expanding understanding of self / cycles of expanding

expanded consciousness
of your identity; expanded identity; new understanding of self;
changing cycles; transformation/metamorphosis/ascension process;

< NewEnergy 2 > He (John Paul II) is quite amazed at how such a small group of humans can go so quickly through a very difficult and challenging process. We call that process "the expanding understanding of Self" - the process you have been going through all these days of this lifetime, but particularly these last few years. You are expanding the identity of your Self while still here on Earth. It is a difficult process. It is a challenging process. And sometimes it seems like it is a never-ending process.

< NewEnergy 2 > It goes in cycles, as you have learned. It is not a straight path. It is a circular path. Each time you complete the circle, you come around again but with a new understanding, an expanded understanding of your identity. You'll understand the process that we speak of here because you have been through it. We bring this back to you to then help you understand what you have been going through, and to help you understand what other humans will go through. Ah… it is so good to have gone through this experience so that you can be the teachers.

< NewEnergy 2 > The first step in the expanded consciousness of your identity is the awakening. Up until your awakening, you are simply asleep and unaware. You are simply going through the motions of being a human. Remember your awakening? Remember that knocking at the door… that unrelenting feeling that you had within that something wasn't right… that irritability at the deep, deep level that you went through… that feeling out of touch with yourself… feeling that something was changing, but you didn't know what it was?

< NewEnergy 2 > Now, in the second step of this expanding identity… now that you have gone through the awakening… you went into processing. You became experts at processing! You went to healers and facilitators. You went to workshops and classes. You couldn't get enough of processing. The processing was important because something was brewing within you. You had been awakened. Now it was time to get a better understanding. You needed to talk about past lives. You needed to talk about the difficulties in your childhood in this life.

< NewEnergy 2 > You needed to get angry… with spouses… or parents. You needed to get angry with God. Yes, it is all right to get angry with God. Oh, it helps release a tremendous amount of very Old and pent-up energy. You needed to cry. You needed to let some emotions out. You needed to play the role of a victim at times. You needed to let all of this out. The awakening opened it up. You needed to talk about it. Yes, some of you have spouses who thought you would never stop talking about it (audience laughter), friends who started to avoid you when you asked if they wanted to go to lunch. Oh, what a wonderful time for processing! But, this served you well. The processing was an important part of your new understanding of Self.

< NewEnergy 2 > But, then there comes a time to move on. How will you know it is appropriate? Oh, when you are repeating the same stories over and over again. Or when you find yourself more fascinated with past lifetimes than this lifetime. When you are constantly going into the past… constantly having to bring up these stories… constantly creating some past lives to give you a type of comfort about where you are right now… then the processing is done. It is time to move on.

< NewEnergy 2 > Then you go to the next step, which is the releasing. That is pretty much where we picked it up with you, Shaumbra. Releasing. When we started four years and a month ago with you, you were at this step of releasing… somewhat confused… many of you wanting to go back to the processing phase. Releasing is a very important part of this expanded… expanding of your identity… releasing… this letting go… this letting go. It is very difficult, as you know. There is a tendency to want to come to new understandings and enlightenments while you're still holding onto the past. We worked with you for several on releasing, letting go of the Old. While you were releasing, you lost jobs… you lost spouses… you lost a sense of identity of who you were. But, you had to let it go. You had to let it go. This was probably one of the most difficult and challenging phases that you went through.

< NewEnergy 2 > The next step in expanding the identity of Self was allowing the integration of divine and human. This is where you are at right now, in a way. Part of you is not willing to accept that You Are God Also. You hear the words, but your heart blocks the feelings. You know it is time, but you don't feel you are worthy. You know that the Christ seed within you. But you don't feel you are pure enough to allow it into your life. So you hold back.

< NewEnergy 2 > These cycles of the expanding identity are not just one-time cycles. You will go through them over and over again. You have gone through more than one awakening. You have gone through more than one time of processing. You have gone through many, many releases. You have gone through much integrating. When you hit a new level of enlightenment - what you would call the awakening - you know it is time then for processing. Processing - instead of being dreary and difficult, being that of the victim energy - can be a joy that catapults you so that the releasing is very, very easy. It is done with grace. It is done with a finesse of a professional, talented, graceful dancer.

< NewEnergy 2 > Then you will have transmutation and the transformation in your life. A whole new level of divine energy will come into your life. Then you go back through the cycle again… a new awakening… a new type of coming to understanding through processing… a new releasing… a new transformation… a new level of understanding the divine. You thought it was a one-time program, but you go through it over and over again.

< NewEnergy 2 > Some of you have become quite frustrated and a bit depressed. You have said, "I have gone through this difficulty. Why do I feel I am back on the same merry-go-round again?" Dear friends, it (cycles of process of expanding understanding of self) is not a merry-go-round. Indeed, it is spinning, and it is circular. But, it is series of cycles that continue to expand outward and outward… a spiral going both up and down… a spiral going to all sides… a spiral that is inter-dimensionally.

< NewEnergy 2 > So, you go through these cycles of expanding, expanding awareness of Self. You will continue to go through these. Understand that it spirals up and down… sideways… in and out. It can be such a blessing and a joy when you realize you have reached the end of one cycle, and you are ready to begin a new cycle. A new awakening comes to you. Have joy in this. Play with this. Each time now, Shaumbra, when you come to the completion of one of these cycles, a new level of divinity can integrate with your humanness. Something happens here. We have talked about this. We gave it some new definition.

< NewEnergy 2 > Each time you come to the end of a cycle, you create New Energy. The completion of the cycle now creates New Energy. That New Energy is available to you in the next cycle that you go through! The next cycle will be easier. It will become broader. It will become more defined. It will be deeper. It will have so much more clarity to it. New Energy is created when you come to the end of each cycle. The New Energy is then made available as a potential to the consciousness of other humans. They can choose to draw on it during their journey. Some of them will not recognize it. Some of them will not want to use it. But it will be available.

< NewEnergy 2 > You are creating New Energy. That New Energy will help the shift of consciousness. The New Energy will help create new technologies that will benefit mankind and the universe. Many of you are coming to a completion of a cycle. When you come to this point, understand what is going on. Understand you just simply now create New Energy and go to a next level.

< NewEnergy 2 > We did not know the impact of this particular situation until we met with you eight weeks ago (at the Midsummer New Energy Conference in July 2003) and walked through the opening of the Seven Seals. When we hit the Fifth Seal, dear friends, the alarms went off on our side! (audience laughter) We realized there was very, very much stuck energy here! The energy of struggling, the energy of suffering, is still embedded so deep within you that you are not completing these cycles in a balanced fashion.

< NewEnergy 2 > You get through the cycles of awakening, processing and releasing. But, when it comes to integrating with the Divine, you get stuck. You try to go to your next cycle without completing the essence of divine integration. You don't feel worthy. You think that you need to suffer. Then you start a new cycle in your life. But built into the cycle - the awakening, processing, releasing, integration - within that cycle you build in suffering once again. You build in a difficult path. We had a deep look into this energy. And we have to say, we had to put all of our energies into creating a way to help you understand to move through it.

< NewEnergy 2 > The trip that Cauldre, and Linda, and the two doctors (Dr. Norma Delaney and Dr. Garret Annofsky) took to Europe recently was no coincidence. Oh, no, they did not plan it. We did. We had to shift things around rather quickly for them. We had to take them to an area where suffering is so deep and thick, so Old, where the fifth chakra, the Fifth Seal, is so closed. We had to go there, to this land. We had to make the arrangements to be on this boat (at Lake Constance, Germany) to deal with this energy of suffering.

< NewEnergy 2 > If you allow yourself to release suffering right now, in our time together, if you allow that process of the suffering to be released, it can be transmuted. It can be turned into New Energy. It can be then made available to others, for when they come to the point where they realize they do not have to suffer, they can pick up on the New Energy that you helped to create. Their transition can be easier because of what you have done here. You're not making the world release suffering. You are letting suffering out of your own life. You are changing the vibration of humanity, changing the potential of tomorrow. You are doing it for yourself in this Now moment that we sit in.

< NewEnergy 3 > As you go through your changing cycles - the cycles that we spoke of in our last gathering - they also help to take this New Energy that is being created and put it in the appropriate places. You are now creating New Energy, but there are not the mechanisms yet to use this in your human reality. Your runners are putting it into storage for you and also bringing part of that energy back to our side of the veil where it is applied throughout the physical universe, and where it is applied throughout all the dimensional aspects as well.

< NewEnergy 3 > Releasing is allowing it to go to its highest potential. Your awakening generates an energy. The processing brings understanding, but the understanding is limited until you can release everything that you thought you were. When you release it, it goes to a whole new energetic level (transmutation). Then it comes back to you. It comes back in the form of integration. It melds back in, so every past lifetime and experience comes back to serve you in a New way. The wisdom, the understandings, and the enlightenments, the fun and the challenges can all come back to serve you in a new and integrated way.

< NewEnergy 3 > What you are going through is not a result of age, rather a result of wisdom and expansion. Some of you are wondering if perhaps you should hold a tighter rein on your imagination, on your creative expression, hold it back a little bit. Dear friends, let it go… let it go. You are truly walking between the worlds right now. You are truly integrating, and this is part of the process.

< NewEnergy 3 > Dreams are different now. They changed some time in these past two to three months. Your dreams aren't the same type of activity as what they were before. Often you use your dreams to try to figure out solutions to things that are happening on Earth. You went through an experience of potential realities before you actually brought them into your human reality. This is what you would call a dream. In some dreams you were there in service to others. You went to help them in their dreams. You were there in service to them.

< NewEnergy 3 > In some of the dreams, you're back on our side of the veil. And you're teaching classes. There is a bleed-through into your dreams where you can feel or see this, even have visuals of it. All of you - all of you - teach classes back here three or four nights a week. You are teaching those angels who have never been in human form the processes of the integration of the Divine. You see, that's what it was all about. That's why you left Home in the first place - to have your own unique identity, but also to understand that you are God also. Spirit doesn't know her own identity. You do. You have that unique gift of your own awareness of Self, now melding with God. The angels on our side of the veil, particularly those who have never been to Earth, gather around in what you would call large, huge auditoriums to hear about what this is like.

< NewEnergy 3 > So, you are finding that there are bleed-throughs in your dreams. You are wondering what's real anymore. And, the answer is, "It's all real. It's all real." You are learning to let go of that very defined and highly focused energy that you placed into yourself so that you could be a human on Earth. Now, you can still be a human on Earth and have access to all of the other inter-dimensional energies - all at the same time. But it will be a bit strange at first.

< NewEnergy 3 > Communications will have such a big part of what happens here in the next few years and also what happens after. Communications are really helping to open the First Seal for humanity… the separation. You see… as all of this happens, the seals begin to open. You have gone through the process and will continue to go through the cycles. Humanity will begin opening the First Seal with this quantum leap. It is happening now. You are separated from each other because of languages. You are separated.

< NewEnergy 5 > Understand that as you open up, as you go through processing (cycle of expanding), you will come to new understandings, and enlightenment, and a new sense of integration. So, understand also as you walk through this most difficult, difficult experience - by healing it, you are also helping the feminine energy heal over all. You are doing this for yourself, but it has an effect and an implication on all others.

< NewEnergy 6 > And, finally the fourth tenet of the New Energy of this New Year is EXPRESSION… expression. You've gone through all this opening, and allowing, and integrating (cycle of expanding). It is important to express it also, to put it into application, graceful expression of energy from a safe space. What could be more beautiful? Express it in everything that you do… in a job… in a hobby… in your facilitation work. Allow yourself to express.

< Embodiment 7QA > This whole concept of self-love is perhaps the core issue for all angels and all humans. So, you are addressing something that is so basic and so important and a challenge that you face and all Shaumbra face. When you can accept yourself as you truly are and get to that level, then you are truly expressing as God also. Don't give yourself a hard time for this ability to accept and love self. It is the most challenging thing.

The moment that you - and any of us - went through the Wall of Fire, it was all a matter of coming to this point of love and acceptance. Now, I'm simplifying it. But, that is truly what it's been about. When you come to that intimate connection with yourself (all aspect of you) and your divinity, all of the elements, everything you've ever been done or been, come back together in the Now moment. And, there is almost like an explosion of this blissful energy that takes place. And, then you realize that you are a Creator. You realize how simple it is to create anything around you.

So, you are on the perfect and right track. You're coming down to core issues. You're not worrying about the little stuff anymore. You're getting down to the basics. And, we know you've gone through many cycles of releasing. It takes a lot of cycles. It takes tremendous amount of movement of energy to work through all of these layers, all of these stories that have been created, all of the things you've been experiencing. But, I would say to you - and to all of Shaumbra - you are getting there. You are close.