< Creator 11 >
James was much like many of you. James came into this lifetime for a clearing,
for a final clearing and completion.
James chose a family lineage that he had been
with in the past.
Allow us to digress here for a moment.
Indeed, when you come into a new body and a new lifetime on Earth, you do choose
your family. But you do not just look at the millions and millions of families
that are available, and say, "I will take this one or that one." It is
not quite that simple. You have an affinity for the blood
lineage that you came from. Generally, you will choose to return to a family
that you have been with in the past.
There are those who believe that they bounce around from one country to the next, from one race to another. Dear friends, this is not so accurate. You tend to follow patterns. You follow families that you have been part of in the past. Do you know that you could be your own great great great grandfather? (audience laughter) This is not so uncommon, for you choose to come back in certain lineages, certain blood lines. There are many reasons for this that we will not go into right now.
There are stories in your Holy Scriptures that
talk of twelve tribes and families of
Earth. In a sense, this is accurate and true. From these twelve tribes certain
lines have been developed. You have tended to stay within these until the most
recent years. Until approximately 50 years, it has been common to stay within
fairly tight blood lines. This is changing now and there are many reasons for
this. We do not want to take up so much precious time now discussing this. But
understand, you tend to stay within the same family patterns. That is why there
is a fascination for your own genealogy. You will show up on your own family
tree several times! (audience laughter)
Now, James was choosing another lifetime on Earth. He selected a family he had been with before. He selected a lineage that he was quite familiar with. (Notice the common energy behind the words "family" and "familiar".) He came to Earth in this lifetime with a father who was very strict and very stern. His father was cold-hearted.
James came into this lifetime with a mother who was loving but weak. Again, if you look at the energy behind this lesson, you will understand there is much more here than meets the eye. A father who was controlling and demanding and discipling and strict. A father who gave little love, but gave many guidelines. A mother who was loving but afraid … afraid of this male energy of the father. Afraid to truly open her heart. She was weak.
As James grew up and came of age, he realized her wanted to get away from this strict father energy right away. For it was also an energy that required him to go to a church with which he felt no connection. He felt no closeness with this church. For in this church he learned of a stern Father, of a mean Father, of a judgmental Father and a Father who was punishing. He learned that God was this way. God the Father. Vindictive, angry, temperamental, cruel and strict. This is what he learned. He learned it while in the biological family he had chosen that was controlled by a strict male energy.
When he came of age, he left quickly. He left quickly and began a journey of his own for at his soul level he knew that he must heal in this lifetime. He knew he must heal himself, his past, but he also subconsciously knew there was a whole family lineage of karma to heal as well.
Oh, as you know, James tried many different things, many different schools of thought, all of which helped him move to new levels, all of which served him well. But he still had many challenges in his own life. He had challenges of relationships. He did not so much understand how to open his heart to women in his life. He did not know how to relate to the female energy, for what he had seen was weak. The female energy he knew from his mother could barely eke out its love. He was trying to find love in other women, but he did not know how to deal with it. There is much more to this story than meets the eye, dear friends.
James finally found a woman who could express love, but yet was strong in her own right. She had a healthy balance of male and female. But James did not want any children. He did not want to subject another human to the type of suffering he went through. So he chose, and his wife agreed, not have children in this lifetime.
They searched together. They went to many classes. They belonged to many groups, and they learned many things along the way. But yet many of his troubles continued. He had problems with abundance in his life. He had problems with holding a job. And as his relationship with his wife matured and took on time, he had problems relating to her, to this female energy. He sought much time alone, off by himself, contemplating, talking to God the Father who he did not so much understand, but it was all he knew. He spent much time talking to God the Father, the one he learned was cruel and angry. But he knew no other relationship with Spirit. It had always been the Father energy.
At some point, after much struggling and learning and challenges, James began to read the materials of the Crimson Circle. He began to connect with the energy of (spiritual) family. He began to understand why he was on Earth in the first place. James began to have new meaning in his life. Oh, indeed it was difficult letting go of many of the old ways. But he began to have new understandings of why he was here.
Some good things began to happen in his life. James was always appreciative and always sat down to give thanks and prayer to God the Father and to the Angels and to his Guides. And then it would seem, as most of you have experienced, that the difficult times would come back once again.
James, who was diligently working on the lessons of the Crimson Circle, went to his job one day and was given a large raise. He was given a large raise, seemingly out of no where. He was happy and he thought to himself, "This is truly working now. I’m truly becoming a creator, I am truly learning to manifest, for look what has happened in my life!"
James went home that night, went to his room of meditation, shut the door, lit the candles and the incense, and polished the crystals. (chuckling) He still kept these things in spite of all we have said. (audience laughter) James prayed and gave thanks and he said, "Dear Father, thank you for this gift of the raise and this promotion at my job, for now I will have the abundance to pay my bills on time. Now I will have the abundance to buy my dear and loving wife a few things that I have always wanted to give her." James continued, "Dear angels, dear angels, I give thanks to you for arranging this. And oh yes, dear runners, I do not so much understand you yet, but I understand you facilitate my creations. I give thanks to you. I am happy and I am learning. I’m learning to become a creator. I am creating more abundance in my life."
And Spirit, represented by the King and the Queen, and the guides and angels and the runners could all hear this. For they hear all of your words. And they were laughing and they were scratching their heads. And yes, I, Tobias, was there. I too was puzzled and thought, "Why does James give credit to Spirit, to the angels and to the guides, to a God the Father he does not so much understand and that he is even afraid of. Why does James give credit for his accomplishments to these others? Does he think we dole out favors, dole out goodies to Shaumbra, with no particular pattern?"
And we laughed and we were amused and we said, "We must talk to family about this in one of the lessons. It will become one of the most important lessons. We will tell James and we will tell each of you - give thanks to yourself."