wound of being abandoned; separation from Isis;
⇔ wound of Isis;
sexual wounds; core
wounds;
Adamus Saint Germain recounts the creation of the masculine
and feminine energies and how this original duality
continues to play out in human relations and at the core of each individual.
With exquisite compassion and understanding, Adamus depicts the struggles and
triumphs of Isis and Adam - the discovery of love, the desire to protect, the
opening to love of self. You’ll understand
why men are so interested in sex, why women are better at multitasking, and how
love was first experienced - and by whom.
Adamus’ story begins at the Order
of the Arc when Isis, in pain and grief, falls into a deep, unfathomable
sleep. Sensing the loss of his beloved Isis, Adam embarks on a desperate and
heroic mission, trying to reach and awaken her. What follows is the grandest
love story ever told, and yet it also brings Adam to the greatest tragedy he’s
ever known. Adam’s deep love for Isis, though crushed beneath tremendous
heartbreak, causes him to try ever harder to win the reunion. Over the ages this
effort manifests in countless ways, from domination and control to resignation
and surrender. It explains so many experiences in human history, from the male
representation of God all the way to the current political scene.
These dramas and struggles are playing out within each individual’s
masculine and feminine energy as well, sometimes creating great confusion and
despair. However, the inevitable resolution will bring almost unbelievable
changes. The Adam energy has a specific template, and Adamus talks about the
unique ways it is manifesting now among modern men, whether the warriors, the
“cause men” or the lost ones. The archtypical Adam is currently struggling
with a deep sense of loss, both from losing his place in the world and because
Isis has gone into temporary seclusion. However, with her imminent emergence,
Isis brings a gift to Adam that will change everything.
The entire structure of the Adam Cadmon
template will evolve, moving from the carbon-bound atomic structure of the human
to the realized light body. This evolution of
Adam Cadmon is precisely why you are here, and the changes between Adam and Isis
bringing it about.
< NewEnergy 4 > The male energy that you have allowed to get strong, women… you have allowed it to get strong because you are hiding from who you are and what you have done. The wound of Isis is deep, deeper than the wound of Chiron. You know exactly what we are speaking about here. You have tried to hide it. You've been angry about it. You don't know what to do with it. You have turned over responsibility to the male. It is time for the divine to meet the human. It is time for the man to meet the woman. It is time for you to release Isis now. The wound has been deep. But, seven days from now, we can all heal this thing. It is all of our past - not just a human thing - it is all of our past.
< Returning 11 >
I'm going to speak somewhat metaphorically here, but actually there's a lot of
reality to it. We've talked before about how you have a variety of different
energies in you - the light, the dark; the
yin, the yang; the masculine, the
feminine. We're going to go back in this case to the story of Isis
and Adam, which is basically the masculine and feminine within you. But I
also want to use it to express another duality concept, and that was the inward
and the outward expressions of your
soul.
A long time ago when you left All That Was, when you
went through the Wall of Fire on your journey
that would bring you to Earth, you created your original
separation and that created the inner looking
spirit, what you now call your soul, your divine; and your outer
expression, the part of you that would journey out into the void and create reality.
The outer expression that would eventually come by way through the Order
of the Arc to this planet Earth for a completion
and fulfillment.
Using the concepts of duality, the metaphor, we'll talk about Isis and Adam, but
understand it relates to the inner and the outer parts of self - the light and
the dark, every opposing duality.
When the energy of Adam left Isis it created tremendous pain, for the two
energies are essentially the same. They were always meant to be together. They
were always in love. So when the separation occurred between Isis and Adam, you
can imagine the pain that it caused. You can also imagine an anger that was
caused as part of you left on a journey and left another part within itself.
This caused the pain of love and separation, but also you could say a type of
anger - "Why are you leaving? Why are you allowing the separation?"
So the energy of the masculine, of Adam, or the energy of the outer expression
of self, went off, knowing - both parts of you knowing - that you would return
together at the right time and the right place. This part of you - let's
call it the Adam energy - Adam went off searching. Adam went off looking for new
solutions, oh, out of absolute love to Isis. He wanted to create a place that
was so perfect that Isis would want to return.
So Adam started, what you could say, building or constructing the perfect
castle, the perfect home, the perfect space. And as he was building it through
his imagination and his creative
expression, he kept on wondering if Isis would really like it - would she
like the colors? Would she like the style? - and he began to doubt
himself tremendously. He wondered if Isis would be comfortable here. He
wondered if he was just doing this for himself or if it would really be
appropriate for Isis.
He kept on wondering if Isis really missed him and really loved him. He kept on
wondering if maybe this was a plot from Isis to get rid of him. He wondered at
times if Isis was deliberately doing this to him to totally annihilate him, to
enslave him, to make him insignificant. And you see this myriad of opposing
energies was flowing through Adam all the time while he was working on building
this perfect dream castle for Isis.
Of course, the castle has never been good enough. Oh, it is spectacular in my
opinion, but Adam is still working on it. It's the castle that can never be
completed because, dear Shaumbra, in the somewhat imbalanced heart of Adam he
fears most of inviting Isis in and her not accepting it.
That means her not accepting him. That means no reunion. That means no going
forward. So if he keeps building his castle and he keeps modifying it and he
keeps doubting himself, he keeps playing the game, he never has to face the
question: is he worthy of Isis's return. Is he worthy?
And Isis, all this time, is wondering, "What happened to Adam? Why hasn't
he called? Maybe he doesn't love me anymore. Maybe he's found another. Maybe
he's betrayed me. Maybe he's trying to assume and collect power. Maybe he's
trying to totally annihilate me. Maybe I'm not beautiful enough for him. Maybe
he has discovered something within himself that has higher qualities than I.
Maybe I'm not worthy of ever receiving the love of Adam. Maybe
I'll turn my back. I'll hide my tears so I never have to face the issue, is Adam
calling out for me. Is he welcoming me back to him? So I'll keep myself
distracted. I'll do everything but look."
Dear Shaumbra, that's the story of Isis and Adam. It's also your story. It's a
story of your inward and outer expression. It's a story of the human
self and the divine. Maybe you don't
think you're worthy, that you've built a good enough house for your divine to
join you here, so you keep trying to build the house. And maybe your divine,
right now at this moment, is wondering, "How come I
haven't received the call? How come I'm not being invited into this holy sacred
place called the human existence?" Maybe the divine is thinking that
you betrayed it.
So this game continues. The deception continues and the separation continues,
because what if, just what if the human didn't like the divine? What if it was
disappointed with the most intimate part of itself? What if it had had so many
experiences and so many loves in all of its lifetimes, it doesn't want itself
anymore? What if…?
You face some of the most important issues in your existence right now. You face
the issues of completion and of acceptance. The big dark energy rolls in right
now and says, "What if the divine doesn't like me? What if it thinks I
built a crappy house? That I'm not worthy? What if the divine comes in and tells
me I have at least another dozen lifetimes before it'll even consider?" And
that's the sabotage. It is artificial, and those
of us who are sitting in our own Third Circle
can tell you it is the biggest delusion and deception that you'll ever give
yourself. But it is also the biggest gift.
< Transhuman 6 >
And then recently, after that and only after that, could we do Wound
of Adam.* The Wound of Adam talks about love. It's a story of
love between the characters Isis and Adam,
which are simply the feminine and masculine aspects within you. And in Wound
of Adam it talked about this great love. It talked about Isis' shame, but
then the great love that they eventually discovered together here on Earth.
I won't go into too much of the story on that, but, needless to say, the two
tie in so beautifully. In Isis', the feminine pursuit of love, her desire …
let me put it this way. Isis, the feminine aspect, is the one that's going to
insist on the experience of true love, while Adam, in love to Isis, holds down
the fort. Adam will maintain the place, the balance on this Earth where you
still live, where you still have your body, while Isis comes to find true love
on a place called Theos.