularly in the way most people think about energy, suddenly you become victim to energy, and consciousness is corruptible in that scenario. But it's not true. Consciousness contains no energy, does not exist in any particular time or space. It is yours, solely yours.

< freedom 8 > You're going to bring in energy and it's going to be attracted to the pure state of the I Am consciousness. You're going to find how playful it is, how creative it is, how fulfilling it is. Things like drama, things like struggle, efforting, tension, straining, tiredness, all these become a thing of the past. It won't happen overnight, but it will happen very quickly. And in doing so, you're going to enter into a new world, a new reality for yourself. You're still going to be in the world of the asleep and of the blind so it will be awkward at times. It will be uncomfortable because you're going to be working on different levels. You'll feel that you're no longer in the world or necessarily of it, but that too will come back into balance. You'll assimilate, you'll adapt this new “I Am” Self in the old “I Was” world.

< Discovery 1 > Consciousness is not something that you acquire. You expand or you become aware of the consciousness you already have. When the consciousness is combined with the experience, now you have something almost indescribable. Consciousness (=soul) itself is like an empty vessel. It's there. It exists and now it wants to fill itself with the experience, with the reality, with the sensory experience of itself. Consciousness then knows consciousness, or connects with consciousness, in a much deeper and more profound way. It's all about consciousness loving to experience itself, for the glory, for the wisdom, for the I Am-ness.”

< Discovery 5 > The knowingness is already there. It doesn't come from me. It doesn't come from that God. It's already right there. It's not in your belly necessarily; it's in your moment. It's in your I Am-ness. It has the answer to everything, even if you're faking it. It knows where to be at the exact right moment. It knows how to bring in the exact right amount of energy at the exact right moment. It is trust and it is love. And, by the way, this year, if you're having a difficult time loving yourself – I guess that is a pretty big leap for some – at least just be kind to yourself. Start with being kind to yourself.

< Discovery 6 > A Master is one who is conscious of their consciousness. They are aware. That's pretty much it. They're aware. You can throw in a lot of other words – enlightened and everything else – but it's really the awareness. Most humans, they know that they are living. Even though they're desperately trying to have feeling in their life, life in their life, they know they're living through their suffering, through their lack, through things they don't have. Oh yes, at times through romance and love and accomplishment, but mostly, mostly they're not aware of themselves. They're not conscious of their consciousness.

< Discovery 6 > Indeed, they get up in the morning and go about their routines – routines that have been very deeply programmed in – but never, if very seldom, do they stop and say, “Ah, I exist. I Am. I Am.” The Master – the Master knows they are conscious, conscious of their consciousness. It's that simple. A simple, simple awareness – “I Am. I exist. Here I am, nothing else matters. Not what came before me, not what happened in another lifetime, not what happened yesterday. It doesn't matter. I Am in this moment.” That's a Master.

< Discovery 6 > You don't have to negotiate anymore. All you have to do is take a deep breath and be in the knowingness that it's already worked out.  You are a being of consciousness. When working with others you're going to find a very interesting dynamic. If you maintain the I Am Presence, negotiation is already done. It's already over. You've already gotten what you came there to get. And don't be afraid of getting it, because you're never going to ask for too much and you're never going to ask for it at the expense of another. You'll find them literally and somewhat metaphorically coming to the table and being there in service to you, as long as you're not playing that game of power and mind.

< Discovery 7 > Why do they spend countless hours in strange, seated positions, and many times suffering, in this thing called meditation to try to gain awareness? There's an easier way. You allow it. You allow it. You let it be with you in every moment, everything you do. It's called consciousness in life. Embodied consciousness, aware of the “I Am, I Exist” at the core, and then aware of this reality, this beautiful, sensual reality.

< Discovery 7 > Now, there were lifetimes where you had that connection in dream state, in between lifetimes, but for many humans now it's been many thousands and thousands of years – 5,000 for some, 10,000 years, not you, but others – since they've had that touch of Source. Then they get so lost and they get so disillusioned and they get so deep into the matrix of this reality that they just go longer and longer. One eventually has to have that reconnection with their Source, with their I Am; one eventually has to re-experience it, otherwise they truly go crazy. And then they try things like dying, thinking that's a solution, thinking that's the release. But finding that when you die, it's the same thing.

< Discovery 11 > “Because when one does not recognize themselves, Spirit does not recognize them either.” That is the greatest gift of compassion that Spirit can offer. Hmmm. Hmmm. Hmmm. When you do not recognize your own existence, when you rely on others for measure, for assessment, to know whether you're doing right or wrong. When you do not see yourself through your own eyes and hear yourself through your own ears, Spirit doesn't recognize you either. Spirit doesn't know you exist until the moment you know you exist, you see.

< Kharisma 1> But here it's going to be a little bit different. It's not just about a shiny, happy personality. The Kharisma is the grace from within. The Kharisma is that natural really authentic you, sans the personality that's not you, coming forth. It's the real you. It's the I Am in expression. Kharisma. It's there. It's already within you. It's already inside just ready to come out. It's the authentic you, the one you keep asking yourself about. You keep saying, “Well, am I being authentic?” Well, no. Actually, you weren't. So back away so that your authenticity can come out, so that the real you can come out.

< WalkOn 2 > Consciousness is everything. Everything. Period. It all starts with consciousness. And as you have seen me draw many, many times, this circle with the dot in the center represents consciousness. It's the “I Exist.” And not “I Exist with anything around me.” In the true “I Exist,” there is nothing. There's not even black. It's not even just dark. It's not just quiet. It's nothing whatsoever. There are no angels. There is no me. There is no past. There is no future. There is just you – “I Exist.” When you get to that state, when you really, really experience it, everything that is so human, everything that is so trivial goes away, because you realize you have always existed, always, and you always will. This is core. And this simple circle with a dot in the middle, my friends, is going to change the course of human history in the not too distant future. That simple little symbol right there is going to change things in your lifetime.

< WalkOn 2 > Some of you are really starting to understand. And it kind of rings a bell within you, this “I Exist,” this consciousness, and it strips away all the makyo. It strips away all the old beliefs systems. And it washes away things like what you thought were your problems and your issues and everything else. And you suddenly realize “I Exist.” Death doesn't matter. Your relatives don't matter. Your job doesn't matter. When I say, “It doesn't matter,” meaning you've been putting undue effort and focus into these things. They don't matter. With true consciousness all of this just kind of falls into place. Life becomes synchronous. It just happens, and the leading edge of all of it is consciousness. Where do you want your consciousness to be?

< WalkOn 2 > And I'd like you to feel, sense – really sense right now – this time and space moving through you. You're the constant. Your consciousness is the constant. It's always there. It is always, always, always, always in the Now moment. Consciousness cannot be out of the Now moment. Selfish me human, it can be out. It can go in the past and the future. But the Now moment is consciousness. Consciousness is the Now moment. You are the constant. You are that light, that projector light that I talked about.

< Transhuman 3 > Allowing means getting out of your way, getting out of the human way. There is a natural evolution, natural cycles that, when one allows, will bring in new levels of light, literal light into that body of yours; light that will take you out of patterns, even when the human is still trying to hold on to it, if you allow. And I say light, again, because light is – we're not talking about the lights of the sun or the studio here – but it is the movement of the passion of the I Am. It's light, and this light then attracts energy. The energy is what literally changes the structures and the mechanics and the outer world, but it's the light let into the body that will change the patterns of the body. It's the light that's allowed, eventually, into the mind that changes the mind.

< Emergence 1 > You can imagine the “I Am, I Exist” just in the joy of being. Doesn't need anything, but it's having this constant orgasm of Self, overfilling and just letting out and then bringing it in again, just for the sake of creation, just for the sake of its existence. Joy only. No regrets, no sadnesses. It's all joy. So this is constantly filling the cup of the I Am, and then the I Am shining back again to the human saying, “Go to experience once again. Go to experience. Don't worry about the past. It's been brought to wisdom. Experience in your life.”

< Emergence 1 > It is the trinity of the Master, the I Am and the human working in unison, for they are the same, but working in unison. The human having its experiences, but now experiences of its choosing and of its joy, the Master always bringing wisdom to everything. And now, instead of wisdom occurring at death or years after an experience, the wisdom occurs simultaneous with the experience. Therefore, no wounds. Therefore, no doubts. It is brought to wisdom in the moment. And the I Am, in its constant radiance of joy, its constant knowingness of the I Exist, I Am, its constant being in its own creation, for true creation is simply the I Am in joy, the human going in to experience that creation, and the Master always bringing it into wisdom and back into the heart of the I Am.

< Emergence 2 > You know, the human component of the trinity – you have the I Am, some would call the soul, the Master, which is the wisdom of all the lifetimes and the future, and then the human – the human I think has the job that's the most fun, because they're all about experience. And the nice thing is when all this was kind of created, you know, this whole I Am/Master/human thing and the I Am sent forth an expression of itself to come to Earth as a human, if you remember this, the I Am – some people call it the soul – the I Am said, “You know, you're the experiential part of me. You're that facet of me that is going to go forth into experience. Not learning. There's nothing to learn. Simply experience for the joy of I Am-ness, existence.” You see, the I Am is like this constant big orgasm.

< Emergence 2 > The I Am is in this constant state of joyful expression. Just the chalice of the I Am filling up over and over and just overflowing. It's this constant in its joy of the “I Exist.” You know, the I Am is not real complicated. The soul is not real complex. It's in a constant state of “I Exist!” and then boom! Spiritual orgasm. And then I Exist! Boom! Constantly feeling this. When I work with many of you and I say, “Let's go back to the 'I Exist,'” I want you to tap into that joy of the soul that has always existed. It was never created. It can never be uncreated. It's simply in an innocent joy of “I Exist.” And it sent forth part of itself, which became human eventually and is here in the experience of existing.

< Emergence 2 > So now into phase two, you're on the planet Earth and you take on the human form. In a way, you kind of leave behind the wisdom, the Master, and you leave behind the I Am, the soul. You don't leave them behind, but you kind of shut the door so you're not aware of them, so that you could get away from all those senses that you'd created – because it was kind of confusing now – and go into Focus and go into experience. Go into deep experience. And the experience with this sense of focus, this experience was all about finding answers. Finding answers to the “Who am I?” question, but I would say there was an adjunct, a side question that came right along with this that your soul was asking: “Am I ready to be a creator?”

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