wound of being abandoned; separation from Isis; ⇔ wound of Isis;
sexual wounds; core wounds;
Adamus Saint Germain recounts the creation of the masculine
and feminine energies and how this original duality
continues to play out in human relations and at the core of each individual.
With exquisite compassion and understanding, Adamus depicts the struggles and
triumphs of Isis and Adam - the discovery of love, the desire to protect, the
opening to love of self. You’ll understand
why men are so interested in sex, why women are better at multitasking, and how
love was first experienced - and by whom.
Adamus’ story begins at the Order of the Arc when Isis, in pain and grief, falls into a deep, unfathomable sleep. Sensing the loss of his beloved Isis, Adam embarks on a desperate and heroic mission, trying to reach and awaken her. What follows is the grandest love story ever told, and yet it also brings Adam to the greatest tragedy he’s ever known. Adam’s deep love for Isis, though crushed beneath tremendous heartbreak, causes him to try ever harder to win the reunion. Over the ages this effort manifests in countless ways, from domination and control to resignation and surrender. It explains so many experiences in human history, from the male representation of God all the way to the current political scene.
These dramas and struggles are playing out within each individual’s masculine and feminine energy as well, sometimes creating great confusion and despair. However, the inevitable resolution will bring almost unbelievable changes. The Adam energy has a specific template, and Adamus talks about the unique ways it is manifesting now among modern men, whether the warriors, the “cause men” or the lost ones. The archtypical Adam is currently struggling with a deep sense of loss, both from losing his place in the world and because Isis has gone into temporary seclusion. However, with her imminent emergence, Isis brings a gift to Adam that will change everything.
The entire structure of the Adam Cadmon template will evolve, moving from the carbon-bound atomic structure of the human to the realized light body. This evolution of Adam Cadmon is precisely why you are here, and the changes between Adam and Isis bringing it about.
< NewEnergy 4 > The male energy that you have allowed to get strong, women… you have allowed it to get strong because you are hiding from who you are and what you have done. The wound of Isis is deep, deeper than the wound of Chiron. You know exactly what we are speaking about here. You have tried to hide it. You've been angry about it. You don't know what to do with it. You have turned over responsibility to the male. It is time for the divine to meet the human. It is time for the man to meet the woman. It is time for you to release Isis now. The wound has been deep. But, seven days from now, we can all heal this thing. It is all of our past - not just a human thing - it is all of our past.
< Returning 11 >
I'm going to speak somewhat metaphorically here, but actually there's a lot of
reality to it. We've talked before about how you have a variety of different
energies in you - the light, the dark; the
yin, the yang; the masculine, the
feminine. We're going to go back in this case to the story of Isis
and Adam, which is basically the masculine and feminine within you. But I
also want to use it to express another duality concept, and that was the inward
and the outward expressions of your
A long time ago when you left All That Was, when you went through the Wall of Fire on your journey that would bring you to Earth, you created your original separation and that created the inner looking spirit, what you now call your soul, your divine; and your outer expression, the part of you that would journey out into the void and create reality. The outer expression that would eventually come by way through the Order of the Arc to this planet Earth for a completion and fulfillment.
Using the concepts of duality, the metaphor, we'll talk about Isis and Adam, but understand it relates to the inner and the outer parts of self - the light and the dark, every opposing duality.
When the energy of Adam left Isis it created tremendous pain, for the two energies are essentially the same. They were always meant to be together. They were always in love. So when the separation occurred between Isis and Adam, you can imagine the pain that it caused. You can also imagine an anger that was caused as part of you left on a journey and left another part within itself. This caused the pain of love and separation, but also you could say a type of anger - "Why are you leaving? Why are you allowing the separation?"
So the energy of the masculine, of Adam, or the energy of the outer expression of self, went off, knowing - both parts of you knowing - that you would return together at the right time and the right place. This part of you - let's call it the Adam energy - Adam went off searching. Adam went off looking for new solutions, oh, out of absolute love to Isis. He wanted to create a place that was so perfect that Isis would want to return.
So Adam started, what you could say, building or constructing the perfect castle, the perfect home, the perfect space. And as he was building it through his imagination and his creative expression, he kept on wondering if Isis would really like it - would she like the colors? Would she like the style? - and he began to doubt himself tremendously. He wondered if Isis would be comfortable here. He wondered if he was just doing this for himself or if it would really be appropriate for Isis.
He kept on wondering if Isis really missed him and really loved him. He kept on wondering if maybe this was a plot from Isis to get rid of him. He wondered at times if Isis was deliberately doing this to him to totally annihilate him, to enslave him, to make him insignificant. And you see this myriad of opposing energies was flowing through Adam all the time while he was working on building this perfect dream castle for Isis.
Of course, the castle has never been good enough. Oh, it is spectacular in my opinion, but Adam is still working on it. It's the castle that can never be completed because, dear Shaumbra, in the somewhat imbalanced heart of Adam he fears most of inviting Isis in and her not accepting it.
That means her not accepting him. That means no reunion. That means no going forward. So if he keeps building his castle and he keeps modifying it and he keeps doubting himself, he keeps playing the game, he never has to face the question: is he worthy of Isis's return. Is he worthy?
And Isis, all this time, is wondering, "What happened to Adam? Why hasn't he called? Maybe he doesn't love me anymore. Maybe he's found another. Maybe he's betrayed me. Maybe he's trying to assume and collect power. Maybe he's trying to totally annihilate me. Maybe I'm not beautiful enough for him. Maybe he has discovered something within himself that has higher qualities than I. Maybe I'm not worthy of ever receiving the love of Adam. Maybe I'll turn my back. I'll hide my tears so I never have to face the issue, is Adam calling out for me. Is he welcoming me back to him? So I'll keep myself distracted. I'll do everything but look."
Dear Shaumbra, that's the story of Isis and Adam. It's also your story. It's a story of your inward and outer expression. It's a story of the human self and the divine. Maybe you don't think you're worthy, that you've built a good enough house for your divine to join you here, so you keep trying to build the house. And maybe your divine, right now at this moment, is wondering, "How come I haven't received the call? How come I'm not being invited into this holy sacred place called the human existence?" Maybe the divine is thinking that you betrayed it.
So this game continues. The deception continues and the separation continues, because what if, just what if the human didn't like the divine? What if it was disappointed with the most intimate part of itself? What if it had had so many experiences and so many loves in all of its lifetimes, it doesn't want itself anymore? What if…?
You face some of the most important issues in your existence right now. You face the issues of completion and of acceptance. The big dark energy rolls in right now and says, "What if the divine doesn't like me? What if it thinks I built a crappy house? That I'm not worthy? What if the divine comes in and tells me I have at least another dozen lifetimes before it'll even consider?" And that's the sabotage. It is artificial, and those of us who are sitting in our own Third Circle can tell you it is the biggest delusion and deception that you'll ever give yourself. But it is also the biggest gift.
< Transhuman 6 >
And then recently, after that and only after that, could we do Wound
of Adam.* The Wound of Adam talks about love. It's a story of
love between the characters Isis and Adam,
which are simply the feminine and masculine aspects within you. And in Wound
of Adam it talked about this great love. It talked about Isis' shame, but
then the great love that they eventually discovered together here on Earth.
I won't go into too much of the story on that, but, needless to say, the two tie in so beautifully. In Isis', the feminine pursuit of love, her desire … let me put it this way. Isis, the feminine aspect, is the one that's going to insist on the experience of true love, while Adam, in love to Isis, holds down the fort. Adam will maintain the place, the balance on this Earth where you still live, where you still have your body, while Isis comes to find true love on a place called Theos.