< Creator 8 >
Sitting in the Inner Room of her New House is one of family, one we call Shaumbra. Her name is Catherine. Catherine is weeping as we visit her on this night. Catherine is very sad. She is not sure who she is. In her private moments Catherine has said to her Self and Spirit that it is time to go Home. She no longer feels a purpose or meaning in her life. Catherine is crying many tears, for she does not understand. She has asked Spirit over and over again for the answers, but she hears very little. The answers that do come are simply morsels, simply specks. They are not complete and full answers. The one we know as family, as Shaumbra, that we call Catherine has been battling what she has labeled as depression. She has gone to a medical doctor, and she has received pills to get over her depression. But dear friends, she found that even the pills could not take care of this deep feeling within her, this feeling of sadness.
Catherine cries and sobs on this night because she has tried many different things. She has tried many different ways of being and of acting and of being good and of doing the right thing. They have not seemed to work so well in her life. She does not understand, and she feels somewhat abandoned by Spirit. Oh, she knows within her that her own guides left within the past several years. She has lost a job that had meant much to her. She has replaced it with another that has not been nearly so meaningful. She lost what she thought was important in her daily work. Because of her thoughts and beliefs, some of her own family have shunned her. When they talk to her, it is gratuitous. It is not meaningful and loving as it used to be, and she does not understand this.
Lately Catherine has been physically depleted. Her energy is low, and she does not understand this, for she goes to ones who are facilitators. She goes to ones who help rebuild the energy of the human. It works for a short period of time, but it does not sustain itself over the period of weeks and months. She does not understand; therefore tears fall from her eyes. The one called Catherine, the one who is family, who is all of us, does not feel any sense of purpose, of going forward, or any strong desires. There are times when she thinks she could simply do nothing, not even read a book, not even watch television. Catherine thinks that all care and feeling have left her. She does not have the energy of hope as she used to.
Catherine gets up from her place in her Inner Room as frustrated or perhaps even more than when she walked in, for the answers have not been there. She was expecting and hoping and even praying that Spirit would manifest in front of her. She thought that perhaps if Spirit was not available, then perhaps, I, Tobias would come to her and give her the answers. (audience laughter) But as you know, dear friends, that is not appropriate.
Catherine gets up and she leaves her Inner Room. She wanders around her New House. She is amazed at how empty her New House is, considering how long she has been living there. Oh, indeed there is an oven. There are still trays filled with issues sitting on the counter in the kitchen. But in the other rooms there is not much furniture. Indeed there is a bright glow, but she has not connected with it yet. Indeed she has heard a vibration, particularly when she has truly let go. She has heard this hum, this quiet music, this vibration that I, Tobias have talked of, but she has not quite connected with it.
Catherine walks around her New House, rambling from room to room, asking Spirit to come with the answers. She asks her guides to please come back, even though she knows they have departed. She bargains with them. She promises to be a nicer to them and stop asking so many favors from them if they only come back into her energy. She rambles around her new house, feeling very sad and very alone. She decides to go outside for a long walk. Perhaps there is something outside the New House that she missed, something back in duality, in everyday life, back out on the streets. Perhaps she missed an important notice. Perhaps there is a human that has a message for her!
As she walks towards the front door, a sparkling catches the corner of her eye. Something catches Catherine’s attention and stops her in her tracks. She glances not to the left, or to the right, or even where her glance is currently focused. Instead, she glances past and through these things. She glances into a place called ALL. In this new dimension that now joins her human dimension, she sees something that she cannot believe she missed. It was there ever since she first entered her New House. On the table, in a vase, is a CRYSTAL ROSE.
We discussed this with you in a channeling eleven months ago. When you first entered your New House, there was but one thing inside, and it was a crystal rose. We told you the crystal rose bore a fruit. It produced a fruit, unlike any rose that you have known.
Catherine adjusted her gaze past the typical to the ALL. She then approached the rose, and a knowingness came over her. She was not struggling at this point with the question, "What should I do with this rose?" because she was looking to the ALL. She was looking beyond the obvious choices of: touch the rose, don't touch the rose, or do nothing. She looked to the ALL, and in this knowingness she knew what to do. She didn’t allow her human intellect to go through the regular process of duality, of struggling with choices. She intuitively knew it was time to take the fruit of the rose and to receive it, to place it in her mouth, to digest it, and to bring it within her being.
Dear friends, the fruit of the rose that is in your New House is the passion that exists in the new energy!