surrender into yourself / giving up

surrendering into who you really are;  surrendering into trust;  graceful acceptance of the I Am

< QuantumLeap 2 > But there is an effect, a literal effect that is happening right now with your prantay, your essence, so allowed to be here right now. You see, you don't have to push it or force it. It's just here. You're finally getting comfortable with being human after all this time. Isn't it amazing? And then, your last lifetime! (laughter from audience and Kuthumi) But that is the way it goes, you know! Andra would call it surrender. Surrender into yourself.

< QuantumLeap 2 > Surrender into trust, as Saint-Germain would say. Surrendering into who you really are. Not any longer worried about someone else taking you over. That is such a giant type of fear that any of those who have crossed through the angelic realms to the earthly realms, they have a fear of someone taking them over. You see, angels can't kill each other with a gun like humans do. But on the other side there's this old game called "Take Over," called "I'm going to absorb you. I'm going to put you out of commission. I'm going to take your energy. I'm going to take away your consciousness."

< QuantumLeap 2 > So you see, you come to Earth with that fear and then you live it out, and it's amplified by the fact that somebody can "take your life," that you can be in an accident and die. So there's this constant fear, constant fear that ultimately creates such a collision of energies within you that you don't want to be here anymore. So your body - kind of like Sam - out there (other realms) wandering around, but not really occupied, not really present, no longer making choices, no longer trusting.

< QuantumLeap 2 > Ultimately, in the bad parts of the angelic neighborhoods, when an angel takes over another being, it doesn't last. It can't last. Every angelic being, every human being is also a sovereign divine being by birthright. It's not something that you have to earn. It's not a badge that you achieve after so many eons of lifetimes. You started with it. You started with a divine sovereign self. You just kind of got away from it, like all of us did. You kind of went for the experience - what was it like to get away from sovereignty? What was it like to get away from being singular and you to being very, very multiple, very, very scattered in so many different ways?

< QuantumLeap 2 > So, one angelic being trying to steal from another. It doesn't work, ultimately. It can't work. The, what you call, physics won't allow it to work, so eventually the being who is taken over has to come back into their own consciousness. And the point where they come back into their consciousness is when they stop fighting it, you see. When they stop resisting it. When they stop tormenting against it. When they stop trying to figure it out. When they let go.

< QuantumLeap 2 > Now, that's a little frightening, even for the angels, but especially for the humans, because your resistance to all these outside energies is what you think has kept you whole. But it's actually put you in the hole. It actually has. Your resistance to radio waves coming through the building right now from the secret government ... zzzzt! (laughter) ... your resistance to the lessons from your parents; your resistance to change at your office; your resistance to even moving into the New Energy - it is these things that actually keep you very limited, very small, without the ability to truly expand.

< QuantumLeap 2 > There is only you. Yo-ham. You. That is all there is, so in the surrender, in this sweet surrender, it is just letting go of those things that you were clinging onto so desperately - but also cursing at the same time. The abyss wasn't an abyss at all. It wasn't. It never was. It wasn't somebody else's abyss. It wasn't some type of inferno. It wasn't lost. I can tell you, from my Yo-ham to yours, a soul, a being, an essence can never ultimately be lost. There is always some part, deep buried perhaps, but there is always some part of You that's calling you back to You, you see.

< QuantumLeap 2 > But you're losing those things that you are really allowing yourself to let go of, and I don't want to tell you what's going to happen because you already know. As you lose yourself (little human self), as you lose those old things, you already know ... maybe not putting in words, but you know what's going to happen, Yo-ham. You gain back You, the relationship with that divine God part of you that creates reality in such a smooth and graceful way that you don't have to work at it. You don't have to pound at it. You don't have to force with it.

< Returning 2 > All energy seeks resolution and it finds it. If a human sits in a safe space - sit is a metaphor - but be's in a safe space, takes a deep breath, lets go of the struggle, lets go of the control and the expectation; if they fall into themselves, surrendering to who they really are, not to some outside God - dear God, that has caused so many problems in the past. But when you surrender unto yourself, to your God, to you within, and you just allow the natural process to take place, the body starts healing itself. As we've talked about in Standard Technology, it heals itself. The mind quiets down, and in quieting down, it starts to come back into balance. The spirit feels welcome to begin making its connection and integration with its human aspect. And it can all happen in this safe space.

< e2012 8 > They let go of this need to try to define themselves, to find themselves, to know themselves, to improve and perfect themselves. They came to a point of exhaustion – anybody feel a little connected to that? – a point of exhaustion, of saying, “This search, this desperate search, is exhausting. I'm just going to give up. To hell with this whole spiritual path and all of its books and all of its workshops and all of its accoutrements and everything else – to hell with that! I'm done! I'm done!”

In that moment of acceptance, then it came together. Then they had a good laugh, every one of them. And then it didn't matter. It didn't matter that they weren't perfect, because they were never going to be. It mattered that they accepted. It mattered that they loved themselves, quirks and all. Bad bank accounts, overweight, stupid little tics or strange things you do, your bad temper, your impatience, your lack of real understanding of the spiritual being that you are. You get over all that. You go into a place of acceptance. You could say it's surrender, but it's only surrendering to you.

< kharisma 9 > All of you should be breathing a sigh of relief right now, “Oh god!” No truly. If you do a study of the Ascended Masters, and you look at their path, there's a lot of common things that they did. They all studied a lot. They all disciplined a lot. They all agonized a lot, felt really bad for all … guilty, guilty, guilty. That kind of a weird part of the process, just, “Ohhh! I did all this bad stuff. Please, please forgive me.” Oh! But then they stop trying. They give up. And I bring this back a little bit to the story of Yeshua and you coming here to plant that seed of divinity; then you studying, sequestering yourself in these sacred organizations and then getting sick and tired of it and just walking away disillusioned.

< kharisma 9 > It's almost like that now. You're almost sick and tired of your own path, of what you've been doing, of your spirituality. Oh, even the world doesn't even sound so good anymore. It's like, ughh, ughh! Spirituality is just another excuse for not being human in life, in your self, so you get sick of it and suddenly whether it's done consciously or unconsciously you just stop trying. “I'm so tired of that. That didn't get me anywhere. All these years, whether it was Crimson Circle or any other group, all these years, look at me. I'm a mess. I'm worn out. I'm broke. I have nothing. People don't like me. I smell bad. I give up. I give up. I'm just going to fade into life.” That's actually really good, when you get to that point.

< kharisma 9 > First of all, you're not going to fade into life. You're not just going to go back to being common at all. But what's good about that is you've finally given up. You've finally stopped trying to be spiritual, stopped trying for ascension. The enlightenment is here. I asked you before, why did you wait, assuming you could have just done it a couple of lifetimes ago or earlier in this lifetime. It's already here. All the preparation has been done. All the processing has been done, all the getting yourself ready. It's here. So stop trying. Don't think about it though. You're not going to be able to figure it out, but you can let yourself feel it and realize it and get that “aha.” It's not a bad reason. No, it's not. Not a negative reason or anything. It's a very deep reason. It's a very pure, real reason.

< WalkOn 8 > And I know you pride yourself with how well you can prop yourself up in terms of some of the greatest adversities in your life. You pride yourself with being able to dig in, to lock in, to get determined, and it's gotten you through a lot up to now. But that quality doesn't work going forward from here. The quality of self-love and acceptance, human to human, the quality of what you would call trust and what I call allowing is what gets going from here. The quality of graceful acceptance of the I Am is what gets you from here. Your mind cannot fathom it. Your mind feels that it's being slighted, that it's being denied of something that it feels it's earned for itself, when one simply allows the divine, the grace and the ease.

< WalkOn 8 > It is the trust, the allowing and the grace. It is taking that deep breath into the knowingness, that deep understanding that this is all very, very natural, and that ability to just let go. It's a huge step. Very few – very few – will ever get this far, much less come to that point where they can just allow and, in the allowing, knowing that everything changes. The way you think, the relationship to your body, birth, life and death itself; the perception of your life as you've had up to now; the perception that is contained within your memories; the perception of the world outside and all around you, it all changes, and it can be frightening, startling, but it can also be equally amazing, magical, beautiful. It's the very, very thing that you came here for.