depression / breakdown / bottom out


< New Earth 9QA > Depression is simply the Self feeling it has been abandoned. There is a feeling of loss and sorrow. It is difficult to explain but your old energy human self has an identity to itself, just like your past lives have an identity to themselves. It is feeling that it is abandoned, that it has died or is dying. That is why many here have gone through the feelings of the death phantom. It is feeling that all of the energy was pulled out from underneath. It is wanting to continue living, continuing its identity but also knowing that it is appropriate to make way for the True Self, the Higher Self, to come in. These feelings are strong and they are real. There are humans who have not been able to work through these, that have chosen instead to return Home. These feelings are intensely strong. These feelings of depression have been intensified lately when your guides began to leave the space they held around you, so there is the additional feeling of abandonment as well.

< Creator 5 > But from our perspective, we can see the overview of what is happening to you in your life. The changes that are taking place are, in essence, a clearing. We can see that this is making way for the fourth element to come in now. There may be days when you are laid upon your bed, when you are ill, and you can not move. There may be days when you are depressed and cannot understand why. We suggest to each of you here and to each of you reading this - do not fight these things. Bless them. Bless them, and this will give them a new energy. Do you understand what we say here?

< Creator 11QA > Dear friends, and you who specifically ask this question, many of you have used these medications for a layer of protection, to get out of the intensity of your own mind. We can tell you from what we have observed that in order to fully move into your divinity you will have to, you will need to and want to release these drugs. They provide you with a blanket. They provide a barrier that has protected you from the old energy ways of yourself.

You will need to release these to move forward. Now the drugs will continue to carry residue within you for a period of time, unfortunately. When you stop taking them they will not go away right away. There is a chemical buildup in your body but more than that, it has caused a somewhat longer term blanket, an emotional blanket, that will take some work to release. There is a layer that will take a lot of love and a lot of attention to release. We suggest to you and to all others who have taken anti-depressant drugs and any sort of psychological drugs to find a way to release these. We are not saying they are bad, but they will continue to keep a barrier between you and your divinity.

< Creator 11QA > These drugs provided padding and perhaps were appropriate but we see, for those who are moving into the new energy, that these are something that you will want to release. Cauldre can also feel our emotions and knows that we do not so much like these drugs! You are hiding from the problem (snake) rather than addressing it with these. The work of a good new energy facilitator will do much to balance and heal than what these drugs can do. There are core issues that are seeking to come out here. Your doctors and counselors of the new energy can help address the deep inner issues that are causing the imbalances in the first place.

< Ascension 7QA > There is energy that comes forth from Source, from the core of all things. And, as this energy goes deeper and deeper into the void, and even into your creation, it is transformed into cycles, into frequencies, or pulses. There are some on your side, on our side even, who see this as a pulsing, as an on/off pulse of energy, on/off, like a blinking light. There are others who see it like waves, like frequency waves. Either way of thinking works with this.

As you bring in the energies into your life, into your consciousness, it does go in cycles, or waves, or pulses. There is a reason for this. It is part of duality. It is a way of generating more energy. What we are saying is that the "highs" and the "lows," or the "on" and the "off" are important right now.

Many humans try to avoid this. They try to do everything that they can to avoid the "lows." We can tell you that when you are without agenda, the "lows" will not be what you think they are. The "lows" will not be like they have been in the past. Agenda makes the "lows" miserable, because it takes a reverse energy (highs) cycle and grinds away at and causes friction against it. That is why you feel so bad, emotionally and/or physically.

When agendas are released, it no longer becomes "high" and "low," "good" or "bad." It just becomes changing energy. You do not, and you will not feel it, dear friends, as depression vs. exuberance. You will feel it just as waves of energy coming in. Release the agenda, and you will not feel the friction. You will not feel the pain that you have experienced in the past.

< NewEnergy 2 > In the awakening, there are difficulties. The awakening wakes up everything within you, not just the good, not just the light. Everything. Oh, yes, now you start to have experiences, feelings, and thoughts… reliving past lives… reliving difficulties and challenges… reliving times before you ever came to Earth. It all comes up in the awakening. There is almost a depression that sinks in at this point. You thought the awakening was the final answer, didn't you? You thought everything was going to get better, that God and the angels were going to take care of it for you, didn't you?

< NewEnergy 4 > The anger issues that you have are also causing depression and sadness, partly because you're sad and depressed that you can't seem to break through. You can't seem to move beyond. You want that knowingness so bad. And, it is right there. Yet, you can't get your hand on it. It is like the carrot in front of the horse. At one point the horse gets tired of that game. It gets depressed. It gets sad.

< Embodiment 4QA > Indeed, the depression is not caused by the chemicals, but the chemicals are a result of a deeper - how to say - spiritual imbalance, or a deeper soul level type of depression. The drugs are simply a means to help alleviate or help to reduce the symptoms that are coming through. The depression has to do so often with many of the burdens carried by the inner being… for the burdens of guilt… the burdens of judgment for things that they have done wrong. Other times this depression is caused by - as we were speaking of today - holding too much energy for others.

In your case, in particular, this is… you have been an energy holder for many others, as you know. You tend to absorb their problems. And, you tend to absorb their pains and feelings. And, you have, in a sense, deprived yourself of this sufficient level of energy into your own being, into your own reality. You have, in a sense, squeezed off the energy that comes from "the field," or the source of all, and used it for others, but have not given yourself enough.

< Embodiment 5 > You call these things "depression" and "anxiety." You have been battling with this, Shaumbra. You have been having a difficult time. It is difficult for us to watch too. It is so overwhelming, so difficult. It is a natural part of the process unfortunately. But, it doesn't have to be so difficult. There is a combination of elements that are taking place that cause this because part of you is dying, and there is the depression of the whole process of death within yourself. The Old you is changing. The New you is screaming out, wanting to hold on. This would appear to be a type of contradiction of goals or desires between the Old you and the New you. This causes what would be considered an energy inversion, which causes what you would call depression. The depression is very real. It is very deep. It is very overwhelming, as you know.

< Embodiment 5 > It is about allowing yourself to be fully embodied in it. And, we know this is not what you wanted to hear. Through the full embodiment of the depression and the anxiety will come a New type of energy and a New type of movement. Through the deep embodiment of this thing that you don't want to be deep into will come the energies of your past, your past lives, the energies of every sub-reality you have ever created. They will come rushing in. They will come rushing in to work with you, moving you through this depression.

< Embodiment 5 > The anxiety is deep right now for many of you because you can feel impending change. You can feel something is going to give. But, the question is - is that something within you, or something outside of you? You are feeling an anxiety because you are more sensitive than ever. Yes, you are opening up your sensitivities, and you are feeling everything. You are feeling anxieties from within yourself, AND in the world all around you. These can be overwhelming. The anxieties and all of these energies can be overwhelming.

< Embodiment 5 > One of the other points of being an Energy Mover is to always be the observer, even the observer of your own depression and your own anxiety. Be the observer of it. You are in there fighting with it, boxing with it, trying to eliminate it. Sometimes you think if you stop working, forcing against the depression that it is going to simply take you over. It will facilitate an energy move, but it won't take you over. It will facilitate a process, but it won't annihilate you. Shaumbra, we have to say here, too, that for all of you, whether you are experiencing the anxieties and depressions, you are experiencing the sensitivities. There is a tendency to want to shut down, to close down. We ask you to continue moving the energies, allowing yourself to be the observer, and to be sensitive all at the same time. The sensitivities are opening because you have asked them to. Everything is changing because you have asked it to.

< Embodiment 5QA > Indeed… we have discussed much of this in the regular Shoud, this whole thing that you call depression. But, it is different than what - how to say - most other humans are going through. Some of you have sought the help or the assistance of a traditional mental health worker for this thing called depression. And, as you have found out, there is little relief they can give you, for they do not understand, even while they may pretend to.

But, it is not a classic type of a depression or a classic type of - in your case here - a feeling that you've grown cold or distant. It is simply part of this process that you are moving through, changing from the Old Self to the New. And, again, as we said earlier, there are many from our side of the veil who are working with you very closely. It is about allowing yourself to embody this rather challenging and difficult time.

Stop trying to look to the Old ways to bring out a New passion. And, that is truly what is happening here. A whole New type of passion, which you cannot even fathom in a traditional human mind, is starting to come through. But, yet you are still looking in Old places to try to, once again, bring back Old passions or Old feelings. You are trying to re-ignite something that cannot be re-ignited.

It is a matter of breathing your way through this. And, Cauldre is stopping us here, saying that sometimes it seems so simplistic. And, he is saying that Shaumbra would like more definitive answers. But, we have to state that the breathing, the being in the Now moment, and the allowing yourself to feel this are the very best methods or remedies you can give for yourself. There is no - how to say - happy little word, and certainly no happy little pill, that is going to relieve this.

You have to understand this is part of a very significant change process. It should be no mystery that your system, your emotions are going through a complete overhaul, a complete work-over. You come out the other end of this with amazing New passions and New insights. It is about allowing this change process to take place.

< Embodiment 5QA > There is going to come a point where you feel disconnected and dispassionate from everything that was Old, and the New hasn't moved in yet. So many of you are literally allowing yourselves to be - how to say - reconnected to this thing we call "the field," the source of all energies. In this process of reconnection you are going to feel an experience - this loss of passion, loss of enthusiasm, or excitement - because you are really totally rebooting your entire system.

You are moving into a whole New method of living and operating. Therefore, you are going to experience things like the depression and the anxiety that we spoke of earlier. And, that is a natural result of being reconnected on "the field." And, you're going to feel a loss of passion… passion for your work… passion for your family… and perhaps even passion for yourself.

But, did you not give yourself… actually ask for this whole change process to take place? Did you not ask for this time of being reconnected to "the field" and reconnected even to your own divinity? Embody the process, instead of fighting it. Ask the process that you are going through what it is there for. It is not about a lesson, but it is about an energy dynamic, a changing energy dynamic.

We can say from working closely with Shaumbra that it is just part of the process that occurs for a relatively short period of time. Breathe through it. Embody it. Don't try to run from it. Understand why it is there.

< Embodiment 6 > One of the things that holds you back is your resistance to use your imagination, your lack of imagination. You actually have a very potent imagination, don't you? You've been shutting it down for a long, long time. As a child you were scolded for your imagination. We remember… we were there with you. You have been trained not to use it. You have been trained to use the mind only. One of the things that causes depression, by the way, is not using your imagination. For those of you who have been experiencing depression and anxiety and lack of passion, it is because you have put your imagination on the back burner. You have hidden it. You have suppressed it. No wonder you get depressed!

< Embodiment 6QA > We have to say for you - for all of you - that sometimes that you reach the darkest levels, the levels of the most despair when you are about to make the greatest changes. Why is that? It is because it forces you to give up everything that you thought you were. It forces you to give up Old stories. It forces you to release things that no longer serve you. And, yes, it does feel terrible to go through. And, we have talked about this with you over and over again.

Now that you have gotten to the point of basically total release, you are finding that the Old doesn't work anymore, a primary cause of the depression and the frustration. The Old doesn't work. It's simply not responding. But, yet you keep going back and trying to use the Old over and over and over. And, you get more filled with despair and depression until you finally give up, until you finally surrender.

And, in that surrender are the answers. You are surrendering only to yourself. You are giving up all of the Old stories. You are surrendering to the higher nature of yourself and allowing that to come in and to be with you. We love and admire you, all of you who say, "I am at my end. I am in the darkest of the dark. I don't even know who I am anymore. But, yet I am going to continue to give it a try."

What we are going to ask you today is no longer give it a try because you keep trying with Old tools… you see. There is no need to struggle anymore. You can absolutely let go and trust your Self, your divine self, your human self. All of you… you can let go. You can understand that it may feel like falling off the edge of a cliff into an abyss.

But, that's when the true miracle happens. That's when you are at such a point that you allow your own divinity to come up. You release the limitations and the restrictions of the Old human way. You don't have to end your life to do that. You only need to end trying ending the Old ways, and allow all of this New that we have talked about today to come out. You are truly ready to set yourself free.

< Embodiment 9QA > Letting go of all control releases all energy. That is when the unexpected begins to happen in your life. That is when the depression leaves and the passion comes in. Letting go of the control frees every bit of energy you put into a structure. It sounds simple. And, it's not.

< Clarity 4 > Here is another one - depression. Now, a lot of you will say, "Well, depression doesn't feed me at all. It takes away from me." Oh, not at all, not at all. It is like a very thick soup, depression. It is very thick, very heavy. But, it is feeding you somehow. It is a type of spiritual food. It's there for a reason, not because you are bad, not because you have a chemical imbalance. My God, the last thing that it is is a chemical imbalance! That is only what science sees, but it is something much different. It is an energy. And, it is feeding you, even though you think it is robbing life force energies. Take another look at it. What is behind this energy of depression? Why is it in your life? Why is it a constant battle and a challenge?

< Clarity 5 > You think that you need discipline to keep you focused. That is actually what has kept you limited. Discipline will definitely create a focus, but the focus can be so limiting. And, it causes things like depression. The human spirit was never intended to be so focused, so limited that it got lost. That is why so much depression occurs because these beings are screaming out from within, screaming out to be who they are, to enjoy life. But, all of the overlays, all of the hypnosis from themselves and from society holds them back. It is probably one of the greatest causes of depression - limitation. The spirit was not meant to be limited. You are not meant to be limited.

< Teacher 5 > When we say you bring it (New Energy) into your life, again we remind you that it's going to look different than the Old Energy. So one of the things that I learned in my period of having this breakdown was to let go of the expectations. Expectations are one of the primary causes of breakdowns and depressions. Letting go of what you expect things to be like, allowing them to expand.

< Teacher 5QA > You don't need to bottom out before you go through that next evolution. You can choose to do it gracefully. You can choose to do it where you don't have to lose everything. But right now there's still a very old mindset that you carry but many other humans do also, that you must go through this trauma in the evolution in order to basically free yourself of all those energies to move forward. You don't need to do that. You don't need to get to the point of losing your home and losing all of your property, basically being destitute in order to rediscover yourself. You can choose to do it more gracefully and you can choose to do it abundantly.

< (Next) 8 > Depression is a bit of a natural result of awakening, because you're creating a void. When you transition, when you go through this alchemy process of being just the old human with a lot of karma, stuck on the lifetime path, and you let that go, it creates a void. Your mind interprets that as depression. It's really not. It's a change. It's a time for internal reflection. It's a huge time of clearing, releasing, but you're going beyond that. You'll actually be able to start enjoying life on Earth.

< Discovery 9 > The other thing is depression. Depression. It's an interesting thing. We didn't used to have depression. In Atlantis there was no such thing as depression. No. Why? Well, because you were always with other people. You always had a project. You always had something to work on together. There wasn't depression back then. Depression is a relatively new phenomenon. Depression occurs when the thoughts suppress the life force energy and the thoughts suppress the passion of the I Am to the point it creates such a veil that it seems like there is nothing left. Depression lacks in what I would call a flow of energy. The energy just sits.

< Discovery 9 > There's a lot of energy in depression. If we could find a way to drill into depression, we would extract a lot of energy, but it's sitting in a muck, in a tar. It's just not moving. It's uninspired. So depression is the mind having generated so many thoughts and ideas and beliefs and little tricks and little methods that none of them work. And the mind essentially is saying, “I don't know what to do anymore, so I'm just going to go into a state of depression.” Depression is more of a state of animated suspension. Not so animated, actually, it's just a state of suspension. Some would call it nothingness, but it's actually quite full. It's actually very full. Depression is a tremendous amount of uninspired energy. It's not going anywhere.

< Discovery 9 > So depression is this state of suspended energy without inspiration, motivation, freedom, and it's given up. It's stopped. So what does humanity do to try to get people out of depression? They give them drugs, which you know I am not a fan of. So darkness and depression, are two very challenging factors. And in just a moment I'm going to ask you to actually drink them in or breathe them in or allow them in.

< Discovery 9 > You've allowed in light and happiness and feel good and all the rest of that, but the fact is there's much more to it. There is energy even in the darkness. There is awareness in your irritation. There is goodness, there is benefit in some of the difficult things you're going through. And the worst thing you're doing, really the only thing you're doing that's kind of mucking it up, is wondering what you're doing wrong. And that will lead to depression, by the way, because it's a thought. It's a limitation. “What am I doing wrong?” Well, there's an assumption you're doing something wrong. And I say to you assume that it's all being done right. And you say, but your mind says, “Well, I'm not sure I can assume everything. I'll assume a little bit,” and then you don't sleep at night.