masculine side of Spirit (smaller energy quotient in the Kingdom); the King; Father;
outward expression; the Prince after the Wall of Fire; You (smaller part of self) ; ⇔ Isis
core issure; old wound;
< NewEnergy 4 > There is an interesting force or influence in the alignment that takes place (Harmonic Concordance). There is one of the elements, one of the planets, that is in there that is causing some fear. It is causing some pain and some sadness. Some of you are truly feeling it right now.
< NewEnergy 4 > It is the energy of Chiron, the Wounded Warrior… the victim… the warrior who has guilt of what he has done… the wounds, the karma, and the remembrance of the past. So, the Wounded Warrior has to come in right now to be part of this Star of David to say, "Are you ready to release the wounds?"… because that is what keeps the two halves from coming back together. That is what is keeping the union of the male and female from happening - is the Wounded Warrior, Chiron. That is what is keeping the separation of heaven and Earth - Chiron.
< NewEnergy 4 > The wound is deep. That is part of the reason for the anger also that you have been experiencing. Why… why the wound? Will the wound ever heal? Or must we continue on this cycle again, a cycle that could span tens of thousands of years? The alignment that is coming about (Harmonic Concordance) - that was going to be there anyway - the alignment is very rare, very rare. There is the eclipse that happens with it, the hiding of the moon energy, the hiding, the - how to say - something that comes between the male and the female. But, it is also a time of clearing.
< NewEnergy 4 > But, understand that the energy of Chiron is so strong that you may miss the whole point. The energy of Chiron is so overwhelming, the wounds so deep that you may let this opportunity, this event pass because the wounds are so deep… and the sadness. Or it will bring back… it will bring back the remembrance of where you have been. This will be a very intense week for many of you, a time for deep breathing. It will bring back - whether it is to your intellect or just to your inner feelings - remembrances of a long, long time ago, long before you ever came to Earth, mostly of those times before you ever came to Earth.
< NewEnergy 4 > Chiron had to come back, for it needs healing. It is an aspect. It is part of you. It is still wounded. You have put it off somewhere else. You don't like it when Chiron comes around in your charts. You try to put it off somewhere else. You try to even hide it behind other planets. But, it comes in full force now for the wounds to be healed, for us to move forward, Shaumbra, and for you to move forward. Allow yourself to be healed. Understand… understand that there never was any wrong. There was only experience. Understand that as Spirit can love you so much, then you can love yourself also.
< NewEnergy 4 > Chiron arrives for one simple purpose - healing, healing the wound. That means you releasing your Old Energy notions about what that was.
< NewEnergy 4 > Part of this process of healing, of understanding the wounds… your wound is simply a division. That's all it is - a division, a cut that divides. Part of it is taking responsibility for all of your journey, for everything up to now. But, in responsibility comes enlightenment… and love… and understanding… and compassion of why you created what you created. Responsibility is knowing that you did something… that you created… but also knowing there was a divine plan in it.
< NewEnergy 4 > You think because of some of the - how to say - your perception of destruction and chaos, of working with the dark forces… you think that is something to be shameful of. You have carried that wound with you for so long. Some of you here allowed yourself to be enlisted by the dark forces. Oh, your movies (referring to the Star Wars movies) depict it so well. You go over to the dark side. You work for them because of your anger. And, then you feel guilty about it, and you make yourself suffer. We are talking about events that took place a long, long time ago, in a place far, far away. But, dear friends, it was only a breath away.
< NewEnergy 4 > Oh… long before you came to Earth, you found what it was like to love another entity. Magnificent! Magnificent! There was the potential, you know, that you could have only loved yourself. Just think of what that would have created. (some laughter) Outside of All That Is, outside of the First Circle, you learned to love someone else, another entity. And, we are not talking about a male/female or sex thing. We are talking about love, pure love, and pure compassion for another being, a trait that you picked up from Spirit. Spirit has true love and compassion for you. What a day it was, back in the Kingdom, when you learned to love someone outside yourself.
< NewEnergy 4 > But, in that love you also battled others to protect those you loved. And, in that love you felt the deepest form of betrayal when they walked out on you. In that love you felt what it was like to be angry because of something they had done to you. You gave your heart to them. Why did they not give it back to you? In all of this healing and all of this transformation of energy… it is about taking responsibility that you created this. Don't try to figure it out. Don't try to go back into these past lives and retrace it.
< NewEnergy 4 > It is about taking responsibility and loving yourself once again… taking responsibility for all of your journey. As we have said before, you are either victims or creators. The energy of Chiron is currently a victim. Can you see that in yourself… how you blame incidences, and people, and angels, and events that have happened in the past? There is no need to blame at all. We know what happened. They know what happened. Simply taking responsibility and understanding there were divine reasons… there was a divine plan behind all of it. That is why it took place.
< NewEnergy 4 > The male energy that you have allowed to get strong, women… you have allowed it to get strong because you are hiding from who you are and what you have done. The wound of Isis is deep, deeper than the wound of Chiron. You know exactly what we are speaking about here. You have tried to hide it. You've been angry about it. You don't know what to do with it. You have turned over responsibility to the male.
< Teacher 4 > These forces at their core have to do with the integration of the masculine and feminine energies. Tobias has talked to you about this before and he puts on a most excellent school dealing with this reuniting of the Isis and the Adam energies - the reuniting of the masculine and feminine. But it's more than just the masculine and feminine as you would think in your mind. It's much more than that. These two energies of masculine and feminine - Isis and Adam - represent the original split. The masculine and feminine aspect of any souled being was the first split in self, the first division of consciousness, even at the angelic realms.
< Teacher 4 > And you could ask yourself why, what is the agenda? Aren't they enlightened beings on the other side? Not particularly. Some of them feel very righteous in what they're doing. They feel that this essential split of the soul into masculine and feminine was the fault of one or the others of the energies, and that if these two energies of masculine/feminine reunite, that one in particular - the feminine - will try to now dominate and annihilate the masculine energy. They don't truly understand about energy balances. They don't understand about the reunion. They are so into their own consciousness, into their own hypnosis, that they're playing out this drama.
< Returning 11 >
I'm going to speak somewhat metaphorically here, but actually there's a lot of
reality to it. We've talked before about how you have a variety of different
energies in you - the light, the dark; the
yin, the yang; the masculine, the
feminine. We're going to go back in this case to the story of Isis
and Adam, which is basically the masculine and feminine within you. But I
also want to use it to express another duality concept, and that was the inward
and the outward expressions of your
A long time ago when you left All That Was, when you went through the Wall of Fire on your journey that would bring you to Earth, you created your original separation and that created the inner looking spirit, what you now call your soul, your divine; and your outer expression, the part of you that would journey out into the void and create reality. The outer expression that would eventually come by way through the Order of the Arc to this planet Earth for a completion and fulfillment.
Using the concepts of duality, the metaphor, we'll talk about Isis and Adam, but understand it relates to the inner and the outer parts of self - the light and the dark, every opposing duality.
When the energy of Adam left Isis it created tremendous pain, for the two energies are essentially the same. They were always meant to be together. They were always in love. So when the separation occurred between Isis and Adam, you can imagine the pain that it caused. You can also imagine an anger that was caused as part of you left on a journey and left another part within itself. This caused the pain of love and separation, but also you could say a type of anger - "Why are you leaving? Why are you allowing the separation?"
So the energy of the masculine, of Adam, or the energy of the outer expression of self, went off, knowing - both parts of you knowing - that you would return together at the right time and the right place. This part of you - let's call it the Adam energy - Adam went off searching. Adam went off looking for new solutions, oh, out of absolute love to Isis. He wanted to create a place that was so perfect that Isis would want to return.
So Adam started, what you could say, building or constructing the perfect castle, the perfect home, the perfect space. And as he was building it through his imagination and his creative expression, he kept on wondering if Isis would really like it - would she like the colors? Would she like the style? - and he began to doubt himself tremendously. He wondered if Isis would be comfortable here. He wondered if he was just doing this for himself or if it would really be appropriate for Isis.
He kept on wondering if Isis really missed him and really loved him. He kept on wondering if maybe this was a plot from Isis to get rid of him. He wondered at times if Isis was deliberately doing this to him to totally annihilate him, to enslave him, to make him insignificant. And you see this myriad of opposing energies was flowing through Adam all the time while he was working on building this perfect dream castle for Isis.
Of course, the castle has never been good enough. Oh, it is spectacular in my opinion, but Adam is still working on it. It's the castle that can never be completed because, dear Shaumbra, in the somewhat imbalanced heart of Adam he fears most of inviting Isis in and her not accepting it.
That means her not accepting him. That means no reunion. That means no going forward. So if he keeps building his castle and he keeps modifying it and he keeps doubting himself, he keeps playing the game, he never has to face the question: is he worthy of Isis's return. Is he worthy?
And Isis, all this time, is wondering, "What happened to Adam? Why hasn't he called? Maybe he doesn't love me anymore. Maybe he's found another. Maybe he's betrayed me. Maybe he's trying to assume and collect power. Maybe he's trying to totally annihilate me. Maybe I'm not beautiful enough for him. Maybe he has discovered something within himself that has higher qualities than I. Maybe I'm not worthy of ever receiving the love of Adam. Maybe I'll turn my back. I'll hide my tears so I never have to face the issue, is Adam calling out for me. Is he welcoming me back to him? So I'll keep myself distracted. I'll do everything but look."
Dear Shaumbra, that's the story of Isis and Adam. It's also your story. It's a story of your inward and outer expression. It's a story of the human self and the divine. Maybe you don't think you're worthy, that you've built a good enough house for your divine to join you here, so you keep trying to build the house. And maybe your divine, right now at this moment, is wondering, "How come I haven't received the call? How come I'm not being invited into this holy sacred place called the human existence?" Maybe the divine is thinking that you betrayed it.
So this game continues. The deception continues and the separation continues, because what if, just what if the human didn't like the divine? What if it was disappointed with the most intimate part of itself? What if it had had so many experiences and so many loves in all of its lifetimes, it doesn't want itself anymore? What if…?
You face some of the most important issues in your existence right now. You face the issues of completion and of acceptance. The big dark energy rolls in right now and says, "What if the divine doesn't like me? What if it thinks I built a crappy house? That I'm not worthy? What if the divine comes in and tells me I have at least another dozen lifetimes before it'll even consider?" And that's the sabotage. It is artificial, and those of us who are sitting in our own Third Circle can tell you it is the biggest delusion and deception that you'll ever give yourself. But it is also the biggest gift.
< Transhuman 6 >
And then recently, after that and only after that, could we do Wound
of Adam.* The Wound of Adam talks about love. It's a story of
love between the characters Isis and Adam,
which are simply the feminine and masculine aspects within you. And in Wound
of Adam it talked about this great love. It talked about Isis' shame, but
then the great love that they eventually discovered together here on Earth.
I won't go into too much of the story on that, but, needless to say, the two tie in so beautifully. In Isis', the feminine pursuit of love, her desire … let me put it this way. Isis, the feminine aspect, is the one that's going to insist on the experience of true love, while Adam, in love to Isis, holds down the fort. Adam will maintain the place, the balance on this Earth where you still live, where you still have your body, while Isis comes to find true love on a place called Theos.