< DivineHuman 1 >
There is a human who you may recognize, partly as yourself or partly as the
others around you. We will call him Mark, although it could be male or female.
But, we will call him Mark. He was Shaumbra,
indeed. Like so many of you, he had read the books and gone to the courses.
As he moved along his path, he found the journey to be increasingly difficult, harder and harder. He cried out to Spirit, and to Tobias, and to those in the Crimson Council. And he said, "Why does it seem that each day the path is more difficult? Why is it that each day it is more difficult to pick up my feet, to move one in front of the other? There are times when I want to lie down and rest, go to sleep. There are some days I do not think I can get through the density of this journey. I feel I am being pulled. I feel that I cannot cut through this dense fog."
Our dear friend Mark was wondering if he was doing something wrong on his journey. He was wondering if perhaps he did not hear us quite right, or he was not following the lesson the way he should have. So, he went back and reread all of the lessons. Oh, he learned much that he did not learn the first time.
But, he still was unsettled. It still did not answer the question within him. Why was it so difficult? Why did it tire him out at the deepest soul levels, as well as the physical level? "Why," he kept asking, "is this journey so difficult?" At times Mark grew angry. He cursed those in the Crimson Council. He cursed Spirit. He thought it should be an easier journey. He thought we should be there to answer more of his questions and to do more things for him.
He found himself being distracted by his confusion, and his frustration, and his weariness. He grew somewhat disappointed in himself, and therefore with the others around him, and even with the Crimson Circle. He found himself, dear friends, sneaking off to UFO classes! (audience laughter) He found himself going to conspiracy seminars. He found himself going to classes where they taught you to go back to your guides for the answers. He knew he was slipping. (more laughter)
It did not feel right at the inner level, but at the outer level, our dear friend Mark got back into this old energy, this duality energy that he was so used to from before. It gave him an energy hit when he went to these things. It distracted him also, which he appreciated.
It was much more fun to think about the alien conspiracy than it was to think about his own divinity. It was much more fun to get angry with the government, and the Illuminati, and all of the others for the supposed conspiracies, to worry about what chemicals were being dumped from airplanes. It was much easier to think about these things and to get caught up in duality than it was to walk the path of the Divine Human. But, underneath dear Mark knew this was not the long-term answer. It was a diversion and a distraction.
Now, very recently Mark was down on the floor, weeping, weary, angry, very judgmental about himself, very unaccepting of where he was on the path. And, he cried out to us, and said, "Tobias, and Spirit, and all of the others, what is it that I should know? What is it I should know right now?"
Now, as all of you know, we did not tell him the answer. (audience laugher) We asked him to look inside. And, Mark cried back, and said, "I do not know how to look inside! I'm a failure when it comes to looking inside! I hear so many different voices that I don't even know which one to believe or trust!"
We said to him, "Ask your Truth to come forward. The other voices will fall away. Your True Voice will come forth, and the others will leave. Tell yourself you are looking for the voice of your divine self. The other voices will have to go. The false voices will leave. The divine voice will come forth."
Now, fortunately Mark was tired enough and open enough that he actually let his Truth come through. Sometimes, Shaumbra, you have to get so tired and so weary that you get out of that mind of yours to let Truth truly come through. Mark was tired enough.
What he heard, and what he asked us to share with all of you on this day, was quite simple. The voice he heard was, "The world doesn't want to let you go. That is why you are having a difficult time. The world around you doesn't want to let you go. It is holding onto you. Your family and friends… they love you, even though they battle with you at times. They love you, and they can feel that you are leaving.