core issue / core fear / core wound / last grand wound

wound of Chiron
/Isis; wound of separation; old wound/issue/fear;
greatest fear; innate fear; ingrained fear; fear of creating; fear of bad creation;

1. guilt of leaving Home; separation; division; separation of Chiron and Isis;
2. fear of the ability to create anything; destruction; making chaos;

< New Earth 1 > Do you know, dear friends, that your greatest fear is your ability to create? You worry that, left without walls, left without rules, and restrictions, and barriers, and filters, that you might create something ugly, or terrible. You think back to the days before you ever came to Earth when you were creating the physical universe, when there were great wars and great battles. And, you said to yourself, "I will NEVER express my power in that way again!" And, here you are, standing before us, asking why you can't create?

< Creator 7 > There is an ingrained fear within you, within all humans, of your creator powers. There is a reluctance to create once again, for it has been a long time, and there is still a shame and a guilt associated with what you perceive you have done in the past. There is an original sin that you perceive in yourself of crossing through this Wall of Fire. You feel you went too far. You feel that you battled in the energy of chaos in the process of the building of the void. Oh, dear friends, the battles that took place then would make Star Wars look like child’s play! So when we talk of using your true creator abilities, some of you may be taken aback. Some of you will wonder if this is the right thing and think perhaps that it is not time.

< Creator 7 > First you may come to some fear here. You may wonder what you are really creating, and what is going to happen as a result of your new creation? This fear relates back to the time before you came to Earth. It relates to the shame that you have felt for crossing through the Wall of Fire, for leaving the kingdom. Address this fear. Sit with it in your new house. Understand it and talk to it. This fear could be your best friend, or as a creator this fear could be your worst enemy. This fear, if left unattended, will come back to you. It will come back looking like an alien. (audience laughter) We mean that seriously. If you allow this fear to grow and to have power, it will take you back to places where this fear was birthed.

< Creator 7 > There is an innate fear within each of you of creating something that is not appropriate. This has frozen many of you up to this day. You have been reluctant to create because you did not know if it would be the right thing. You have been waiting for Spirit to tell you how to create and what to create, because you did not want to be inappropriate once again. The Oven of Grace, your own divinity and the love of Spirit will make it so that you do not create inappropriately. With the four marbles and the balance within you, you will not create bad or dark. With the love that is within you, you will not create the wrong thing.

< Creator 11QA > One of the challenges that humans have of moving into the new energy is a fear of creating. There is a core fear within all of you. It has come from experiences in the past on Earth and before you came here. The outcome was not what you would have expected. It comes from a feeling of guilt - a spiritual guilt - that you did something wrong when you left Home. This fear comes from knowing, at the core level, how truly powerful you are, knowing that you have the power to create anything. Anything is possible. Then what happens is this old fear, the old spiritual guilt, hits the brakes and won't allow you to create in the way you would truly like.

< Creator 11QA > These are core issues. You are done with your other basic issues. You have walked through and processed those. We are now coming to the core issues. The issue of the fear of being Creator. We talked much today of the ego, of the male energy, of the battling energy. These are all fear issues that will come up. In a sense, you would like to be "junior creators", or "sub-creators". You would like to have an energy higher and stronger and above you that places controls or limitations on the extent of your ability to create. Dear friends, it is not meant to be that way! There is not meant to be another who is higher. As we said in our story of Jack, one day Jack will inherit the throne.

< Creator 11QA > There is no other being who will restrict your ability to create. There is a core fear that you do not have an outside Father/God energy to watch over and to regulate your creations. You tend to put on the brakes. We are telling you now that in the new energy it is different. Your own divine self will not allow you to create inappropriately. This divine balance comes from within you. It comes from the wisdom of all of your past experiences. It comes from your True Self.

< Creator 11QA > At the core level, dear one, and all of you who experience this feeling, this deep sorrow is specifically what we have spoken of. You have cleared your other issues that were based on the karma of your soul. We talked today of clearing your ancestral karma. But your core issue, your core sorrow, goes back to when you left Home. It was a traumatic experience. When you crossed through the Wall of Fire, you shattered into billions of pieces. You were in a state of complete fragmentation for what seemed eons of time.

When you left the Wall of Fire, you entered a void. There was nothing. You were cold. You felt you had been banished from the Kingdom. You were separated from Spirit, from your own spiritual parents. You were separated from God. You had never felt anything like this. It was the lowest of feelings. This is what you call the original sin. You call it sin, we do not; we know better. But this feeling of loss and separation would be like that of a young child who is abandoned by its parents, wondering why it was not worthy of love, wondering why they set it out in the cold. You felt you lost the connection of the love between mother and child. You felt you lost the connection of a fatherly love.

< Creator 11QA > These (mind-) drugs provided padding and perhaps were appropriate but we see, for those who are moving into the new energy, that these are something that you will want to release. Cauldre can also feel our emotions and knows that we do not so much like these drugs! You are hiding from the problem (snake) rather than addressing it with these. The work of a good new energy facilitator will do much to balance and heal than what these drugs can do. There are core issues that are seeking to come out here. Your doctors and counselors of the new energy can help address the deep inner issues that are causing the imbalances in the first place.

< Creator 12 > You woke into this (void), dear friends, carrying nothing with you from Home. In the metaphor it would mean that you had no luggage. You had no belongings. You had no real remembrances. You woke up into nothing. It was part of your new journey. It was part of your new adventure. And from this there was a tremendous sense of loneliness and separation and guilt and anger. When you woke up in the void after you left Home, after you left the original creation, there was nothing. The feelings of loneliness and separation and guilt and anger and sadness and the wanting to return back to wholeness and completeness have been with you ever since. That is why you cry at night the way you do. We hear you. We understand what it is like.

< Ascension 4QA > Speaking of which, we have talked to you in our recent gatherings and said that the real problems on Earth at this time are not even about religions battling with religions, or countries against countries. The real core energy issue is about the imbalance of male and female. Now, perhaps you will understand why relationships are the first casualty. But, they also have the greatest potential for new consciousness in this New Energy.

< DivineHuman 5QA > Do you know, dear friends, that your greatest fear is your ability to create? You worry that, left without walls, left without rules, and restrictions, and barriers, and filters, that you might create something ugly, or terrible. You think back to the days before you ever came to Earth when you were creating the physical universe, when there were great wars and great battles. And, you said to yourself, "I will NEVER express my power in that way again!" And, here you are, standing before us, asking why you can't create?

< DivineHuman 7QA > There is a fear… there is a fear of being powerful. There is also a fear of not having power. This is a conflict that is taking place within you. And you are not alone. There are so many who are experiencing this also. You feel that if you open up, perhaps the dragon within you will come out, the dragon that in the past has destroyed universes, destroyed other humans, destroyed yourself. So, there is this conflict. There is this self-sabotage.

< NewEnergy 2 > There are religions on Earth right now that treat women like second-class citizens. Those women have agreed to be treated like that. They are carrying a burden from the past, a time long before you ever came to Earth, when the feminine energy was in power and was very abusive. The feminine energy had learned how to be the seductress. It still is. There was an abuse of power, so now there are many women who allow themselves to suffer and continue to suffer for this. They wear veils over their faces. They cannot even sit in the churches. They cannot allow themselves to be seen. They are covered in a shroud of guilt. They suffer for old wounds. It is time to let go of that.

< NewEnergy 2QA > This old patriarchal energy came as a result of old wounds that occurred long before you ever came to Earth. The consciousness of humanity felt that there needed to be a stern father-type of figure, a predominant disciplinarian figure in order to prevent things that had happened in the past. So, in a sense, you would have to say that both sexes - the male and the female - agreed to this. But, it is greatly out of balance. This male energy has been so much a part of the religious structure and the cultural structure.

< NewEnergy 4 > It is the energy of Chiron, the Wounded Warrior… the victim… the warrior who has guilt of what he has done… the wounds, the karma, and the remembrance of the past. So, the Wounded Warrior has to come in right now to be part of this Star of David to say, "Are you ready to release the wounds?"… because that is what keeps the two halves from coming back together. That is what is keeping the union of the male and female from happening - is the Wounded Warrior, Chiron. That is what is keeping the separation of heaven and Earth - Chiron.

< NewEnergy 4 > The wound is deep. That is part of the reason for the anger also that you have been experiencing. Why… why the wound? Will the wound ever heal? Or must we continue on this cycle again, a cycle that could span tens of thousands of years? The alignment that is coming about (Harmonic Concordance) - that was going to be there anyway - the alignment is very rare, very rare. There is the eclipse that happens with it, the hiding of the moon energy, the hiding, the - how to say - something that comes between the male and the female. But, it is also a time of clearing.

< NewEnergy 4 > But, understand that the energy of Chiron is so strong that you may miss the whole point. The energy of Chiron is so overwhelming, the wounds so deep that you may let this opportunity, this event pass because the wounds are so deep… and the sadness. Or it will bring back… it will bring back the remembrance of where you have been. This will be a very intense week for many of you, a time for deep breathing. It will bring back - whether it is to your intellect or just to your inner feelings - remembrances of a long, long time ago, long before you ever came to Earth, mostly of those times before you ever came to Earth.

< NewEnergy 4 > Chiron had to come back, for it needs healing. It is an aspect. It is part of you. It is still wounded. You have put it off somewhere else. You don't like it when Chiron comes around in your charts. You try to put it off somewhere else. You try to even hide it behind other planets. But, it comes in full force now for the wounds to be healed, for us to move forward, Shaumbra, and for you to move forward. Allow yourself to be healed. Understand… understand that there never was any wrong. There was only experience. Understand that as Spirit can love you so much, then you can love yourself also.

< NewEnergy 4 > Chiron arrives for one simple purpose - healing, healing the wound. That means you releasing your Old Energy notions about what that was.

< NewEnergy 4 > Part of this process of healing, of understanding the wounds… your wound is simply a division. That's all it is - a division, a cut that divides. Part of it is taking responsibility for all of your journey, for everything up to now. But, in responsibility comes enlightenment… and love… and understanding… and compassion of why you created what you created. Responsibility is knowing that you did something… that you created… but also knowing there was a divine plan in it.

< NewEnergy 4 > You think because of some of the - how to say - your perception of destruction and chaos, of working with the dark forces… you think that is something to be shameful of. You have carried that wound with you for so long. Some of you here allowed yourself to be enlisted by the dark forces. Oh, your movies (referring to the Star Wars movies) depict it so well. You go over to the dark side. You work for them because of your anger. And, then you feel guilty about it, and you make yourself suffer. We are talking about events that took place a long, long time ago, in a place far, far away. But, dear friends, it was only a breath away.

< NewEnergy 4 > But, in that love you also battled others to protect those you loved. And, in that love you felt the deepest form of betrayal when they walked out on you. In that love you felt what it was like to be angry because of something they had done to you. You gave your heart to them. Why did they not give it back to you? In all of this healing and all of this transformation of energy… it is about taking responsibility that you created this. Don't try to figure it out. Don't try to go back into these past lives and retrace it.

< NewEnergy 4 > The male energy that you have allowed to get strong, women… you have allowed it to get strong because you are hiding from who you are and what you have done. The wound of Isis is deep, deeper than the wound of Chiron. You know exactly what we are speaking about here. You have tried to hide it. You've been angry about it. You don't know what to do with it. You have turned over responsibility to the male. It is time for the divine to meet the human. It is time for the man to meet the woman. It is time for you to release Isis now. The wound has been deep. But, seven days from now, we can all heal this thing. It is all of our past - not just a human thing - it is all of our past.

< NewEnergy 4QA > This whole concept of the Star of David - of the two triangles separated, but yet with some overlap on them - represents one of the very core wounds that is carried. It is also interesting that some of you have already figured it out. It is also interesting that this is the symbol for the "children of Israel," for the land where I came from. So, could you imagine now a week from today… can you imagine the potential for healing in this land… for healing of the Jewish race?

You know, they have called upon so many others - the Palestinians… the Jordanians… Syrians… all of the rest in this area - to help them act out, to help them - how to say - go through some of their old, old ancient karmas from long before any of you ever came to Earth. And, they put it right there in front of the world to see - the separation, the symbol of separation, the symbol of the wound - they put it there. It is a time for them also to heal. Because of my many lifetimes with this spiritual family of Israel, I will be working in this next week of time to facilitate a healing process.

< NewEnergy 5 > And, they come in now, knowing that you have chosen to heal, bringing back together all of the energies. They come in today… particularly for those who are going through some of the struggles of healing the old wounds… a feeling that they are not worthy to let go… a feeling of shame for things that have been done in the past… and for you who have been physically abused. For you women who have been physically abused, this is a sign that you did not feel worthy, that you opened yourself up to this type of abuse. And, it is time to heal that now.

< NewEnergy 5 > Your wounds, dear ones, are very deep… the scars caused from the initial wounding of Isis. And, then there are the burdens that you have taken upon yourself in this lifetime and some of the other recent ones… subjecting yourself to the masculine energies who abused you physically… as well as emotionally, and mentally… and caused you to shut down… caused you to hold back… caused you to go into a place of fear and mistrust of yourself.

< NewEnergy 5 > When you gathered together on this Harmonic Concordance, you helped to bring in more of this New Energy, to make it easier for the energies of God, of Home,(Elohim) to come here, to make it easier for the energy of the divine within you to reach out and expand, to grow within. It was a delightful time we had with you. And, indeed there will be other milestones along the way, other dates and times that help to - what you would call - anchor this energy, to help it bring it in. But, the process has started. The changes are occurring. They are going in you and through you right now. It was a delight for us to share this procession, this ceremony with you, this healing of a very Old wound, what we'd almost term the last grand wound to be healed before this time of 2007.

< NewEnergy 8 > It is time to trust yourself enough… you see… time to trust everything about yourself. You've put the imagination away because you were afraid of your own creative abilities. The greatest fear and the greatest gift is this thing called imagination. In past times you have seen what can be done with it. But, you have learned much since then. It is time to open it up. It is time to open the imagination up from a New place… in a New Energy… in a safe energy… and in an energy that embraces life.

< Embodiment 6 > You are allowing that (victimhood) to be a hindrance and a block. Why? Because you don't necessarily want to face what it's like to be a Creator. You're sometimes afraid of going back to being a full and conscious Creator. You regret some of the things that were done in the past, especially before you came to Earth. You see… I created this cottage that we are sitting in. I made it real through the imagination. You used to do that also, especially before you ever came to Earth in a human body. When you were creating the stars and the heavens, when you were free out there, without a body, you could create very quickly and imagine very quickly. There were many, many things you didn't like about what you created.

< Embodiment 6 > Only when it (old issue) is embodied can it be released. Do you understand? Things that you deny, things that you hate will follow you around. Things that you embody and bring in fully into your reality and love and admire, even if they were dark - and remember what darkness truly is - only when they are embodied can they be released. When they are released, the energy serves you in a whole New way.

< Embodiment 7QA > This whole concept of self-love is perhaps the core issue for all angels and all humans. So, you are addressing something that is so basic and so important and a challenge that you face and all Shaumbra face. When you can accept yourself as you truly are and get to that level, then you are truly expressing as God also. Don't give yourself a hard time for this ability to accept and love self. It is the most challenging thing.

The moment that you - and any of us - went through the Wall of Fire, it was all a matter of coming to this point of love and acceptance. Now, I'm simplifying it. But, that is truly what it's been about. When you come to that intimate connection with yourself (all aspect of you) and your divinity, all of the elements, everything you've ever been done or been, come back together in the Now moment. And, there is almost like an explosion of this blissful energy that takes place. And, then you realize that you are a Creator. You realize how simple it is to create anything around you.

So, you are on the perfect and right track. You're coming down to core issues. You're not worrying about the little stuff anymore. You're getting down to the basics. And, we know you've gone through many cycles of releasing. It takes a lot of cycles. It takes tremendous amount of movement of energy to work through all of these layers, all of these stories that have been created, all of the things you've been experiencing. But, I would say to you - and to all of Shaumbra - you are getting there. You are close.

< Embodiment 8QA > The thing that causes the most fear is remembering who you are. It causes such a violent reaction in your being - particularly when you bring yourself back to this three-dimensional state of being - that again you freeze. You allow yourself to believe that you're less than you are. There is this intense fear of letting yourself out, this intense fear of being who you are. So, you have to consider why is this fear there? Why would you possibly fear being who you are? So, why? Why would you fear being God also?

First of all, those are some big shoes to fill - to be God… but only under the current hypnotic state that you're in… the belief that you have in God… that God that is big and powerful and controls everything. So, there is this intense fear that you can't possibly fill those shoes. On the other side is the fear that perhaps there is no God, perhaps you are just the result of some cosmic accident that created life here on Earth, and you live, you know, a simple life, and then you die, and nothing happens. There is no God - that is the other fear.

So, these two fears are here, causing you - but really causing everyone - to freeze in their tracks and to then create imaginary things, like dark holes, and beings holding them back. And, it causes them to believe in conspiracy theories, and all of these other things that simply hold you back. So, if you could let go of all the belief systems and all of the hypnotic effects that you carry with you about what God is, or isn't, and you just let yourself feel what Spirit has always been and always will be, you have no shoes to fill. It is only about letting yourself experience the God-self within once again.

< Embodiment 10 > The point here, Shaumbra, is you try to control your - not only your thoughts - but your dreams, your creativities. Probably for good reasons, you learned a long time ago how powerful you truly are. So, what did you do? You started controlling, rather than creating. You started limiting, rather than opening up.

< freedom 2 > The first forgiveness is for separation. There is a guilt, a shame that you are carrying around – and been carrying around for a long time – that you did something wrong by getting separated. Did you really get separated from Spirit? No. You, you … there's a very deep wound that you have from that – it goes way, way back to when you crossed through the Wall of Fire a long time ago, but it's also very current, very present – and you keep repeating separation over and over, trying to learn something new.