< New Earth 5 > There are attributes that are common to all here. We take you back on a little bit of a journey now. When you were young, when you came into this world as a human, you brought in phenomenal characteristics that were not understood by the ones who held you in their arms. They did not understand your energy. For it was bright, and it was different. And it was clear that you were not like the others. As a young, young child, you knew of your power, you knew of many of the things that you would need to do in this lifetime. You knew you were an angel getting ready to come out, and you knew that there were very difficult trials and tribulations in this lifetime for you individually and for Earth as a whole. You knew there was a major gamble that was taking place - would the Earth as a whole make it or not? The prophets had gambled on NOT. You were bringing in an energy known to help make it possible, to make it so, to make it to this very day.
As you began to grow in your ages, to become 2, 3, 4 years old, these attributes that you had, the differences that you had, became quite evident. Your dreams were different as a child. When you laid in your bed, in your crib, and talked to the others around you, it was different. And, my friends, you scared those around you, for they did not understand - you were different. Some of your parents and those that raised you chose to try to look the other way. Some of them were frightened. Some of them felt that it was best to get you into churches, for they did not know how to handle you at home. And a small number of you had dear and loving parents who encouraged you.
But to each one that is here on this day, we will bring you back to a point of energy remembrance. There came a time in your youth - some of you were 3, 4, 5 years old, some a bit older. You chose to take on an even stronger veil to forget, to hide, to temporarily bury that part of you, that Christ consciousness that you brought into this lifetime so strongly. You agreed to bury it for the time being for it was not appropriate to bring it out. The Earth was not in an appropriate space. So you hid it. You hid it out of love for your family, out of safety and protection for yourself. And then you forgot that you hid it. You hid the memory of hiding it. We bring each one of you back to that point that you do not necessarily remember consciously. We ask you simply to feel the energy of that point when you felt it was important to close the door, to walk your life with a strong veil, to walk your life forgetting who you truly were. All of this has been appropriate, and you will come to understand why.
But now as the Earth, the consciousness of Earth splits, and moves into two separate consciousnesses, and as you move into the New, it is appropriate for you to once again open the doors, to once again allow your power out. My friends, you were not wrong growing up. You were not wrong with the insights and the thoughts that you had. You were not wrong with the different belief systems and structures you had. You were simply being a lightworker. You were not wrong when the others took a different approach than you. You were simply being a lightworker. You were not wrong when you felt things in your heart and knew things in your mind that others did not feel. You were not wrong. You were simply being a lightworker. You were simply feeling the connectiveness to the Christ energy that you had put away so, so long ago. You were not wrong when you studied different arts, when you felt the strong need to be alone all by yourself, removed from other humans. You were not wrong. You were simply a lightworker who was coming back in touch with your Christ-self. You were not wrong when you were attracted to, should we say, different, unique lifestyles, beliefs, ways of doing things, ways of looking at things. You were not wrong. You were simply being a lightworker.
< New Earth 8 >
When you came in to this Earth, you were delivered at the hospital or other
places. Your parents looked into your eyes and saw something different that they
did not see in their other children or other people's children. And, in many
cases, this frightened your parents. They did not understand. It seemed odd to
look at pure love and Christ
consciousness eye-to-eye (an experience that would be a wonderful, awesome
event), but they were not prepared for what they saw. They were not prepared for
the strength of the energy that you carried. And as you began your very early
years, and you were still required to be in the hands of your parents, and they
fed you and changed you. Many of them felt uncomfortable; they did not
understand. They did not understand your strange patterns of sleep. They did not
understand the supposed ramblings that you had as if you were talking to others.
They did not understand why you were not like the other children. And their
energy, my friends, conveyed to you as a small child that you were different,
and you were unusual and perhaps odd. And you felt this in the core of your
being; you felt that you were not satisfying something within your parents.
Then for most here and for most reading this, there was something that happened
in your very early childhood years, anywhere from the ages of two to as old as
age ten. As you were bringing forth this Christ
energy into your physical being which would need it, which needed to be
transmitted to all parts of your biological
body, as you began to bring the energy forth, and you saw the reactions from
those who came to look at you in the crib, you began to feel ashamed, or that
you had done something wrong. And, my friends, each of you who hears this and
reads this, each of you then took what you would call a "hit" to close
the door. Some of you had a traumatic physical event. Some of you had a
traumatic emotional event. For others, at night it was like the greatest love
you had ever felt slipped out and walked away from you. That is why we call you
the Lost Children of Christ,
for as children, each of you became lost. You closed the door and nailed it
shut.
You felt within your being, ever since that day, the greatest of despair, the
greatest of loss. The attempt to come back, to bring that back - oh, there is
still remembrance within you of what that was like, an energy remembrance,
perhaps not of the specific event but the feeling of the connectedness, the crystalline
Christ structure within you, the shame that you felt, the need to put this
away until the appropriate time. All of this, my dear friends, was by design.
There was no mistake. There was no accident. For indeed it was necessary for you
to hold this energy in a safe, hidden place within your being until the
appropriate time. Oh, if you had allowed this Christ
energy to come out in full in your teen years, in your early adult years,
you would have been committed or killed or ridiculed. It was important for you
to put this away. You, the Lost
Children of Christ. You, the seed bearers.
< Creator 10QA > This is a most common attribute of Shaumbra throughout the world. Most of you came into this lifetime for completion within yourself, but also to guide and assist, and yes, to teach others during this prophesized time of great chaos. You would be anchors of peace and healing and light in the face of great chaos and turmoil all around you.
Through the work that you and all humans have done, these prophesized destructions - the end of the world as many called it - did not occur. You have changed, you transformed things, you moved to the next level. In doing so, indeed the contract that you initially came in with was no longer needed. There became in your life, particularly in the last year or so, a great void. The service work you thought you were being called to, to help others during time of great chaos, to help others cross over, did not occur.
But dear friends, in your original contract was a "what-if clause." That "what-if" clause said that if indeed, you were to move to the next level without these traumatic things happening, then what would you do? And that is why we sit here with you now. That is the very reason we began these very specific lessons and discussions in past. The date of August 19, 1999 was the predicted date of destruction. This was also the time when we began these discussions in the teepee (see Tobias channeling "The Departure of the Guides", August 21, 1999).
We began to work with you on your "what-if" clause. That being if things DID work out, then dear friends, there would be a need on Earth for teachers, those who had done much internal work, much internal processing and transformation. These would be the ones - and you are the ones - who agreed to go into their next lifetime while staying in body.
< Creator 10QA > This is very typical and we have seen this in nearly all of Shaumbra. There is a desire and excitement to move forward, but there is a feeling that perhaps you are stalling. We ask you not to become over concerned with this. There will be times also when you feel things are moving too fast. It is one of the attributes of Shaumbra that we are noting, and it is one of the things that we ask you to note also. When you sit down to teach the others you will be able to talk to them about the feeling of being stalled, the feeling of uncertainty. We do not see that this will continue to be a problem for you specifically, the one asking the question. This is rather temporary, so do not be concerned that this will continue for great periods of time.
< NewEnergy 6 > What do we mean by safe? Safe… that you can be yourself… everything that you are… including your divinity. You kept your divinity out at the subconscious levels because you didn't feel safe. Why would you want to bring it into an environment that was so chaotic? Why would a parent want to bring a child into a very rough place… a bar… a tavern that was rowdy? You didn't feel safe, Shaumbra. You never have in this lifetime. Even in the arms of your parents, you didn't feel safe. About the only time that we saw that you truly felt safe was when you were alone by yourself… you see. You didn't feel safe for the most part in the company of friends… particularly in the company of family… especially at work.
< NewEnergy 6 > You didn't feel safe that you could be who you really are, that you would be ridiculed, and punished, and demeaned. So, you held back. And, at the same time you didn't feel safe about life itself. You felt life was very threatening, whether it was physically threatening, such as a car accident, a terrorist attack perhaps, a disease in your body. You never have felt safe. For that, dear friends, is much compassion and love as we have for you. Even that causes us to cry. It has caused us to cry many, many times that you never felt safe enough to be in this world and to be divine also.
< NewEnergy 6 > You haven't felt safe in your mind, at times feeling you were attacked from the inside or the outside. So, you've learned to control and to restrict your thoughts. You found a little place inside that mind of yours that you could survive. So, you have held yourself there. You have tried blocking out thoughts. You try to choose your words so carefully because you are so afraid - you were so afraid - of the energy behind them. You didn't feel safe. You battled within your mind, arguing back and forth, feeling that there was something called an ego that was bigger and stronger than you.
< NewEnergy 6 > Interestingly enough… you have only used a small part of the blessing of your mind because you are afraid of it, afraid of yourself, Shaumbra. They talk about only using 10 percent of the mind's capacity. Oh, that's not even close to accurate! Humans use a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of the potential that's available. It's not contained in the physical vessel. It's contained in the energy all around you. But, you haven't felt safe within your own mind… so unsafe that some of you have gone to pieces. You've given up control to these other voices and these other things in your mind. You call this condition being a "multiple"… so unsafe that you give up to these other aspects. It's all you in the first place. But, it's not the primary you… aspects… little fragments that you have given all of the power to because you didn't feel safe within yourself.
< NewEnergy 6 > You didn't feel safe with the energies around you, from other people. You created this thing of "white light" that you encased yourself in and shut yourself off from the rest of the world, using it as a tool because you didn't feel safe. You felt like the other energies of humans were going to attack you and devour you. You didn't feel safe, so you created your own little island. You entombed yourself from outside energies… afraid to touch people at times… afraid of germs… afraid of energies. So, you shut yourself off.
< NewEnergy 8 > Every time you have gone through a battle or a challenge within yourself and made a choice, come to a new level of understanding, you've just helped to change the world. Oddly enough most humans don't go through the things in their mind that you go through. Cauldre is chuckling here, calling I, Tobias, "master of the obvious" (some laughter). What goes on in the minds and the hearts of most other humans is not like what you go through. They don't have the same questions. They don't have the same challenges they give themselves. They don't have the same dreams and desires as you do.
< Teacher 7 >
Emma is a collective energy, very much real but very much a collective of all of
Shaumbra. Some of you will have had this specific experience and some of you
will be able to relate to Emma very well.
She was praying beside her bed and her mother was watching, but yet Emma didn't
resonate with this prayer. She had said it hundreds, maybe thousands of times,
and it always seemed vague to her. She never did understand. She'd memorized the
words but she didn't really understand what they meant. But she felt their
energy. She actually felt a fear when she said this prayer, like there was
somebody watching over and judging her. She didn't like praying but her mother
made her. It wasn't just because of being on her knees. It wasn't because she
wanted to be doing something else. That prayer always brought up fear in her -
any of the prayers that her mother had her do. But Emma did them to satisfy her
mother. Emma did it because perhaps she thought it would make her mother feel
better.
Life had been difficult. Emma's mother and father had been divorced for about a
year now. Finances were more difficult and Emma could feel in her mother a
concern and a fear that her mother had never had before. Her mother had always
been smiling, laughing and singing. And now there were frown lines in Emma's
mother's face. There was a stern voice. There was no more singing. Emma's mother
had to take care of her and her two older brothers. By the way, they didn't have
to pray any more. Emma's mother was so tired of arguing with them about it. It
was now up to Emma, she thought, to carry the whole responsibility of this
prayer ritual for everybody in the family.
Emma's mother would sit at the table and read the newspaper while drinking
coffee in the morning, and Emma didn't like that feeling either. She could see
that her mother was concerned about things like war. She talked once in a while
quietly to her friends about nuclear attack. She talked about things like
politics and people of fame and leadership being killed. Emma felt the heaviness
and a sadness in her and didn't know what to do with it. She felt it was like
her own, like she carried this weight for the whole world, but it was her own.
So as soon as her mother kissed her good night and turned off the light and
closed the door all but two inches... you see Emma had to have the door open a
few inches because she was afraid of the dark. But not only that, she
wanted to keep feeling her mother's energy because she was worried about
her mother and her brothers and her extended family and the world - would the
world even be here in the morning? So when Emma went to bed that night, she laid
her head down, she pulled up her Raggedy Ann doll - who was her constant
companion... held Raggedy Ann in her arms and then she said her real
prayers.
You see the others were the obligatory prayers to make her mother feel good. But
in her real prayer she said, "Dear God, I don't know who you are, but I
don't think you're the one I just prayed to. I don't know where you are, but I
don't think you're a long way away.
"Dear God, would you make sure to take care of my dog, Skip, because I
really love him and I'm not always so sure I know how to take care of him. And
Dear God could you also watch over my brothers because they're stupid. They're
teenage boys and I worry about them. Dear God, my father is leaving. He's found
somebody else and he's leaving this town and I'm worried about him. Would you
take care of him too?
"And more than anything, would you take care of my mom because I don't
think she's doing very good right now. She worries about me, but I'm really
worried about her. Dear God, would you take care of the world because I'm
worried about the world too. I hear stories and it doesn't seem to be happy
right now.
< freedom 10 > This path started, whether it was a couple of thousand years ago or a couple of hundred. You come into this lifetime; there was a somewhat of an inner choice, a high potential that you were going to realize enlightenment in this lifetime. The human self kind of follows along with it. It's kind of like in your spiritual DNA. “Okay – enlightenment, realization in this lifetime.” Ever since you were infused, ever since you integrated your essence into this physical body in this lifetime, it has been about enlightenment. Everything. You could look back, you could write down the history of this lifetime – it's all been about enlightenment.
< freedom 10 > And the funny thing is that there were no mistakes. You couldn't make a mistake if you tried. You pretend that you can make mistakes, and that you still can. You can actually set your rudder for a direction you know is not right, you know is not compatible with your being, intentionally, and guess what? It's just going to get redirected over to your true path.
< discovery 2 > You've had many years on this planet. You chose to come back at the best of times, but yet perhaps the hardest of times. You chose families based partly on karma, partly on convenience. You chose early life experiences that would ultimately funnel you into your awakening. You did. You chose experiences that would keep you from getting distracted. You chose experiences of love and of careers and of so many other things that really kept you from getting distracted, kept you from coming into embodied enlightenment. Sometimes the methods that you used were rather harsh to keep you into this funnel of your own enlightenment, but this is what you were determined to do.
< discovery 2 > One of the biggest things that occurred to so many of you back then, a type of trauma or tears, finding yourself back in physical body wondering, worrying if you would be able to uphold your commitment to yourself, wondering if you would be able to stay true to you in yet another physical incarnation that had so many distractions. Here you are, one year old, one and a half, wondering how you can possibly get through this psychic gravity of a another lifetime on Earth. It brought up so much pain, so much feelings of weakness, overwhelm. But there was also hope. There was determination. There was also that light that you brought in with you into this lifetime, that you knew could not be extinguished no matter what happened, no matter even if you tried to run from yourself that this light that you brought in was going to shine and shine and shine.
< discovery 2 > When you were between about five, maybe eight years old, there was the words from parents and teachers that you shouldn't do this, you can't do that. And you found yourself now trying to conform and trying to please others, starting to block out the knowingness of who you were, intentionally. You found various ways to do it, trying to conform, trying to be like the others. Intentionally shutting down. Part of you knew the time wasn't right. Some of you felt that, out of love to your parents, that you couldn't expose yourself for who you truly were. So you found ways to shut down. It hurt. It hurt deeply. It created wounds that would cause other experiences – experiences with children bullying you, experiences with your parents getting angry, experiences with getting in fights. Those weren't what were really important. It was this incident, this feeling of shutting down.
< discovery 2 > As the observer, feel the wisdom in what you did. What you remember was the shutdown, the trauma of the shutdown. But what was really going on here is you were just allowing yourself to wait – wait until the time was right. What was happening is you were allowing yourself to really be in life, once again walking in the human shoes and the human experience; once again, feeling love and pain; once again, empathizing and having compassion for the human journey.
< discovery 2 > As you went into your teenage years, you found yourself conflicted with so many belief systems. Found yourself almost forcing yourself to adapt belief systems from society, parents, teachers, other kids, and you knew they really weren't quite right. But you allowed yourself to adapt to them, to bring them in as your own and literally to program yourself into these belief systems. These belief systems ultimately caused you a variety of experiences, some of them traumatic, difficult, things you still might feel guilty about or shameful about. It was important to know how belief systems are created in order that you would eventually be able to release all the belief systems.
< discovery 2 > Basically, digesting belief systems that really weren't yours. It created the other traumatic events, and you weren't seeing what really happened. You were blaming it on that experience saying, “I made a mistake. I did something that good girls shouldn't do. I did something that hurt somebody else.” But, you see, you didn't have the perspective or the awareness of where that came from, why that was there. It was there because of belief systems that you took in that weren't yours.
< discovery 2 >
And then you come into that very linear part of life, for so many of you.
After you got out of school, graduated school, you started working. You got
very linear. I was amazed watching so many of you, how you could force
yourself, especially after some of you had a very liberating college
experience, then you forced yourself linear – jobs, families, bills,
commitments. I would say that's perhaps one of the hardest times, because it was, in a
way, boring. It was linear. Now you were in a groove, in a type of, well, trap
and you knew better, but you didn't know how to do it different. Everybody
else had families. Everybody else had jobs. Everybody else had bills. What
were you going to do?
You knew it would be a huge distraction to go off and live in some
commune or ashram, so you just went through it – linear. That was difficult.
That hurt. It was almost like you couldn't see the end. You could see the end
of things, eras or cycles within yourself when you were in your childhood and
your teens. But here you were now – would you just live and then die in this
linear limited set of realities? It went against the grain of the real you. It
became tedious. It became so tedious.
There was part of you that was screaming out. I'm not saying that there
weren't joyful moments, but something within you was screaming out, “This
isn't it! This is not why I came here! This is not what I choose,” but you
continued with it.