The Returning Series SHOUD 8
Presented to the Crimson Circle March 7, 2009
Original Website http://www.crimsoncircle.com/
And so it is, dear Shaumbra. It is the
best of times and it is the worst of times. (laughter) It is the age of wisdom
and it is the age of foolishness. Let us take a deep breath.
It is the epic of beliefs and it is the epic disbeliefs. It is the season of the light and it is the season of the dark. It is the spring, dear Shaumbra, it is the spring of hope and it is the winter of despair. And we have before us all things, and we have before us nothing at all. We are all in our consciousness of ascension, and we are all lost in timeless forever.
In the words of Charles Dickens, with the assistance of Adamus Saint-Germain (laughter), written in 1859, 150 years ago - "A Tale of Two Cities." But it is also so appropriate today, in the age that we live in, perhaps to be re-titled "A Tale of Multiple Consciousness."
Oh, dear Shaumbra, what times that we live in, and I say "we" because most of me is here with you now on Earth. This is but one of the last of my messages to this group of Shaumbra in the way we do it now - with me in another nonphysical dimension, with you here on Earth. But oh so rapidly I feel myself being drawn back to this place of Earth, back into the body of the one I call Sam, back into this reality and back into this illusion that we all live in.
It is, indeed, the best of times and it is, indeed, the most challenging of times ever upon the face of Earth. Let us all, human and spirit, take a deep breath in celebration of this paradox, in celebration of where we are today, for as you have heard so many times before, this is why you chose to come to Earth.
And as you know so well it is difficult and challenging and nothing seems to work anymore. The old tricks and the old tools out the door, but what replaces them? We have everything before us, as Dickens said. We have every tool, every resource, every solution and every answer before us, because we placed them there in a very multidimensional way. We placed them there a long time ago, but not knowing what this day would be like.
But we had the wisdom to place the New Energy tools without even knowing what they were; without knowing exactly what had to be done but knowing that it could be done; without having to manipulate or manufacture a certain tool or a certain system or structure, but to know that at this time when we came to this place on the path that those tools would appear and they would be appropriate and they would be of the New Energy not of the Old.
We have nothing before us. We have nothing at the table, because we tend to go back into history and back into time to pull what we have learned before and bring that to the table in times of despair and challenge. But they don't work. They aren't valid anymore. And as Kuthumi told us last month, nobody really knows. So we have nothing at the table, at least from our past. Everything that is at the table right now - all of the gifts and abundance and tools and wisdom and hope - come from the new, come from ourselves in the potentials that we are creating into the future of time, and it is all there.
It is difficult to see at times, because it doesn't look like the past. It doesn't work like the past. It doesn't have the logic of the past - thank God. It is totally different, but it is there.
Consciousness After the Quantum Leap
In September 2007 humanity crossed a very important marker. We call it the Quantum Leap. Take a look back for a moment. Take a look at how your life has changed. Take a look at how the world has changed in not even two years of time. Take a look at the markets, the governments, the churches. Take a look at the consciousness of humanity. It is not what it used to be. And this has only been in a very short number of months since the Quantum Leap.
You knew it was coming. We knew it was coming. From our side we can measure and we can monitor the consciousness of humanity. We see its ebbs and flows. We see its expansions. We see how everything was speeding up - it was going very fast, you can look back historically at how fast things were going - and then it took a quantum leap.
Most people on Earth aren't even aware of that date in September in 2007. They're not aware that there was a thing called the Quantum Leap, but they're living it today. You were aware that it was coming. You were aware long before we ever spoke the words of "Quantum Leap" or before we ever gave a date for this leap in consciousness. You've been aware of it for thousands and thousands of years. You knew it was coming and you made a very conscious choice to be here, incarnate on Earth during this time.
It is the best of times, dear Shaumbra, otherwise I, Tobias, would not be coming back in celebration and in joy, and of course in challenge and sometimes in confusion as it is so easy to do for the human. But I wouldn't be coming back at this time unless I had the same kind of dreams that you have, the same kind of hope for humanity as you have, and the same kind of insights into what comes next as you have.
Oh, you fool yourself so often … so often. You tell yourself you are lost in this timeless forever. Sometimes you even tell yourself you're waiting for the little ones in metal spaceships to show up, to show you the way. I know … I know. Sometimes in your most vulnerable moments some of you think, "We'll wait for the grand intelligent beings from far away to come to save us." But dear Shaumbra, I tell you once again, you are the grand beings from far away. You from the future potential, you who have already gotten to wherever it is you have chosen to go, you are the one coming back at this Now moment bringing to the table your wisdom; bringing to the table your clarity; bringing to the table your knowledge that it's already done; bringing to the table your profound wisdom that it doesn't matter. It doesn't.
Some of you - a few of you, not many - but a few of you are waiting for the beings that live under the ground to come up from the Earth where they have lived for tens of thousands of years to bring forth their wisdom. If they were so smart, they would be here already! (laughter) What you are really waiting for is that part of you to come up from being buried below, that part of you that knows so well who you are, the part of you who knows that you are God also but that has been put down underneath the ground, that has been buried and hidden and just waiting. So it is you that comes up from beneath the ground.
Don't expect hoards of millions of beings who have lived underground without showers or soap or anything like that to come up to save humanity. It is part of you that comes forward at this time, for it is truly the very best of times and truly, for some, the very worst of times.
The Earth is going through its changes, and humanity is going through its ascension process, and it does appear to be chaos and it does appear to be difficult. And it is so very easy to get caught up in all of this, and when you get caught up in all of it, it is so easy to go to this old place, to this rather dimly lit place, to this uninspired place called the mind. In search for the answers, in search of your past and your history to say, "What do I do now? What tricks do I pull out? What worked ten lifetimes ago? What worked one lifetime ago?" It won't work now, dear Shaumbra. We live in a different time.
And as Cauldre and Linda told you today, you'll never go back. You'll never go back. Earth will never be the same again. But isn't that what you asked for? Isn't that what you prayed for when you were still in your days of praying? Isn't that what you have having imagined?
Dear Shaumbra, as Saint-Germain has said in a recent discussion with you, the next several years are going to be so challenging and so difficult for some, and so easy and so sacred and blessed for others. You're going to have your days … you're going to have your days when there is tremendous hope, and you're going to have days of despair. You're going to have days of light and days of dark. There will be times in these few years ahead where the ones that have been the closest and the dearest to you in your life are going to be the ones that betray you. And it doesn't matter.
There are going to be times in your life where you are marvelously abundant and where everything seems to be flowing and the gifts are just coming in at a pace faster than you can even accept them. And there are going to be times when some of you, not all of you, but some of you are going to lose everything you thought you had. And it doesn't matter.
Many of you are going to go through the deepest and most challenging and the darkest spiritual crisis you have ever had in any lifetime on Earth, and you're going to be doing it in this body. I talked about it back in June with the Kryon in Sedona, and a few of you know exactly what I'm talking about - a spiritual crisis unlike any other. Oh you've learned to deal with some crises in your life. You've learned to deal, for the most part, with health crises and emotional crises. And you say to yourself, "I know I can weather it. I know I can get through it if I just keep breathing and duck very, very low. I can get through it." But this spiritual crisis that we've addressed before is different than any other, darker than any other and more terrifying than any other.
And at the same time you're going to have spiritual enlightenment. I don't even like the word "spiritual" anymore. It has old connotations. You're going to have an enlightenment of yourself, of consciousness, of you, like you've never experienced before. And it doesn't matter.
You're going to have insights, somewhat as Cauldre and Linda and Aandrah and On talked about earlier today, of being so very multidimensional, and it's going to throw you off. It will throw you off, because the old human measurement systems are still trying to keep you - how to say - very linear and very singular. The old measurements and monitoring systems of your body, mind and your spirit try to keep you balanced in this very rigid 3D reality/illusion. But as you become multidimensional incarnate while you are in this body, mind and spirit, it's going to throw you off. It's going to be very disorienting, because suddenly you have energies coming in from places you have actually never experienced before, not even in the nonphysical times between lifetimes.
You're going to be experiencing New Energy and it is so different. It is not even quantifiable in an Old Energy way. There's no description for it at this point, other than this cliché "New Energy," because it is so different.
You're going to have experiences in your life when the days seem so dark and other days seem so bright, and you know what I'm talking about, don't you? You're going through it right now. You're experiencing the best of times and the worst of times while you are in this body. And it doesn't matter.
There are going to be times, dear friends, when you are in a health crisis, and it's going to terrify you because you're going to feel the approach of death at your doorstep. You're wondering what's wrong with you, why is your body betraying you? Why is it giving out? Is there some other force grander than you - even a part of you but grander than you - calling you back home? Is the body truly the power and the control and the god of life? Is the body the one that decides how and when and where you will go?
So there will be health crises that come over you, that make you take a look at your entire life, make you wonder what you're doing. And in these health crises it's also going to precipitate, again, a spiritual and emotional crisis, because, well, you're supposed to be a spiritual evolved being. Why would you possibly get sick? Why would something like cancer or diabetes or even a cold or a flu come your way if you're so perfect?
And there's going to be other moments in these amazing times you live in when you're diagnosed with something that appears to be life threatening, but in the blink of an eye, with the love of thyself and the choice over thy body, where this supposed disease and imbalance is just going to be flushed from your system. And it's going to mystify the doctors, so much so that they don't want to talk to you about it, because you're an anomaly. You don't fall into their book, their prescription and their structures because something happened that was different from you, so they're going to dismiss you. But yet they're going to go back to their quiet spaces, to their homes, and wonder what just happened.
It is the best of times, it is the worst of times, and above all, it doesn't matter.
It Doesn't Matter
We sat less than two weeks ago with an amazing group of Shaumbra from all over the world in a vortex - a real vortex - called the Great Pyramid. Not only because it is a vortex aligned with grids and ley lines and things like that, but because it has become a vortex for humanity. Consciousness helped to create it as such a powerful vortex. It is imprinted in the memories and the consciousness of humans all over the world. It is imprinted on some of your paper money. It is a vision and a picture that the large majority of humanity has seen and knows about. And with this group of Shaumbra sitting in the inner chamber talking about the mysteries of life, getting into the real secrets of life.
We told this group that it doesn't matter at all. And we could feel a sense of sorrow and sadness and disbelief amongst this group - "What do you mean, Tobias?" I could hear some of them saying. "What do you mean it doesn't matter? I'm supposed to be here on Earth right now because it matters. I'm supposed to be a Standard of New Energy because it matters. I'm on a mission. Don't you understand, Tobias? I'm on a mission. Although I'm lost as hell, I'm on a mission." (laughter) "I lost everything along the way, I don't know what I'm doing, I don't even know who I am, but it's a hell of a mission, Tobias. It's a hell of a mission. What do you mean it doesn't matter?"
It was almost like I was taking something away from them - a sense of passion, a sense of purpose. It doesn't matter, I told this group. It truly doesn't. Why? Because you're already there. We talked about it before. You've already arrived at whatever place it is you wanted to arrive at. Some of you have told Saint-Germain that you chose ascension. So, you have ascended. You're there! Now you're just experiencing what it was like to get there. It doesn't matter because, dear Shaumbra, it is so natural and it is so much a part of you - this entire process of expansion or evolution or whatever you want to call it. You're already there.
You were there when you crossed through the Wall of Fire and experienced all of the potentials of every lifetime, physical and nonphysical, of everything you would ever think, everything you would ever do and all of its subpotentials and their subpotentials. You had already arrived. So it really doesn't matter. It doesn't matter at all.
Oh, I know that hurts. "Well then why should I wake up in the morning? Why should I try?" You're absolutely right - why should you? (laughter) Why should you keep struggling? You shouldn't, really, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter. "Why should I keep holding up the entire Earth on my shoulders, carrying the burdens and the energy of humanity?" You shouldn't. You should just let it down. It doesn't matter. They're going to do just fine.
They haven't all chosen what you've chosen. They haven't all chosen to ascend or even to become enlightened or even just to have a single good day. (laughter) But it doesn't matter, because sooner or later they will - or maybe not. It doesn't matter. They are going through such a sacred and such a personal process. If they are lost, if they are absolutely lost, it doesn't matter, because they're going to find themselves. In their state of being lost, they will find themselves.
It doesn't matter that they're imprisoned in their own consciousness - or that you are. It doesn't matter, because sooner or later, as in the infamous, illustrious and grand Adamus Saint-Germain trapped in his crystal, in the greatest simplicity that you could ever imagine, Saint-Germain realized, "If I got myself into this I can also get myself out of it. If I created the illusion of my prison, I can also create the illusion of my freedom." It doesn't matter, Shaumbra.
What grander thing could we have told the group in the great pyramids - that it doesn't matter? What more of a vacuum of a sadness than we felt with some in that group, those who are here on a mission, those who are here struggling against the currents, and those who are here going through their own games, going through their own processes. It doesn't matter.
Go through the games and go through the processes because you're going to turn out just fine. I can say that. I've walked a few miles in your sandals. I know what it's like to come to that point of absolute oneness with Self, absolute love with Self, falling in love with yourself, where you suddenly realize "It doesn't matter. I Am That I Am. I always have been, always will be. It doesn't matter."
I remember thinking to myself in my journey, my final realization of my ascension, I wished I could go back in time and tell myself it doesn't matter and then I could have enjoyed the entire journey of getting there. And you know what? I did go back. I absolutely went back unto myself, unto everything that I'd ever done and experienced, and I told myself - soul to human embodiment - I told myself "It doesn't matter."
Now I didn't always listen. I didn't want to listen. I didn't care to listen, because in my human incarnation I was so embroiled with my dilemmas and my dramas, I was so involved in my games, my musings, but also in my creations and my relationships, I didn't want to hear that voice that said, "It doesn't matter. You're already there."
Why Are You Here?
You live in the best of times and the worst of times. You live in the times of wisdom and the times of foolishness, and it doesn't matter. You live in a time of great change and you live in a time that doesn't need change at all, because it's already there. So I ask each one of you today, I ask all across this world: why are you here? What is it that you choose? If you're already there, if you're already in your ascension, which we told you in our second year of Series in our discussions, in our Shouds, then what it is that you're here for?
Do you have to have such a mission and do you have to have such a purpose? Do you have to be needed by someone or something else? Do you have to be a crusader still? Do you have to get on that horse and cross vast lands to tell and to show other people how to live and what to believe?
Or can you be here on Earth right now as yourself - just because? That's a good enough reason, I discovered - just because. Why are you here on Earth? "Just because, damn it, it's the best of times, it's the worst of times. I wouldn't want to miss it for anything!" (laughter) Why are you here? "Just because I can be here, because I can be in a body and what a luscious thing it is. Just because I can feel human emotion, I can taste human food. I can actually feel human pain and human struggling - that's a reason in itself. Because I can feel this thing called love from one to the other. I can pet a dog. I can sing out loud and hear myself."
Just because. What a grand and marvelous thing it is for a creator to do it, just because - if nothing else for the experience.
You don't get points on the other side for the total number of experiences that you've had, for the difficulty and the challenges of experience. You're only admired for the depth and for the compassion of the experience with yourself. That's all that matters. There are beings on the other side - angelic beings as you would call them, never been in human form before - and they are absolutely intrigued by any angel who's been to Earth. It shows in our colors. It shows in your colors. Now colors - you could say a type of vibration or a light. (Tobias takes a sip)
I'm getting so addicted to these human … (laughter) And I have to say one of my final requests, in addition to, of course, the beard of Cauldre, and … oh yes, he would like to, after he grows the beard for my last farewell message, he will trim it and perhaps sell the holy relics to … (much laughter, Linda says, "You're getting carried away.") But indeed, in my last channel in my last minute I would love a glass of your finest wine that you could possibly afford. (more laughter; Linda says, "Be careful what you ask for.") Oh indeed, I not only ask, I dream and I create. So it will be so. Now, where were we? (laughter)
So in the other realms when an angel who has never been in human form encounters one of you who has been in human form, they are so in awe of what you would call experience. They want some of it. They are so in awe of the depth of your soul and the magnificent colors and the songs of your heart. "Where did you get that!?" they say. "Where did you become such a grand and glorious being - a king and a pharaoh and a God unto yourself? How do I become like you?"
And you take a deep breath, "You've got to go to Earth for it." (Tobias chuckles) "But let me caution you here before you go. You may lose your way."
And they say, "But look at you, you obviously found your way."
"Yes, but there is the illusion of losing your way that is so real that it is the grandest experience you'll ever have. The illusion of being lost and of being puny and of being insignificant and of being nothing amongst many - what an experience that is!"
And they say, "But look at you, you magnificent being. You went to Earth. You played. You had fun. You loved. You became solid! You could feel things in a way where we can't possibly."
And you shake your head - or I shake my head - and said, "But you'll hate." (laughter) "But you'll hate it. But in that hatred of it, in that loathing and in that desperation to get out of it, ah, is the experience. What a grand thing it is to actually look at it from the other way, to actually feel so downtrodden and so desperate that you hate everything. What an experience.
"And you know what, by the way?" you say to these new ones. "When you go to Earth, do me one favor. Above all when you go to Earth and you're down there and you're in despair, you're in challenge, you wonder if you're even going to eat the next day and your spouse has just divorced you and your children can't stand you, and you're sick - you've got a bad back and a cold and a flu all at the same time - and you're cursing and you're cussing and saying, 'What was I ever thinking?' just remember this. It doesn't matter!" (laughter) "It doesn't matter because you can't get lost. You can't lose. There's not a test. This isn't even an experiment, it's an experience. It doesn't matter.
"Now, if you can go down there and remember these words" - see, you tell them this; I tell them this, but they don't listen - "if you can go down there and remember these words 'it doesn't matter,' you'll have a hell of an experience. You will absolutely cherish every moment in physical body. And if you go down there during this time of grand change on Earth called the Quantum Leap, called the evolution of consciousness and you remember that it doesn't matter, you'll actually enjoy it. Which would you rather experience - enjoying it or being fearful of it? Being a creator or being a game player?
"If you remember when you go to Earth in this new time," you tell these raw, green (inexperienced) angels, "When you go there to Earth, if you just tell yourself at night before you go to sleep 'it didn't matter, it doesn't matter,' now an interesting and strange thing happens with humans. They don't necessarily want to believe it doesn't matter, and they're actually indoctrinated or sometimes hypnotized that it does matter. They are told that if it doesn't matter, you're going to do something to hurt somebody. If it doesn't matter, you're going to rob or cheat or even kill someone. So they're told, they're trained, 'It better matter.'
"But you know, if you always remember you're an angel, you're in experience, you're in an experience - you're the creator of that experience and you are the un-creator of that experience - if you remember that, you're never going to have to worry about doing something what you would call 'bad.' You transcend the good and bad. You don't ever need to steal energy from anyone else. So therefore you're not going to get involved in some of the games that humans play. You're not going to get caught in karma. You're not going to get in this trap if you remember it doesn't matter. 'I Am That I Am, I am the creator and the un-creator. It doesn't matter.'"
The End of Duality
So Shaumbra, incredible time that you live in and you're going to be experiencing - humans are going to be experiencing this incredible paradox. One day knowing everything, the next day nothing at all. One day having great love in your life and the next day betrayed by the very ones that love you. It doesn't matter. It really doesn't. Oh, the human condition would love for it to matter and would love to scream and complain about it and would love to blame someone else and would love - would love - to be the victim, to play the game. But it doesn't matter.
You're living in a time of incredible paradox where nothing is like it was before. We were talking about the weather in a recent Shoud - the weather going back and forth - incredible paradox. One moment a storm, the next moment paradise. One moment humanity suffering, the next moment rejoicing.
Why all of this paradox? Why all the confusion right now? Because, dear friends, this thing that you've known for as long as you've lived lifetimes on Earth - this thing called duality, opposing force - the consciousness of duality is coming to completion … is coming to completion. So these forces that you see that apparently or perceptibly have been battling against each other are actually now coming together.
They're coming together so you're no longer a man or a woman. But as they come together, there's this perception or this illusion that there's this great paradox between the masculine part of you and the feminine part, but actually they're coming to completion. That's what this whole transformation into New Energy is truly about.
In a way it is the end of times. It is the end of duality. But duality is making itself more apparent than ever before. Contradictions are going to be more visible and sensible than ever before - meaning that you will sense it stronger than ever - and it's actually not a contradiction, and it's actually not opposing force any more, because they're coming to completion. In what would appear to be chaos and contradiction and conflict, they're actually coming back together again. You see, it doesn't matter. It's happening naturally. And it actually happens in a very beautiful way.
You're being shown just one side of a very beautiful process on Earth right now. Everybody's focusing on the terrible. They're focusing on the systems falling apart. Walk around the other side where nobody stands. Walk around the other side of creation, of this illusion, and you're going to see the beauty of what's happening. Don't stand there with the masses staring at this dimensional picture of reality and saying, "What the hell's happening to Earth? Where do we go next? What do we do? Why am I here?" Walk around to the other side. Walk around where nobody else stands, Shaumbra all around the world, and look at what's really happening. It is beautiful and at the same time falling apart. It is the coming back together of the elements that have been long, long separated, and it is such a beautiful process.
Be the one that sees the beauty in this. Be the one that then takes it within you, that absolutely feels what is really going on here. Set aside your human concerns about your job and your money and, oh, the value of the stock market. It doesn't matter. There are what you would call riches or abundance for you, but it doesn't look anything like the old abundance. It doesn't act like the old abundance. Stop worrying about where that next check is going to come from.
Now you want to fight me on this and you're writing your conclusive proof to me right now. I can hear you. "I'm going to write an email to Tobias and say, 'Tobias, you don't know what the hell you're talking about because I have nothing and nothing's coming in for me and I'm at the end.'" Absolutely you are. Walk around the other side and look why you're at the end. Look at the beauty of letting everything go.
Oh, forget about the little human pains and the … most of it's just fear. Most of it's an illusion. What have you really lost? Nothing. It doesn't matter. You're gaining everything, but you don't want to look at it. You're too busy looking at everything falling apart. You're too busy in the game. You're too busy pretending that you're a victim. You're too busy blaming me and your parents and your children and your spouses and your past lives and the world and the politicians and everybody else including the little ones in spaceships and the ones from underground. You're too busy blaming all of them. It doesn't matter. It really doesn't.
And we're going to arm wrestle about this for a while until you finally, finally one day laugh and say, "Oh Tobias, I wish you'd told me way back when when I was in the heat of my despair and the depths of my agony, I wish you would have said to me, Tobias, 'It doesn't matter.' And then I would have let go of that little game I was playing, and then I would have stopped blaming everyone. And then I would had a big smile and said, 'What a grand experience I'm having on Earth right now - the illusion of things falling apart when they're really coming together.'"
Isn't that a contradiction or a paradox in itself? - the illusion that everything is falling apart.
Imagine right now you're standing on a hill with millions of other humans and there's this huge painting - huge painting - and it's called "The Painting of Earth in 2009," and that painting seems to be falling apart. The paint is melting, the frame around it is cracking and breaking, and it holds … it is the God, it is the modern-day god, it's the illusion of life. And everybody's looking at it saying, "It's falling apart. What we worship - the modern-day god, the new age Horus and Isis and everybody else - the modern thing that we so worship, the illusion of life, it's falling apart. It's crumbling before us and there's nobody here to save us, and I know that," humans say, "I know there's nobody here to save us because I have called out to God and no God has come. I have screamed out to the angels and they just give me this b.s. So I know there's nothing, and …" The painting, the illusion is falling apart. That's when I say, dear Shaumbra, it doesn't matter. Absolutely, and by the way, you asked for it to fall apart. You wanted the change.
Now go around the other side of the hill where nobody is and look at what's really happening. It's coming together. The illusion of it falling apart has to be there because otherwise you're just intensifying the old elements of duality. You're just making the male more masculine and the female more feminine. You're just making light more light and dark more dark, and that is just adding to the game. And that's not at all what you chose. That's not at all what you asked for. That's not at all what you truly want to experience.
Walk around to the other side of that painting, of that illusion. First you'll realize there's no painting there at all! Secondly, you'll realize it's all coming together, with or without you. It's all happening. It's all in a natural progression.
It's only an illusion that it's falling apart. It actually can't. It can't.
Now, there's something in your DNA called Atlantis that says, "Oh, but Tobias it can. Ohhhh it can!" (laughter) "I have seen it, I have felt it and those flames were really hot." (laughter) "So don't tell me, Tobias, that it can't happen."
Well let's go back to Atlantis for a moment. Let's take a look at what was happening. It was an evolution and a transition as well. It was a time of truly discovering Self and discovering the essence of Spirit, of God. First, it had to be this illusion of God being off in the heavens, and eventually … eventually a few humans would begin to understand that the God was within.
But in a sense back in Atlantis, as somewhat nave as we all were, as children of Spirit as we all were, playing the grand game that we were playing, we said, "Let's take it and blow it up." Haven't you done that as children? Haven't you taken your little trucks and toys and demolished them? That was great fun! That was amazing! Boom - destroy it! And what happened? Well, you got a bigger and better toy then. You got a grander game to play.
Atlantis wasn't a mistake. It wasn't the wrath of God. Atlantis was not an error in humanity. And by the way, Atlantis wasn't this model of perfection society. It had many great things, but it wasn't the perfect society. We were learning. We were experiencing. We wanted to also experience what it was like to have this great chaos and this great destruction. But it didn't matter. It wasn't shortly thereafter that you came back for another lifetime, either above Earth or below Earth. It didn't matter. You were still here.
We, all of us including me, we live in the best of times and we live in the worst. We live in the most amazing times … the most amazing times ever. Understand that you're here just because you can be, just because you want to be, just because it is absolutely fun. Don't take it so serious. Don't take the burdens of the world on your shoulder. When you go into fear, feel the fear. Absolutely, feel the fear. Don't try to run from your own fear - it's already ahead of you. It's going to meet you on that path before you ever get there!
Feel the fear, but then feel really into it, deep into it, because fear is a very interesting energy in consciousness. When you're looking at it from just the side of fear and darkness, it will freeze you. It will bring you to the depths of terror or the illusion of hell. But walk right through it. Don't even bother walking around it, walk right through it. Take a look at what's on the other side. Take a look at that pearl that's there awaiting you.
Let's all take a deep breath together.
You have everything before you, everything at your table, and you have nothing at all. You have everything that comes from yourself coming from what you would call the future, but it's really coming from the best of you. I don't even want to call it future, because I don't want you to relate it to time. It's coming from a part of your consciousness that you haven't experience yet that's already there. That's what at your table.
At your table there is nothing at all, because what the eyes see and the senses perceive, they want it to be something like the old, from the old - just sharper knives, just better utensils, perhaps more delicious food - but it's not there, because at this point in time of changing consciousness, you bring nothing old to the table. Nothing. Because what was old didn't work.
We told the group of Shaumbra touring in Egypt, going to the sacred sites, that the Egyptians, these beautiful beings, they don't have the answers. They don't have some secret code buried deep in their hieroglyphs that explain what's going to happen next. They don't know. They were just waiting for you to come along so they can turn it over to you so they can be free to go on their own way. They were waiting for you, but they don't know.
When Shaumbra was there, they asked, they said, "Great ones from the ancient past, what secrets do you have? What mysteries will you reveal?" And the great ones from the past, the ones that were the gods and the pharaohs and the supposed divine ones, pondered for a moment and said, "We don't know!" (laughter) "Not a clue. Have a good time. We're turning it over to you. We will be on our way."
So … so dear Shaumbra, another interesting thing about the times that you live in right now. We say that duality is coming together. It's in its state of completion. It's actually already completed, but now it's just going through the motions of getting there. You look at things so linear you think you have to take one step in front of you all the time to get to your destination. Absolutely not at all. You're already at your destination and now you're just taking steps backwards to experience it and forwards to experience it again, you see. You're not trying to solve anything, it's already solved. Now can you please just experience it and stop struggling with it?
Another interesting thing is happening right now. This duality is coming together. It's completing itself in the most amazing process. It's a process of fire and transmutation - tremendous fire right now - and I use the word 'fire' symbolically. There's tremendous transmutation, alchemy taking place right now. But an amazing thing in this alchemy is it's not just duality coming together. You're not just feeling the past and the future in this Now moment, it's very multidimensional. You're feeling elements that aren't just in front of you or behind, but things that were at the sides and beneath and above.
It can be very, very confusing - and I'm having to use human terminology here to help you understand - it's not just backward and forward at this point. It's coming in from everywhere, from a type of reality or, I should say, an illusion that you can't even imagine, because it wasn't even on your radar screen. It wasn't even on your type of energetic scope.
Part of it is this thing called New Energy. It's coming in from places you haven't explored before. We get into some very interesting spiritual physics here, but New Energy is not singular. It is very multiple, multidimensional. So you say, "Yes, I want a piece of that New Energy. Yes, I'll bring that into my dualistic reality, so I'll take a bite of that." When you're taking a bite of it from over here and bringing it into the Now moment, it's actually coming in from back here and over there and over there and from in here outward to the Now - and it gets very, very confusing if you're still in your human mind. It gets very confusing if you have expectations about what it should look and feel like.
So that comes to the point where you go into a type of overwhelm. Intuitively you know that the old ways of perception don't work anymore so you explode yourself or you shatter yourself in a type of subconscious but somewhat conscious choice. You break yourself up. You shatter the illusion of self so now you can enjoy the experience without the old overlays. You lose everything so that you can see everything. You allow the self to break down, to reveal its illusions and its fallacies and its old ways so that you can perceive and experience multidimensionally.
Oh, and it's frightening. It's terrifying. It is exhausting to one small part of yourself - but the part that seems to get all of the attention, the part that seems to be the squeaky wheel, the part that seems to do the most screaming and complaining - the little human self, the victim self, the fearful little self who doesn't believe in itself, the self that's playing the game and is loving the game. So that self screams out and complains, "What the hell is happening? Why aren't you here? Everything that you angels say to us is a bunch of crap." It is. It is. (laughter) It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter, because you're going to find out for yourself.
Now, we can give you a little bit of guidance and a little soothing along the way. We can come back often and tell you it doesn't matter. We can tell you from an overview what's happening. We can share with you that it's time to really let go of that illusion.
You've made a choice somewhere. Somewhere deep within you you've made a choice. Maybe it wasn't little human self, the little screamer, the little tyrant, as we like to call it at my cottage (Tobias chuckles), little tyrant self. But there was a sacred part of self that said, "Let us let go of this illusion, let go of the singularity or the duality. Let's let go of the old so we can absolutely experience something far grander - just because. Just because. Not to save the world. Not to save our angelic families - they'll do fine on their own - but just because. There's nothing better than just because."
Last Month's Question
Last month Kuthumi came in with his brilliance - oh, dear Kuthumi - and came upon a time of questions and answers. And there came to be a very sincere and real and genuine question that came up, a question that brought so much energy for all of you and such a wave of realism and trauma, but it actually threw Cauldre and probably Kuthumi off. It had some of you laughing at a time where perhaps laughter wasn't deserved, but it doesn't matter. It had some of you very confused and out of your body. You didn't even hear the question - we'll repeat it in a moment - but you didn't hear it because it was far too poignant and too real. It doesn't matter, we're going to read it again. It had some of you so angry.
You know sometimes absolutely we love to see you angry. Saint-Germain provokes your anger because you get complacent. You get so complacent at times and he likes to come and prod and poke you and get you so angry at him. And then you know what happens? Later we all, including you, we all have a good laugh and say, "You know what? It doesn't matter. It was the experience."
But I did want to … I've been asked by Cauldre to address this question again. So you heard it a month ago - most of you. You're going to here it now, but in one short month - one short month since this was asked - I want you to hear the difference, both in the question and the feeling behind it, and I want you to perceive your wisdom, your absolute wisdom, in the answer. Because, you see, you already know. You already know. Yes, it doesn't matter. You already know.
But you also know what this person - because they write on behalf of so many - you already know what they're going through. You already know the despair that they're in. You already know that they are in their winter of despair, they can't see the spring of hope. You know that before them there is nothing. You know that they go not directly into ascension, but they experience what it is like to be forever lost. You know that feeling. You know the absolute conflict. So please do read the question again.
LINDA: Dear Tobias, how dare you tell us we're just playing games as if you have nothing to do with the games we're playing? You said last month 'There is something inside of you that's choosing it and picking it and making it a reality.' You told us many times that all we have to do is make a clear, conscious choice in the Now moment and we'll create our reality. That is a game.
We chose to let go of our old beliefs that are no longer serving us. So what is the 'something' that is inside of us? Since we seem to have no control over it and it somehow has the power to create our reality without our consent, I'll call it our soul self. The game is that we choose to adopt the new belief that we choose our reality, but it's our soul self that gets to make the official choice and thus create our reality. Our soul self is obviously choosing to create from our old beliefs that we have let go.
Saint-Germain said that to finalize our ascension process and go to our Third Circle is only a choice. I made that choice over a year ago and now I can see why I am truly not the creator of my reality. Yes, I'm tired of this game and I wish I could go back eight years and forget everything you've told us. I will, however, let go of these new beliefs and allow my reality to be whatever it is. If there is a Third Circle, there is no choice to get there. That explains why we've been stuck in this ascension process for over 2,000 years. We're creating our own reality, but for the consciousness part of ourselves, it's from something inside and WE have no choice. Tobias, do you really not understand our frustration?
TOBIAS: Indeed. And you know, it doesn't matter. It really doesn't. I mean it absolutely doesn't.
Now, with all due respect and great love - oh, you know when I say that you know something's coming - there's a game, absolute game and it's a wonderful game and it doesn't matter. But the game is, "I'm going to separate myself from my soul. I'm going to put my soul off somewhere else and I'm going to allow it to have the - what you would call - the power. I'm going to let it be the creator and I'm going to play the game of being the little human. I'm going to make demands of God and Tobias and Saint-Germain and of my soul, but I'm going to play the game that nobody's listening. I'm going to play the game that I am the puppet at the end of the strings being managed by the puppeteer."
And it's a brilliant game. It's a beautiful game, actually, because it allows you to see what it's like to feel that you do have no choice, that you are not the sovereign being, that you do not have dominion over your own creations. Very much like the story of Saint-Germain or I, Tobias, or Kuthumi all stuck in our different types of prisons. What a wonderful game that was to allow ourselves to get stuck, to pretend that we had no say over our reality, to turn that reality and that consciousness over to other humans and governments and gods and who else knows what. We all played the game.
We know what it was like to feel trapped until one day we said, "It doesn't matter." Until one day Saint-Germain said, "Hold on a second. I've been in this crystal for 100,000 years - kind of stupid. A little slow actually." Saint-Germain actually took that short bus to ascension. But, dear ones, it finally dawned on him after trying to break his way out and after trying to anger his way out, he finally said, "It doesn't matter. I got myself in here, I get myself out." He stopped playing the game of separation between his human self and his soul self. And for all of you right now, I encourage you to stop playing the game that you've got this soul that's off somewhere else that has all the answers. It is you.
Do you know what the definition of divinity is? You, in the Now moment, experiencing your creations. It's not this grand angel that exists off somewhere else, unless you put it there. It's not this complex state of perfection that exists in some far off dimension until you are worthy to receive it, unless you put it there.
Actually the divine is you in this moment. Part of you doesn't want to accept that because you want the divine to be grand. It is not. It is not. That's an illusion. Your divine is simple. Your divine is so elegantly simple. How could it be grand? How could it be big or complex? How can it be greater than you?
Your divinity is the most simply amazing part of yourself. And it's there. It's part of you. It's not just inside of you. It's not hovering around you. It is you, and it's there for you to feel and experience anytime you want.
The one who asked this question has gone through tremendous anger, tremendous feeling of being a victim, playing a tremendous game of "I am not in control and damn it, I don't want to be." The one who asked the question is playing the game, but so are so many other Shaumbra because I know what it's like. I know how you can relate to this question, how you can have compassion for it, because you felt it also. You can play the game as long as you want, as long as you want it to be the game.
I encourage you to do this. Ask yourself "What do I give up if I stop playing the game? What do I have to give up?"
For those who play the game of being the victim, that their soul and God exist somewhere else, you give up this thing called weakness - blaming it on somebody else, feeling that you don't have control - and that's actually a very interesting thing to experience. Suddenly, when you give up that game, you have to truly take the responsibility for your choices.
So many of you are in conflict with your soul and your soul in conflict with you. You've set up this game. Oh indeed, the soul ultimately cannot be tarnished. It cannot be destroyed or twisted. It cannot be polluted. But you can play the game that it can be. You can play the game that it will turn its back on you, because you want it to. You can play the game that the chasm between you and your soul and your divinity is so grand and so vast that you will never reach it. You can play that. You can play the game that "I made a choice and it didn't work out." Well, of course it didn't work out, because you don't want it to work out.
You can play the game that says, "I'm going to exit; I'm going to leave," but you really don't want to leave, you see. Take a look at the contradictions you've set up for yourselves. Take a look at the experience that you've set up for yourself. You can blame others, you can blame us, but until you realize you got yourself into this, you created it, now you and only you can uncreate it. I, Tobias, do not have a key. Kuthumi does not know the secret password to your illusions. And Saint-Germain doesn't know a single mystery that's going to get you out of your mystery, out of your illusion. Only you.
And when you can take a deep breath, when you can say, "Oh, it doesn't matter anymore. I'm just going to let myself out. I'm going to uncreate what I created," then, dear ones, you have enlightenment. When you can say "This thing called divinity, the I Am, the God of Self is not some far off illustrious creature living in some other grand dimension while I suffer down here," when you realize divinity is simplicity - so simple it's unfathomable by the human mind as you know it right now; it can only be felt, it can only be experienced - such simplicity that you stop playing the game of complexity. Such brilliant clarity that you stop trying to figure it out and you just live it.
This is indeed the best of times and it is indeed the worst of times. And indeed, it doesn't matter.
And so it is.
Tobias of the Crimson Council is presented by Geoffrey Hoppe, aka "Cauldre," in Golden, Colorado. The story of Tobias, from the biblical Book of Tobit, can be found on the Crimson Circle web site at www.crimsoncircle.com. The Tobias Materials have been offered free of charge since August 1999, the time when Tobias said humanity moved past the potential of destruction and into the New Energy.
The Crimson Circle is a global network of human angels who are among the first to transition into the New Energy. As they experience the joys and challenges of the ascension status, they help other humans on their journeys through sharing, caring and guiding. Over 100,000 visitors come to the Crimson Circle web site each month to read the latest materials and discuss their own experiences.
The Crimson Circle meets monthly in the Denver, Colorado area where Tobias presents the latest information through Geoffrey Hoppe. Tobias states that he and the others of the celestial Crimson Council are actually channeling the humans. According to Tobias, they are reading our energies and translating our own information back to us so we can see it from the outside, while experiencing it on the inside. The "Shoud" is the portion of the channeling where Tobias steps aside and the energy of the humans is channeled directly by Geoffrey Hoppe.
Crimson Circle gatherings are open to the public. The ultimate purpose of the Crimson Circle is to serve as human guides and teachers to those walking the path of inner spiritual awakening. This is not an evangelical mission. Rather, the inner light will guide people to your doorstep for your compassion and care. You will know what to do and teach in that moment, when the unique and precious human who is about to embark on the journey of the Bridge of Swords comes to you.
If you are reading this and feel a sense of truth and connection, you are indeed Shaumbra. You are a teacher and a human guide. Allow the seed of divinity to blossom within you in this moment and for all times to come. You are never alone, for there is family around the world and angels in the realms around you.
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