The Masters Series SHOUD 9
Presented to the Crimson Circle May 1, 2010
Original Website http://www.crimsoncircle.com/
I Am that I Am, the
incomparable, incorrigible and oft misquoted Adamus
Saint-Germain (French pronunciation). I am not your mother's Saint-Germain
(laughter), and this is not the old new age,
as you probably noticed by now.
Dear Shaumbra, we gather once again for … ooh! … (laughter as Linda helps him with the microphone equipment)
ADAMUS: Ooh! We gather once again for the monthly meeting with the Crimson Circle - the human angels here on Earth, with the Crimson Council - all of the angelic beings who work with you, whom you work with on a regular basis. We gather our energies together with Shaumbra from all around the world.
(pause, then laughter as Linda tries to get the microphone clipped back on his belt) I think she's doing this on purpose. Ready to walk?
LINDA: Yeah babe… Yes sir.
ADAMUS: Thank you. (puts the equipment in his pocket)
LINDA: Thank you.
ADAMUS: We gather together our energies, which we do so often in the other realms during your dream state, and now a lot of you are starting to venture into the other realms even when you're wide awake. But this is always a special occasion each month when we gather right here with everyone all around the world including those watching over the Internet. Let us invite you in … invite you … pull you right into our space here. (looking into the camera) You're not just viewing, you're … Come on, all of you. Come right in here. If I have to get you one by one I will, but we'll get you.
You see, some like to go through this experience and this process from a distance. They like to watch and observe. They like to pretend that they're really not part of this thing called Shaumbra or they're just standing at the outside edges. But oh no, oh no. If you're watching now, you're in it.
So, dear Shaumbra, we have a lot to discuss today. As always, so little time and so much to say.
The Challenges of Awakening
Let's get right to it. I'm going to ask Linda of Eesa to grab the microphone and go out into the audience. You'll probably need some Adamus Awards in your back pocket. We don't know yet. But, dear Shaumbra, I'm writing another book. We're writing a book. I'll get the credit, but you will too. We're writing a book … may I do that for you? (offering to "help" with Linda's microphone)
LINDA: Please. (laughter)
ADAMUS: We're writing a book about the integration into the Body of Consciousness. That's not a very good title, so we're going to call it something like "Awakening - Believe It Or Not" or one of many other titles, which I won't go into now.
But each and every one of you have been on this journey, have been going through this experience for lifetimes. You've been going through it intensely. There's something common with all because you said, "I'm tired of doing this lifetime after lifetime. As intense and as difficult and challenging as it gets, it's going to happen in this lifetime." The energies and the consciousness on Earth are right for it. It was difficult to go through the awakening in other lifetimes. You went through a lot of mental processes and suffering, but the times are right now.
Some of you sometimes get frustrated, and you take it out on poor Cauldre and Linda, sometimes on me. But you get frustrated and say, "Why isn't this happening faster? Why doesn't it just (snap) happen like that?" A couple of reasons - by your choice. One, it would probably burn you up, blow you out, send you straight back to your friends in the Crimson Council. It's not so bad, but you've made a commitment. You're going to do it in this lifetime, come hell or high water. It's been a lot of hell, some high water, but actually I'm delighted to see that you're finding more and more joy with it. You can laugh about it. You can now share your stories more clearly.
Have you noticed that a year or two ago when you were trying to explain to others the process you've been going through, it was very … Come on in, come on in (to someone entering the room). There are seats right up here. Please, I would love for you to sit right up here today. (laughter) Oh, how I would love it. Yes, we've reserved this seat!
So you've made this very deep commitment - you're going to do it this lifetime - and the energies are right to support it now, where they weren't before. Now, sometimes you get frustrated. You want it to go faster, but you've also made a commitment that you're going to do it in a type of way that is compatible and friendly - awakening-friendly - with the consciousness on Earth.
As I said before, even a year or so ago you probably found it difficult to
describe with any clarity the process that you were going through when you
were talking to others. It was very unclear, garbled. You weren't even sure of
what you were saying. But I've noticed now, you're able to articulate it.
You're able to summarize it. You're able to make points of it rather than just
going into some old long story that was boring some of your students to damn
tears. I'm not picking on you, of course (to audience member). I just like to
lean once in a while.
So you're trying to make this process compatible or friendly with the evolution of consciousness on Earth. Why do you think that is, Kathleen?
KATHLEEN: I didn't hear the question. (laughter)
ADAMUS: You were just staring at me, weren't you?!
KATHLEEN: I was just … (laughing)
ADAMUS: Spellbound! Overwhelmed, looking right through Cauldre, of course, into my energies, which I've brought a few more in today than normal.
LINDA: Go ahead, stand up.
ADAMUS: Yes. So you've got … what was my question?
KATHLEEN: I don't know! I don't know! (laughter)
ADAMUS: I'm just as confused as you are now. (laughter) Oh well, thank you for the answer. It was good. So, dear Shaumbra …
KATHLEEN: Do I get a prize?
ADAMUS: No. No, not yet. We'll come back to you later.
So you've been making your energies compatible with those on Earth. Instead of long stories that you've been telling others, now you're able to clarify it. I think we're clarifying it, aren't we? We're clarifying.
So I want to write a book with you, with all of you. We started this process a week ago in Kelowna, asking Shaumbra there what are some of the things that have happened to you in the process of awakening? From your personal experience, your personal perspective, what have been the challenges of awakening?
Now, you can probably make a long list, but as Linda comes around with the microphone, I'm going to ask you to keep it clear and focused - and just one thing, please. We'll get around, I'll write these on the board, and again, we're joining together writing a book. Writing a book.
So this book - "The Awakening Handbook" - will be of great value to those who are coming next, who are just now starting into the awakening. And it will truly make their experiences, their journey that much easier to know what you've gone through. It won't eliminate the experience for them, but it will change the nature of the experience.
So, with that, let's go to lovely Rita.
LINDA: I knew that!
RITA: What was the question?
ADAMUS: Yes, what … (Adamus laughs) It was …
LINDA: Challenge to awakening.
ADAMUS: I forgot. What did I ask?
ADAMUS: What were the challenges?
RITA: Challenge, like …
ADAMUS: A challenge. Challenge from your personal perspective.
RITA: Stepping into the unknown.
ADAMUS: Stepping into the unknown. That's a good one and that deserves an Adamus award.
ADAMUS: By the way, the one who gives the best answer today will get a somewhat crisp, a little worn, five hundred bill. So do work … (lots of laughter as Linda makes a face) It's not my money!
ADAMUS: So, (writing) "the unknown." Now, let me ask you, dear Rita, did you ever find this exhilarating to want to go into the unknown?
RITA: Yes, sometimes.
ADAMUS: Sometimes. And fearful on one hand …
RITA: Oh yes.
ADAMUS: … but exhilarating on the other.
RITA: Oh yeah.
ADAMUS: Have you allowed to put that foot into the unknown, or did you feel a big push coming from behind you?
RITA: (laughing) Well, it was some sort of big push.
ADAMUS: Big push. I'm going to make a sub-note here, "a big push," because - put "push from behind" (writing) - because as you all probably can feel into this, when you try to put just a toe into the unknown, it doesn't work. You can't put just a toe in, because then it's really not the unknown. It's just getting just a little hors d'oeuvre of what is to be. So you end up getting a big push. Where would that big push be coming from?
RITA: It came from the inside?
ADAMUS: Yes. Good. Excellent. You're in contention to get the five hundred bill.
RITA: Another award for me? (laughter)
ADAMUS: I would give the award, but Linda is trying to manage inventory, let's say. So yes, an award. And today you get a special gift on top of the award.
LINDA: Now I want to mention Amy Van Johnson said, "I would like to contribute to the Adamus gifts." So she actually … there is an ace in them, but she actually made the case and there's something unique or special in each one.
LINDA: So thank you Amy.
ADAMUS: So let's hold it high so all can see.
LINDA: Yes. No, no she has to choose. Stand up. Stand up Rita. Now just randomly choose. (Rita choose one) Oh!
LINDA: And these are all handmade by her.
ADAMUS: Yes. And inside is the award.
LINDA: And inside there should the Adamus ace and something else, some other surprise. Oh, that's the Adamus ace. And is there another prize in the there? Sometimes there's more than one prize.
RITA: Just one.
LINDA: Just one, okay. Well, it's two because you got the little case too. Thank you. Next?
ADAMUS: So one more question Rita. Now that you've experienced some of the unknown, what did you learn from the unknown?
RITA: I learned that it is large intelligence. That there is a lot of wisdom in it.
ADAMUS: A lot of wisdom - and if I could add to your words a bit - the unknown really isn't unknown. It's unexperienced, and there's a difference. Something that has not yet been experienced, but is actually not really unknown. So in a sense there is no need to fear it. It's just something yet you haven't experienced. But once you dive into the unknown, as so many of you have, after you settle down a bit you begin to realize it's not really unknown. Partly because - I'm going to wrap up our discussion today with this point - but partly because it's a potential that's almost always been there. Not all potentials, but it's a potential that's been there.
Often in your dream state, you go into potentials to feel them, because, well quite frankly, you haven't been very good at feeling in your waking state, because the mind tends to block it. So you do - all of you every night - you go into different potentials. We'll get into that later today, but good answer. Thank you. Yes. And knowing you as I do, I know that there is a certain exhilaration of going into the unknown. You'd be totally bored if you weren't. You would not make a good factory worker.
Okay, next. Let's go to Laughing Bear.
LINDA: Oh sure.
ADAMUS: I've changed your name for you (from "Standing Bear"). I hope you don't mind. Smile, partner.
So, Laughing Bear, what one challenge in awakening, based on your personal experience?
LAUGHING BEAR: Handling Kundalini energy.
LAUGHING BEAR: The intense, you know, the whole spinal thing.
ADAMUS: What's Kundalini?
LAUGHING BEAR: Well, it's that rush of energy from all my chakras from the ground up.
ADAMUS: What's a chakra?
LAUGHING BEAR: All my centers in my … the vibration that when I have those big "Ah-ha" moments and handling that energy.
ADAMUS: What happened … and I'm playing with you a bit here, but energy is energy. Consciousness is consciousness. Let's not start dissecting it into Kundalini and swirling serpents - that's a bit erotic - and chakras. You segment your body into different chakras. You are one chakra. You are a Body of Consciousness.
So now you have a challenge handling this tremendous amount of energy. How do you deal with that?
LAUGHING BEAR: Some of it is pleasant and some of it is unpleasant.
ADAMUS: How do you deal … what do you do? Just sit there and let it sweep over you like a tide?
LAUGHING BEAR: Well, sometimes it does. Other times it's intense. It's very intense.
ADAMUS: Very intense. And do you put your foot on the brake to try to slow it down?
LAUGHING BEAR: No, I let it go through me.
ADAMUS: Do you have your foot on the gas pedal?
LAUGHING BEAR: Hopefully not.
ADAMUS: Hopefully not. (laughing) So you have no gas pedal, no brake.
LAUGHING BEAR: No …
ADAMUS: You're just going …
LAUGHING BEAR: I'm going with the flow.
ADAMUS: Going with the flow. And, well, that brings up a question. Whose flow?
LAUGHING BEAR: My flow.
ADAMUS: Yes, it sounds like a good answer but it's not a true answer, because it's actually … you're going with the flow of the people around you. You're going with the flow of mass consciousness. You're going with the flow of aspects who are just going wild and having a big party all around you while you're just going with the flow. Who's the boss?
LAUGHING BEAR: I am.
ADAMUS: Being of sovereign service.
LAUGHING BEAR: Yes.
ADAMUS: Yes. You're the boss.
LAUGHING BEAR: I'm the boss.
ADAMUS: All the way of saying that … and thank you. Thank you. It's all a way of saying is yes there is a tremendous amount of energy that races through, of consciousness that's expanding very rapidly, and the faster you expand your consciousness, the more energy it calls in to support it. So there are times that it's overwhelming, but you can stop and take a deep breath and say, "Whoa! I know that I am creating this at all levels, and I know I'm rushing to get through it in this lifetime. But you know, once in a while this human, Laughing Bear, needs to just stop and laugh. I don't need to go through the intensity."
So often it's like hopping in a sports car, getting onto an LA (Los Angeles) freeway, no hands on the steering wheel, no feet on brakes or gas pedal, and going with the flow. What's going to happen? Yes, you can only imagine. You can only imagine.
So this is a very good point for those who are coming into awakening. You don't want to manipulate from your human portion/aspect. You don't want to manipulate awakening, but you can call time-outs whenever you feel there's a need. You can also ask for it to go faster, and it's a co-management between every part of yourself - the spirit, the human, the body. The body - sometimes this awakening wreaks havoc on the body. Partly because at the DNA level and the before-DNA level, there is a flood of clearing taking place, energies coming in, all combining to prepare for New Energy to come in. You're being rewired. You are allowing yourself to be rewired and reworked. So it's very challenging on the physical body.
So, yes, managing energy and consciousness. There's no race. There's no race in this. Actually, it's interesting to note that each and every one of you are absolutely sovereign and individual, but yet there is a common connection with other Shaumbra around the world. Common connection (looking into the camera), and - I want to make them feel welcome - and there is a … it's not like a flock moment, but you're all moving through this somewhat together - independent, but kind of together. There are no formal agreements, and yes, you can break away from the pack any time you want. But there's a certain comfort, because you've studied together, you've gone to Mystery Schools in the past together, you've joined together once again in this lifetime. So you're kind of moving through it together. And you're sharing, as we're doing now, wisdom and insights.
So let's go to Lisa in the back. Oh, she was so … she knew it.
LISA: The question?
ADAMUS: The question is, from your personal experience what is a challenge of going through the awakening?
LISA: That you can't go back.
ADAMUS: That you can't go back. Why not?
LISA: Once you've stepped into the experience of allowing yourself, your soul, to move forward, but you want to go back and be with the rest of the people and do mundane things like make business decisions, it doesn't work anymore.
ADAMUS: Absolutely. Good point. In theory, you probably could. You could create the illusion that you're going back, but then you would have to really medicate yourself. (laughter) Truly - legal, illegal, bottled, smoke-able - but you would really have to make a very concerted attempt to dive back down. That's not meant as a 'down' to put on anybody, but it is difficult. Once the process starts, it's very difficult to go back. And there are parts of you that will absolutely - have absolutely wanted to go back. "Why did I ever do this? What was I thinking?" But then actually a beautiful thing happens.
You begin to realize the things that you might have resented or rejected before - your families, your job, the mundane nature of human existence, pain and suffering, stupid TV programs - that there was a certain comfort in those, and part of you wants to go back to that. But it should also be of comfort knowing that there is this incredible group - Shaumbra - that you can share your tears and your laughter with when you want, but they also give you the space and give you the privacy when you want that also.
Excellent, and that calls for an award. Thank you.
LINDA: Okay … just pick. There you go.
ADAMUS: So the question again - so you don't have to ask me - the question is, based on your personal experience, what is one of the challenges of awakening, John Kuderka?
LINDA: Oh my goodness! John on camera! Wow! How cool is this?!
ADAMUS: How cool is that!
JOHN: Not very. (laughter and some applause)
ADAMUS: Dear John, you sound a bit challenged.
JOHN: Well, isn't this supposed to be challenging?
JOHN: Well, therefore it is. Oh, what was the question? (laughter)
ADAMUS: Perhaps I have to spray paint it on the wall. From your personal experience, please share with us one challenge of awakening, now assuming that billions, or maybe a couple of hundred people will read this at some point.
LINDA: (whispering) You can do it.
JOHN: Well, that's a good question. Maybe just being aware of the process.
ADAMUS: Aware of the process. You mean the challenge is not being aware? Or the challenge is knowing the process?
JOHN: Yes! (laughter)
ADAMUS: Both! (laughing) Okay, perhaps you get two Adamus awards, but I'm going to put "the process" (writing) and it is the challenge of not really understanding - if I could put words in your mouth - not understanding what lies on the road in front of you.
JOHN: That sounds good.
ADAMUS: The road and not knowing. And then we'll also say intuitively, as you probably will agree, intuitively you kind of do know what's on that road in front of you and that can be frightening. And so … good. You get an award. (writes) 'The road … intuitive knowing.' Excellent.
LINDA: Oh, aren't you special.
ADAMUS: Okay, and we will come up to the front here to Gail, just to keep you moving. So Gail, based on the question, which I assume by now is etched and burned into you … yes. It'll go once you talk into it. It doesn't talk by itself.
ADAMUS: Good to see you.
GAIL: Good to see you, dear one. Remaining present in the Now.
ADAMUS: Remaining present.
GAIL: With everything going on, learning how to use what we chose to use …
GAIL: … and we don't know how it works, remaining here in the Now. Not regretting the past, not anticipating the future, which causes fear - can cause fear.
ADAMUS: Excellent. Excellent, because that is a challenge. There's a tendency, as you start getting into this process, you - all of you - you un-tether yourself from the past. You start releasing, as Tobias talked about over and over again. You start letting go. You're now like a hot air balloon, free to explore, to journey, to expand. But in doing so, it's very easy to leave the Now moment, particularly when you realize that, first of all, you probably haven't been there very much. You're not familiar with the Now moment. Secondly, the Now moment requires a large degree of awareness. You automatically become aware when you're in the Now moment, and sometimes - most of the time - humans don't really want to be aware. They want a lot of other things, but awareness sometimes is overwhelming, a bit difficult to handle. So, yes, that's good.
GAIL: I think that my feeling has been since most of us, probably all of us in this room, chose to be born in the time of the Old Energy …
GAIL: … integrating, coming out of that wiring, while we're being rewired …
GAIL: … naturally at the same time …
GAIL: … makes it even more challenging.
ADAMUS: Oh, much more challenging. Much more challenging, particularly if you take a look at the rather narrow spectrum of ages that you all come from. Whether it's from 20 to 80, that's a pretty narrow spectrum, and you were born into a very Old Energy consciousness. Consciousness that had a lot of questions about would Earth continue? Would humans destroy themselves with nuclear weapons? Almost, you came very close to an incident. Or would something like the millennium trigger things? There's been a lot of issues and to come in at that time to be here to begin making the foundations of new consciousness, truly new consciousness, and then to go through it on a very personal level is most challenging and can shoot you out of the Now.
So, let me ask you, from your perspective, do most people - not Shaumbra, most people - live in the past or in the future?
GAIL: Both, and that's my main challenge …
ADAMUS: Give me a percentage.
GAIL: … but you already covered it in energy management. In a percentage - at least 95 percent.
ADAMUS: In the future.
GAIL: In both.
ADAMUS: In both, yes, but what percent of them is in the past? What percent is in the future? And perhaps how much in the Now?
GAIL: Okay, I would say 45 percent in the past, 45 percent in the future and about .005 percent at any given time in the Now.
ADAMUS: (laughing) Yes, undecided!
GAIL: Am I speaking your language!?
ADAMUS: We're getting close.
ADAMUS: I would personally say that about 70 percent of the time is spent in the past. About another, oh, at the most, 5 percent is spent in the Now. The rest, pondering the future. And the future is very different from the past. I'll go into it later. But, good, thank you.
GAIL: You're welcome. Thank you.
LINDA: Prize winner?
ADAMUS: Yes, oh, absolutely. Absolutely.
LINDA: You're not allowed to look! This is just a random thing. Thank you. There you go.
ADAMUS: Thank you. It is kind of like playing cracker jacks here.
LINDA: It's kind of fun.
ADAMUS: Let's go to Joe Engel.
LINDA: Okay, my pleasure. Where is Joe Engel?
ADAMUS: Yes … cam … over here.
LINDA: Oh, there we go. No, he's not on the camera. Here you go, sir.
JOE: I would have to say making choices, for me personally, or accepting, maybe, the consequences of things I may have felt that slowed me down in the past.
ADAMUS: So you say making choices would be a challenge?
JOE: Yes, probably for me.
ADAMUS: Yes, well, that's good. If you're not making choices, what are you doing?
JOE: Going crazy.
ADAMUS: Going crazy, yeah. Let me ask, why would you not want to make choices?
JOE: Fear of failure or fear of going beyond.
ADAMUS: Fear of making a bad choice, perhaps?
ADAMUS: The wrong choice? A lot of old consciousness associated with good and bad, right and wrong, how the world views your choices. You've gotten criticism, as all have, for their choices from parents and teachers and others. So, yes, that's good. So are you making choices now?
JOE: I make a little bit of artwork occasionally.
ADAMUS: Yes, but are you making choices? Artwork is wonderful, but what about a choice? I feel like my question is being evaded.
JOE: In broad strokes - I probably am not making choices in terms of …
ADAMUS: Thank you for your honesty. You get an award just for that. Not even for the answer, just for the honesty.
You're right. There's still a reluctance to make choices and there's still a tendency to just let things happen. Go with the flow. See what happens tomorrow. Well, I can tell you. Consciousness in a way is like the weather. It's very predictable for most people, because you can almost predict that the weather tomorrow is going to be like the weather today. So what happens in your life tomorrow will probably be like it is today. Until a storm comes up, which happens approximately one out of every three to four days - if you take the average. So suddenly, a storm comes up and then everybody is freaking out about the weather - kind of like consciousness.
Without making choices, you just kind of go along one day to the next. One day just like the other day, until a storm hits. And then you go crazy. "Why is all this bad stuff happening in my life? (one person laughs) Yeah, you and I laugh. What's wrong with them today?
So a storm comes up. There's a lot of drama. Well, partly the storm comes because you're absolutely bored with the regular day-to-day life. At some level within you, you know that you made a commitment to be here for a reason, to do something, so it's that push that you get - that push in the back - that says, "Just do something." You can even say it's divine will getting you off your human ass. Yeah, so … I thought that was funny. (some laughter)
So, yes, thank you. Thank you.
JOE: Thank you.
ADAMUS: But question. Are you going to start choosing?
JOE: Yes, I choose divine will.
ADAMUS: Yes, but I mean choosing. Yeah, your divine will is choosing you, by the way. You're not choosing it. Don't kid yourself here. (Adamus laughs)
JOE: Yes, yes.
ADAMUS: But I'm talking about things in your life. I'm talking about … could I share a bit of what we talk about?
JOE: Yes, absolutely.
ADAMUS: With everybody?
JOE: Go ahead. I'm here.
ADAMUS: And the world?
JOE: Why not!
ADAMUS: So one of the things we talk about, in our own interesting way, is the frustrations that you have that you're not doing anything, you're not accomplishing anything. Deep breath. You have extremely high aspirations. That's why you came in so tall. Big aspirations. Phenomenal goals. Perhaps maybe a little too high that you don't think you can leap that hurdle, you don't think you can accomplish it.
So in a sense - and I'm speaking to all of you - in a sense you set that bar up so high that at times you can't even see it. At times there is no way your human mind can understand how you're going to reach it, so you acquiesce, you give up in failure. "I can't do it." It's almost easier to say, "You know, I'm just a … I've got wonderful ideas, but it's society or it's my karma or whatever that's keeping me down and suppressed," and then not to do anything, not to make choices.
If you had to start making choices, then it would get you aware of what you really came here to do. And I'm not talking about to do, such as a big executive job or being a great singer, but you will have a chance in a few moments for that, or writing the novel of all novels. You know, there are a lot of wonderful Shaumbra writers, but they're looking for the big fish. They're looking for the whale. They're only going to write a book if they feel it will cause people to tremble in their shoes, to drop to their knees in awe of the words that were written. And if they can't do that, they just won't write a book - or whatever it happens to be.
You've got brilliant insights into the workings of energy. You understand energy cycles and flows, because you've studied it, you have a passion for it and you have, oh, what you would call a third eye awareness of it. You understand how it moves and flows, but you're not doing anything with it except being a grump at times. You said I could … I'm sorry Kerri, did I say that?
KERRI: I didn't say it!
ADAMUS: But I did ask his permission to be open. So you get grumpy. Why, Grumpy?
JOE: Because it's the in-between. The leap from the hot, being in …
ADAMUS: No. Your energy is constipated (laughter), and that will cause anybody to have a bad day.
ADAMUS: It is.
JOE: It's true.
ADAMUS: You've got beautiful energy. Beautiful energy, but it got knotted up and it got very mental. You know what you're trying to do? You're a lot like me, yes, because you're trying to get out of your prison mentally. You're trying to mind your way out. It's not going to happen, and I tell you that, and I'm telling you again and now it's on video and there's maybe a hundred thousand people watching right now. Probably not, but could be.
So then the energy bottles up and here you are Mister … no, Master Energy-Flow Guy understanding how it all works - not the math of it and not even the sacred geometry, although that is interesting - but the intuitive nature of energy flow. It's like you understand energy flow like a fluid engineer understands the movement of water and rivers and other fluids. Yes. But it's all bottled up.
And so what do you do? You go through each day waiting for the next day to be different. And it's not. It's like the weather. It's going to be the same tomorrow. Until the storm comes up and then, actually that's probably one of the things providing the most excitement in your life - the storms. So you subconsciously create them to get you off your b… out of your comfort zone. (laughter) But thank you for letting me talk so openly about this.
JOE: And thank you for all the insight.
ADAMUS: I've told you before. It's finally … others are hearing it.
JOE: I always felt like I was very angry with …
ADAMUS: You are.
JOE: … with you and …
ADAMUS: You are.
JOE: … or that I just don't listen.
ADAMUS: Both! You don't listen and then you get angry. If you listened, you wouldn't be angry. So you've got tremendous insight, but you don't make choices - your own admission - and then it gets bottled up and then it's just like you want to scream. There are days when you don't even know if you want to be here, whether you want to or not. You … ohhh… you don't accept the love from the people that are trying to give it to, including the little one, including the loved one, including everyone here. You've got this barrier up and you're not accepting it, because, well, you tell me. Why? There are people out there who desperately want to love you. Why aren't you letting them?
JOE: I think that maybe I'm afraid of the way … if I let them too close, I'd be afraid of the way they see me or the way my life is.
ADAMUS: Aha. Aha. Actually, if I could amend that a little bit, you're afraid for them to see you the way you see yourself. But they don't see you that way. They're not trying to see blemishes and dents and bruises and the bad stuff. That's not their agenda. It's maybe yours - overly critical self-evaluation. They're just trying to love you. So maybe, just maybe, you could learn a lesson from those who are wanting to love you and take a look at the compassion that they have and see if you can do that for yourself. And then we won't call you Mr. Grumpy, we'll call you Mr. Amazing. Thank you. (audience applause)
JOE: Thank you.
LINDA: Who's the next victim?
ADAMUS: There are no victims. Oh, oh, ha ha ha. If you think this is a random act of embarrassment, it is not. No, no, no, no. There are choices here. Now, who's making a choice? Who's making a choice? Sart.
Sart, you have incredible wisdom to share with the group. So based on your personal experience, what are the challenges of awakening?
SART: Staying with it.
ADAMUS: Staying with it. Help me to understand what you mean by that.
SART: Staying with it instead of letting a job or activity affect it or somebody else in your life.
ADAMUS: Why wouldn't you want to stay with it?
SART: Because the other part's comfortable.
ADAMUS: Interesting. Good, excellent. Excellent. So now what would happen if you didn't stay with it?
SART: Then I would get grumpy. (much laughter and applause from Adamus and audience)
ADAMUS: Well, misery loves company, doesn't it!
SART: Yes it does.
ADAMUS: Yes, staying with it. Could you imagine with me for a moment, oh, if you all would. So you say, "staying with it," I write "fortitude." Just imagine for a moment, if you would, is you let it go. You don't try to stay with it. What would happen?
SART: I would enjoy life more.
ADAMUS: (laughing) That sounds like a pretty good recommendation then.
SART: Yes it does.
SART: And I'm hoping to get there soon.
ADAMUS: Yes. So - and help me to understand, because we're writing a book here and we're trying to be clear with all of our readers - so what does staying with it look like? What would you do to stay with it?
SART: Knowing that you are God and you do create everything.
ADAMUS: Okay, in actions in your life.
SART: Yes. In actions every day, every …
ADAMUS: But what would you do during a day or a week or a month to stay with it? Force yourself to have to go to these meetings?
SART: No, I think I would go to more meetings. I would …
ADAMUS: Read books? Study the scriptures?
SART: Yeah, well I quit reading actually after a while of …
ADAMUS: So, you're not staying with it.
SART: Yes, not staying with it. I let things affect my life. When I get work I go to that work very hot and heavy.
SART: Because I have certain times that I can work on my job and I let it affect my not being, whatever you want to call, with myself.
ADAMUS: Your spiritual life.
SART: Yes, with my spiritual life.
ADAMUS: Yes. That's terrible how those things get in the way.
ADAMUS: Damn! If it wasn't for all the human activities, you'd probably be really spiritual. (laughter)
SART: Yes. If I would just quit buying cars.
ADAMUS: Yes. So, again, imagine with me for a moment, if you just didn't care about staying with it, if …
SART: It didn't matter.
ADAMUS: If it doesn't matter or perhaps maybe a deep trust in yourself in the process rather than a human determination or sometimes stubbornness that you're supposed to do certain things, and that perhaps in letting go and understanding that nothing can get in the way. Nothing. It is natural. It is a natural process in the awakening, and ultimately everyone goes through it. Every being will go through it. You're just a little crazy to be going through it first, or early.
But it's an interesting phenomena that some think that this is a discipline, that this is a study or a ritual or a practice. Most every one of you came into this that way - looking or desiring yet another structure. At one level resenting structure, but at another level feeling it important to have some structure because then, well, you don't have to trust yourself, there's a structure. But what happens if you just let go, stop working at it, where your job is spiritual, where even distractions, actually you convert that energy or consciousness into 'it's all spiritual,' and actually ultimately, there's nothing spiritual. Spirituality is a slightly tainted word, in my humble opinion.
SART: I knew that.
ADAMUS: It just is. It just is. So, sorry to be taking microphone time from you.
SART: No, that's fine. I'm ready for big change, I think, to let go of that. Let go of that.
ADAMUS: Uh-oh! Uh-oh! (Adamus laughs)
ADAMUS: Those are famous almost last words.
SART: Almost last words.
ADAMUS: Yes. Good, good. And what type of changes?
SART: Oh I think as you say, to make it …
ADAMUS: How big?
SART: … where it doesn't matter.
ADAMUS: How big?
SART: I don't know. I haven't done a big thing here in a while.
ADAMUS: Alright, we'll work on it later.
ADAMUS: Before the end of our session, which could go late. (Adamus chuckles)
SART: I've got plenty of time.
ADAMUS: So, okay. Thank you and an award for you.
SART: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Of course. And, dear Linda, you don't have to run so far, because a microphone will go straight over to Bonnie.
BONNIE: I think for me it's just staying balanced. I get out of balance easily.
ADAMUS: Oh, I like that one. Staying balanced. So what happens, dear Bonnie, to get you off balance?
BONNIE: Well, things aren't the same anymore. Things change, and I don't know how to react.
ADAMUS: When you say things aren't the same, things? You? The world? Me?
BONNIE: Me. I'm talking about me, because that's who gets out of balance.
BONNIE: And I'm scared about getting out of balance. It's like I can't even walk across the floor without feeling like it's different now.
ADAMUS: Yes. And what is balance?
BONNIE: I don't know. Feeling comfortable between stuff that's not so good and things that are really good and just staying in the middle.
ADAMUS: Do you think that balance is ever used as a word or a rationale for having everything in order?
BONNIE: Control, yeah.
ADAMUS: I didn't say control. You said control, but you're absolutely right. Control. Keeping things in order, the ultimate comfort zone with yourself, but also the expectation that the damn rest of the world should be in order, and it's not! It's not! It's chaos out there. But actually, Bonnie, chaos is an amazing thing to dive into, and you've had some experience with it. There is really no chaos; there's just a lot of energy movement and consciousness that is misunderstood or unknown, and it's dear friends like Joe who really understand what's going on but hasn't made the choice as to do something with it. But there is no chaos. That's the amazing thing.
As I like to point out so often, the world, the universe, creation is in perfect order. It's just that you don't quite understand how it's ordered. So there's an internal frustration to absolutely know how that order is ordered and who ordered it to begin with. And in this lifetime you're not going to ever understand it in the mind, but you can feel into it. But you have to allow yourself to feel into chaos.
I asked the question what is balance? My answer is, it's absolute chaos. It seems to be a contradiction, but true balance at the core levels of creation is chaos. It is chaos to the human perception, but it's actually in its perfect order; not order of mathematics, not order of nature or science, definitely not order of God. It is in a state of unfolding perfection.
Now that's a contradiction in human terms, because theoretically perfection doesn't need to change. It's perfect. So, but yet perfection, all creation, is constantly evolving. So it would be a contradiction of terms, which would appear to be chaos, but it's not, because true perfection and true balance wants to continue to experience its perfection and its potentials. And that's where we're going to later today, maybe tonight. We're going to talk about potentials. So thank you.
BONNIE: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Dive into chaos. Chaos has been calling you. Chaos has invited you over for a few dinner parties, and you've gone kicking and screaming. But it's an amazing thing.
ADAMUS: Thank you. And when you go into chaos, understand it's really not chaotic.
LINDA: Is there a prize?
ADAMUS: Oh, absolutely.
LINDA: Just one, Bonnie.
ADAMUS: So now let's do it by choice. You choose if you want to have the microphone from Linda. Hands go up.
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): My challenge has been the increase in clarity that takes things like integrity, clarity, to a whole different level, which begs for action, and that has been a challenge.
ADAMUS: Increased clarity. Could I drop in my own word here, for the book? Awareness.
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): Okay.
ADAMUS: Awareness, clarity. And now a lot of Shaumbra aren't having that. They're almost feeling a lack of clarity. But you're saying you are getting more clarity, more awareness.
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): Yes, and it's affecting my life because things I thought were just fine or doing well, with this clarity I suddenly realize I have been lying to myself about that.
ADAMUS: Ah! What lies beneath? What lies beneath, and that is a great challenge, and it has to do with the energy management we talked about before and making choices. It all ties together. And it has to do about you can't go back. So you start to become more aware and then you realize the first stages you realize what you would consider to be all of your flaws and all of the lies that have been told. And you look at the dark side of the experiences that you've had and there is a desire to become more unaware.
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): Yeah.
ADAMUS: On the other hand, let's talk about the other one - lack of awareness. A lot of Shaumbra truly desire awareness, so I'm going to put this here as a sub-point. Since you have awareness, how do you get it? How did you get your awareness? Is there an herbal remedy on the market for awareness?
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): I think actually the biggest change came when I did the Interdimensional [Living] Workshop and stayed here now and expanded into more of all that I am.
ADAMUS: So you made a choice to be more aware and now you're saying it's a challenge?
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): Yes it is.
ADAMUS: It is, yes.
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): I wouldn't go back for anything, and it is a challenge …
ADAMUS: And it is challenge.
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): … of having to rework relationships in my life and …
ADAMUS: Yes. And is there anything you could share with future potential readers about how to get more awareness?
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): It's sort of like settling into a - this sounds a little odd - like settling into a really comfortable chair. I feel like I've been sitting on the edge of my chair to keep from having awareness.
ADAMUS: And could I go back to some of the other answers here. More awareness would be staying in the Now moment. And making choices are naturally going to bring awareness.
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): Yes.
ADAMUS: But then you can't go back.
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): Right.
ADAMUS: Can't go back. So good. Thank you. Thank you.
SHAUMBRA (FEMALE): You're welcome.
LINDA: Prize winner.
ADAMUS: Oh, absolutely.
LINDA: Here you go.
ADAMUS: There are no bad answers, just answers that I can give grief about. Yes, Pete. Hello Pete.
PETE: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Did you pay the $25.00 today?
ADAMUS: Are you getting your money's worth?
PETE: Oh, incredible. Thank you.
ADAMUS: Yes. Amazing.
PETE: Yeah. I think what's happening with me is there's a growing appreciation for the growing consciousness within me.
PETE: And what I find … what's coming to consciousness is there are two aspects.
PETE: One that was taught and one of those - I just was discussing it today - is original sin, that I'm bad and all that stuff. And then there's another one that's joy and peace and gratitude. And I find that the more I get into the peace and gratitude, it kind of reflects and helps with me with the original sin, so to speak, self.
ADAMUS: But I've noticed an interesting thing is humans - not necessarily Shaumbra - but humans love the original sin thing. Given the choice of original sin type of consciousness or joyful happy consciousness, more often than not they go to original sin.
PETE: Yes. That was a lie. That is a lie.
ADAMUS: Yes, but they also like it.
PETE: Oh yeah! And that's what I'm aware now about how much …
ADAMUS: You know, the church is selling it, but somebody's buying it out there.
ADAMUS: And that's why it's a very compatible relationship.
ADAMUS: So, yes. So, but the challenge. What's the challenge?
PETE: Well, the challenge is just to give up that original sin and not walk in that and recognize that in my life where it comes up.
PETE: And just to be joyful, gratitude and give out positive regard to people.
ADAMUS: Yes. Yes, now, is it a challenge to give up the darkness, the guilt, the …?
PETE: I've been programmed to do that. I'm hardwired to do that, okay, and the other one is not what I was taught - the gratitude.
ADAMUS: So then, if I could state it in my words, you're driving down the highway and on the right side is a beautiful meandering river lined by beautiful willow trees on the bank; and on the left side is five buildings burning down all at once and the fire engines and the ambulances and helicopters. Where are you going to look?
PETE: Yeah, I'm going to look probably first at the fire and the ambulances.
PETE: And then I say, "That doesn't feel good. That doesn't serve me."
PETE: And then go over to the other side, that beautiful desert and the mountains and the sunset.
ADAMUS: For about a millionth of a second, and then you going to go back to the sirens.
PETE: Yes, and choose that. And I know that's good for me now. That's the neat thing.
ADAMUS: Yes. But - and here we're speaking in general terms, not just you - but there is a tendency for humans to keep looking at the fire, at the drama. There's a morbid fascination with it. There is excitement. There's action. It stimulates the basic human senses and it's drama. And the meandering beautiful river … later. "Later," they say. "But the fire is happening right now."
ADAMUS: So the challenge would be summarized in a few words as … ?
PETE: Expressing the light within myself.
ADAMUS: Not quite.
PETE: Not quite, okay.
ADAMUS: No. No. A challenge. Somebody's reading this book and they're saying, "What are the challenges that this incredible …"
PETE: It's responsibility. Taking responsibility for my life and my choices.
ADAMUS: Audience, a better way of stating this from your personal experience?
ADAMUS: Drama. Thank you. Thank you, yes. So it's the attention to drama versus - I'm going to call it - potentials. Yes. Good, excellent. Okay, and just one more. This is just the warm-up part of our discussion, then I have to get into my lecture here.
LINDA: The warm-up? Okay.
ADAMUS: Yes, right here. Elizabeth. I can just feel the passion just pouring out of you.
ELIZABETH: I would say that the biggest challenge for me is getting off my own back and honoring how far I've come more than being frustrated because I haven't done this, this or this. You know, appreciating who I am in every moment no matter what I do and letting that be the perfection of me.
ADAMUS: So the challenge has been the …
ELIZABETH: Yes, absolutely. Criticizing instead of approval.
ADAMUS: Self …
ELIZABETH: Love? Approval?
ADAMUS: Self doubt, denial, critical analysis. (Adamus is writing)
ELIZABETH: Yes, all of those.
ELIZABETH: Yeah, judgment.
ADAMUS: And the whole self, and perhaps we can say it is worthiness. "I'm not worth it."
ELIZABETH: Absolutely. Good word.
ADAMUS: And if you were worth it, first of all, God would be on your doorstep every morning with your breakfast if you were worth it.
ADAMUS: And everything would flow perfectly in your life and everybody would absolutely love you and be amazed by you.
ELIZABETH: Well said!
ADAMUS: Yes, yes.
LINDA: This doesn't translate very well. You're being sarcastic, right?
ELIZABETH: Ah, yeah!
LINDA: Just want to help those that have to translate the channels.
ELIZABETH: Oh, good point.
ADAMUS: I understand. So all of this self-garbage and, if I could here, I would say that that is probably one of the biggest issues, and it kind of goes back to the previous one drama, but also it's easier to look at your dark side than your light side. You don't believe necessarily that the light side - and I don't mean to differentiate dark and light, but those reading this will - it's almost more attractive. They're drawn to looking at the dark, and the evaluation - "If I was a better person, I would be more spiritual and more enlightened." Not at all.
You ought to meet some of the Grand Ascended Masters on the other realms! They were criminals. They were heretics. They didn't abide by the law - anyone's. They spoke profanely to God and of God. But they were the rebels. They had to break out of what I'm going to talk about it in a moment - formulas. So thank you. It's very insightful.
ELIZABETH: Thank you.
ADAMUS: So let's go to one more.
ADAMUS: The hands fly up.
LINDA: The brave ones. Do you have a choice?
ADAMUS: No, go ahead. You pick.
LINDA: Okay. Oh, not that yet.
STEVE: Do I get the prize first?
LINDA: No you get the mike first. Sorry.
STEVE: Mental confusion.
ADAMUS: Mental confusion. Yes. And those two words are basically the same word (laughter) so we're just going to call it "mental." There was a time when mental wasn't confused, but that was a long time ago. One of the other books that I would love somebody to write, because I've got other ones in mind, but to go back and really channel the past and the Atlantean crisis, the changing of the mind into God.
STEVE: My mind would love to know all about that.
ADAMUS: Yes. Yes, it would. But if you wrote the book, it would have to come from your heart, and then your mind would say, "But you're making this up." But are you? That's the big question and that's the mental dilemma that occurs. Big one. Big one.
So, good. We've gotten to exactly where I wanted to be - twelve - and it's time to decide who gets … oh, after your Award is given. Who gets the five hundred?
LINDA: Five hundred what?
ADAMUS: I have in Cauldre's pocket … but let's decide first who gets it. And personally I would be honored if we could award it to Joe for his honesty. (audience approval and applause) A crisp five hundred dollar bill - from Hungary. Yes. (laughter) And if you would hold that up to the camera, please. Hold it up … no, come over here.
LINDA: (to Joe) Your neck bag looks good.
ADAMUS: And it's been said that there is a likeness of my image on there. And if we could find a way to project it up here as well. Continue holding to the camera. (the image comes onto the screen and Shaumbra says, "Ahh!") Thank you. Spend it wisely.
Thank you. So … (audience applause) And Linda was so worried that I was giving away the farm.
Moving Some Energy
So let's take a - hmm, so much to talk about - but let's take an energy evolution break for a moment before we dive into the subject. Let's have a little music.
ADAMUS: And let's have a little opening of the voice. So Hannibal if you would, you've got nine minutes.
HANNIBAL: (singing) Nine minutes!
ADAMUS: Nine minutes!
HANNIBAL: Nine minutes. Alright. And that there is no time at all, let's sit tall and take a deep breath. First, we're going to start by putting the hands on the face … and humming, with the mouth forward. (audience joins in) Hmmmmmmmmmmm.
Very high. As high as you can. Hmmmmmmmmmmm. Humming. Mouth forward like a bird, the beak of a bird. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Can you feel the vibration? Can you feel the vibration on the skull? (puts hands on head)
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Louder. Louder. Breathe deeper. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Hands here (sides of face) Ah-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h! E-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e!
E-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e! Like a spiral. Higher, higher, higher!
I'm going to demonstrate - e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e - and back down, up into the head voice. Just use the head voice, don't go low. A lot of people want to stay just in the chest voice. We want to go for the head voice. Okay, big breath. E-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e!
How's that feel? Let's do it again. Let's do it again. Big breath. E-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e!
How about Hah! Hah! Hah! You've got to open the mouth. Got to open the mouth first. Big mouth. Without suppressing. Hah! Hah! Hah! Hah! Express. Express. Hah! Hah! Very quickly. Hah! Hah! Hah! Hah! Hah! Hah! Hah!
Stand up, stand up, stand up. Hands on the belly and open the mouth first and press and then watch me, watch me. Hah! Hah! Open the mouth first. Hah! Yes! Hah! Yes. Hah! Hah! Hah!
Let's do the tone O. O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o. Do the hands. O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o. Higher! O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o. O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o.
E-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e. Mouth open. E-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e.
Let's do A-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a. Let's do U-u-u-u-u-u-u-u-u. Let's do O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o. And Ah. Ah-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h …
I'm going to have you sing one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight. Okay, here we go. One… Extreme! Exaggerate, exaggerate, exaggerate, exaggerate. Outrageous. Good breath and O-n-n-n-n-n-e….
If you start that high, where are you going to go to? Start low. Good breath and here we go o-n-n-n-n-e…
Good breath, T-w-o-o-o-o-o-o-o … T-h-r-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e … F-o-o-o-u-u-u-u-u-r … F-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-v-e … S-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-i-x … S-e-v-e-n-n-n-n-n-n-n. Open the mouth!
Some of you do not have the mouth open. You go "seven." SEVEN!! Be outrageous, extreme. Come on. S-e-v-e-n-n-n-n-n-n-n-n … E-e-e-e-e-i-i-i-i-i-g-h-t.
Thank you very much! (audience applause) Thank you. You can sit down now. (Hannibal does an exaggerated laugh and audience mimics him.)
LINDA: Thank you. Thank you! Is that voice or what?! Wow.
The Awakening Zone
ADAMUS: Dear Shaumbra, last month we talked about this convergence or this coming together of the human waveform and the divine waveform. Understandably, I'm oversimplifying it, because there is a lot of other waveforms that participate in this. But as you recall, we talked about the divine has a flow, has a rhythm that you can tap into, and the human has its own flow and rhythm. And these two, it's sometimes a very beautiful dance that they do together.
They come back together then they go off on their own journey, and they come back. And each time when they're getting closer to each other, they're sharing their experiences, they're sharing what they're learning. Just as you are sitting here right now, part of you learning and experiencing, there is your divine that's also in other realms that is learning and expanding. It's a beautiful dance. It's a natural dance.
Sooner or later, these elements decide to come together, and that's what's happening right now. So these waveforms at some point cross and then just do an eternal dance together, over and over and over again. This spot right here is called the "X" spot or awakening or the zone, and that's where you are. That's not where many humans are. They're somewhere back here, in here, but that's where you are.
Tobias, in the work that he did with you over the years - over the ages, actually, but over the years - was doing this dance with you and brought you into this early awakening zone. He gave you reassurance, if nothing else, that you were divine, that you weren't crazy. He helped you to soothe some of the wounds that you had endured along the way - the human had endured along the way. He helped you take a look into the future potential that would bring you to this point in a way that was comforting and reassuring and where you could see into your potentials.
So he helped bring you here and we did a hand off, and he said, "Adamus, you take it from here, because I'm coming back in. I'm going to bypass this (the waveforms) I'm coming back in to be with Shaumbra in this (the "X" point) to work with them in a very different way."
So, and we talked about this with another group recently, but right before you get into that zone (the "X" area), the human gets very, very erratic, if we were to magnify into this just before you get into the "X" point. (Adamus draws a jagged waveform) It gets very erratic.
Spirit - your divine - responds with an interesting form of compassion, a very interesting reflection of you. When you go erratic, out of experience and also to have compassion and understanding of what you're going through, it goes erratic as well (Adamus draws another jagged waveform) and decides not to follow with your exact pattern but to go out of sync with you. Those of you with engineering, science backgrounds understand sync. When frequencies are working together at the same level, it's beautiful music. When they're not, it sounds awful. It feels awful.
But there's a purpose to it. It's not done with any malicious intent or stupidity on the part of the divine, and generally not on the part of human, because this - to simplify it - when it (the waveform pattern) is out of sync or out of phase, there is a very strong desire then to bring it back into phase - but not the old phase, not the old patterns. And this, in this erratic zone right before getting into the "X" zone, these erratic patterns in a way are communicating with each other - not with words or sound - but they're communicating saying, "Let's go to the next level. Let's do it different. Instead of just this constant ebbing flowing, this constant kind of swan dance, let's bring it together."
This erratic behavior gives it, let's call it, energy or momentum to get to the spot that you're in right now - the awakening. And I don't so much like the term "awakening," it sounds like you were dead asleep, and actually you never were. You had just created different levels of consciousness, and you're saying, "Let's open those up now."
A lot of interesting things happen in here, and together, working together with Shaumbra around the world, we're going to be writing and talking about what happens in the erratic zone and then what happens once you get here (the "X" zone). Wouldn't it have been interesting and helpful if there had been something for you that wasn't some philosophical crap …
ADAMUS: Thank you … that wasn't theory, that wasn't somebody just trying to sell a million books, that somebody wasn't just trying to make themselves grand and guru-ish. Wouldn't it have been valuable if somebody had laid this out, not with all the details, of course, but said, "Here's kind of what's happening. You're going to have your own way of experiencing it, but here's kind of what's happening." And that's what we're doing.
That's one of the big reasons why you came here to Earth, why you stayed here on Earth, and why you feel this connection with Shaumbra. And we're going to do it in a simple, easy to understand, no glossy stuff kind of way. We're going to put it in terms that humans can understand. Why put it in some esoteric, theological terms that nobody understands what the rip they're reading? We're going to bring it down, because, you know, we can do that, because you've gone through the experience and you don't want to make it any more complex than what it was. And it was complex enough. So we have a call for simplicity.
So what happens in this ("X") zone? And by the way you'll see that there is a difference in the erratic zone versus the "X" zone. Ten years of being in the erratic, now we're in the "X."
So what happens here? What happens here? Well, a number of things. The formulas don't work, and the formulas are those things that you've devised, the little formulas for your human life. They just don't work anymore. Humans and even angels live by formulas - nice little prepackaged belief systems, like going to the grocery store in the frozen food section, but this is the really unstimulated belief section and they grab things off the shelf - formulas for how they live.
Now, granted, some formulas are appropriate. A formula for driving your car, it's kind of a common agreement. But for the most part, people get so caught up in formulas. How to dress? You know, it's a formula. There are a lot of different formulas for how you're supposed to eat. But people have formula beliefs. They have routines and habits that they repeat over and over and over again to try to give them a sense of order in life, but they really don't feel that there's any order. They try to make order, but they know there's not. It's like trying to rake leaves in a windstorm. It's just not going to work. But the formulas give comfort.
Formulas were developed way back over here (pre-awakening), I mean lifetimes of formulas, and now you get to here ("X") and they don't work. That gives the impression that the human is falling apart. (Adamus draws a "fallen" figure) That gives the impression that everything is crumbling and the human is tumbling through some abyss not knowing when it will ever recover. And that's not true at all. Absolutely not true. It just feels that way and sometimes you experience it that way, but it's part of the experience.
So the formulas don't work, and you probably found that in your own life. You've tried to go back to old formulas, old ways of doing things, and they don't work.
Now, naturally the next step is to try to create a new formula! Absolutely! Absolutely. So there's a desperate attempt, kind of an overly desperate attempt to search, to try to find the new formula, the new process and procedure. And that's where, by the way, you've all gone through the breakdown of formulas or they're still kind of de-structuring themselves so the energy can be free. Energy ultimately doesn't want to be trapped in a formula. It's very free flowing. Joe knows that.
But there's a desperate attempt by the mind to create the new formula. And then you put fancy glossy words on it and you're going to call it "New Energy." Well, is it? Is that just the same old formula tidied up a little bit and given a new title? Yes. Yes, because there are … give me a little latitude on this, but there are generally no New Energy formulas.
There's a physics behind that, because Old Energy actually responded to
formulas. What was done yesterday can be replicated today, and then you just
repeat it and perfect it and do it over and over and over again until you go
into crisis and chaos. But Old Energy was vibrational and predictable, for the
most part. So you kept on playing with it in new ways, but really quite
predictable. If I pour water on David, which I'm not going to do, well,
there's predictable responses.
The New Energy, for the most part, can't be confined to a formula, because it's not vibrational. It doesn't have patterns to it. Because you can do it once doesn't necessarily mean you can do it again. So it would appear to be very chaotic, Bonnie, but it's not. It's not. It's actually quite beautiful. And when you delve into New Energy more and more and more, you're going to realize that, well, it's beautiful.
You don't need formulas. You don't need processes and procedures. If there were any processes involved in New Energy working with Old Energy or other New Energy, the process is inherent within it. It doesn't need to be created or manufactured or analyzed. The process is inherent within it. But it changes, so the mind gets confused. It seems like everything is falling apart, but it's not. It's restructuring before it's built up again. So formulas don't work.
What you have also is what I call 'the Gabriel syndrome.' What's this? When you're in this zone here, this trumpet place … but it's your trumpet. You once responded to Gabriel's trumpet and have often regretted that (laughter), the call to come to Earth, the call out to the angelic realms to come and share in this amazing experience on Earth. I think it was written by some advertising angels who oversold it a bit, but … (laughter) Yes, "Go see the world!" (Adamus chuckles) It's the original "See the world" travel brochures handed out.
So Gabriel's trumpet blew, and it blows. And - (laughter) that was funny - and you come to Earth to take on all of these experiences. Well, you have your own Gabriel's trumpet going on within when you come to this spot here. It's the call to every part of you to integrate. This ("X") is actually integration - your aspects, past lives, future potentials, unexperienced past potentials - it's every part of you, and, obviously, the divine and the human from the waveforms that are now come together.
So you have this happening and it creates a lot of what would appear to be chaos, a lot of noise. Suddenly, everybody's coming back home at the same time, and part of you isn't so sure it wants everybody back home. You've kind of enjoyed having home to yourself - in other words, lack of awareness - but now they're all coming back home. And they're not just visiting. They're staying. But it's good, because they're integrating. You're bringing back all of that energy into your life.
So you have all of this going on and then you do this deep dive within. We talked about it before in some of the other challenges. Sometimes it gets obsessive and you get overly critical, over-doubting yourself, over-analyzing yourself and everybody else too. There's a tendency for metaphysicians to want to analyze everybody, because then they don't have to analyze themselves so hard on that particular day. But they want to analyze everybody. And I'm not talking just analysis of software, mechanical things, scientific or mathematical, but analysis of human behavior.
One of the … (Adamus chuckles) You know the ones - pardon me if I'm stepping out of bounds here - but the ones who become the counselors and psychologists are the ones who are right here (where the waveforms are jagged and erratic). They are perhaps the most inappropriate but maybe empathetic ones to be analyzing and counseling others, because they're in erratic zone and they have no idea what's going on - "But it sure feels good to talk about your problems today rather than mine." So no offense meant to anybody, but it happens.
So here in this ("X") zone there is a deep dive within. It's a dive of self-discovery. It's a dive to see what's going on. It's a dive to open up the awareness, but it leads to a lot of doubt, a lot of overly critical analysis and it becomes obsessive. It becomes your first thought in the morning and the last one at night. And a lot of times you bring that obsessive analysis over to our side during dream state and - whew! It's interesting … not!
It gets to a point in analysis where I think Tobias summed it up perfectly - "I don't give a damn!" No, he said, "It doesn't matter." (laughter) Same thing. Same thing, where you just say how much can you analyze? How much can you focus on all the bad naughty things you did in past lives and in this lifetime? How much can you go into the dark side of the event that happened? I think I've invited you to look at the other potentials that you have never looked at in something bad that you did or that happened …
I'm not singling you out (to Hannibal), just love your necklace. As a matter of fact, you lost that buddy! (much laughter as Adamus takes Hannibal's necklace and puts it on) Yes, thank you. And it does look better on Cauldre! (Adamus laughs) So, is nothing sacred? No, no, no.
So you get into the deep dive of over-analysis and you tend to get stuck there and you need somebody or something to come along and shake you out of it and say, "It was interesting, but why don't you look at the other side of that event that took place or the other sides of it, of that bad thing that you did to somebody else?" There's a thousand and a million other potentials that are as real as the one that was acted out here, and it's very real. Why don't you go look at the bright side of things or the other side, anyway? Why become so obsessed, as Pete was saying, why become so obsessed on the drama and the darkness?
So, dear Shaumbra, this is where you're at right now. You're in the midst of it, and at times it is absolutely depressing. I have to admit it, yes it is. At times you wonder what you ever did to deserve this. At times it is absolutely stimulating, invigorating and freeing to you. And at times the enlightenments are so overwhelming that you become hell-bent on having more enlightenments - and then you try to study and work at it and everything else and you then kind of get into a rut again. But that's where you're at. That's where you're at. There is - I don't want to say good news, but things evolve. I guess that's good news. Things evolve.
And again, we're simplifying a very tragic and epic human journey. In other words, we're saying let's move beyond. Let's get down to it.
What to do?
So what can you do when you're right there? (in the "X" zone) What can you do? We've talked about the problems. What can you do?
So here we are … I'm going to re-diagram this, as a matter of fact. Allow me to waste some more paper here. As many of you know or have understood it, you had a thing called the Merkaba. (Adamus draws)
Merkaba. This was representative of many, many different things. I always
called it a jewel with many facets - if you imagine this as three-dimensional
or eight-dimensional - that you could look at it from all different angles.
But laid out here like this you could say that one was masculine,
the other feminine. So this
part masculine, this part feminine, or light
and dark. It was the different components that were intermingling with
each other. This could also be representative of human
and divine. But this is what you were.
Now I get a kick out of - again, not to be critical, but to be an observant - I was always amused by those classes that taught you to spin one part of your Merkaba one way and the other - I can't even do it it's so confusing - and the other part the other way. Like you were going get something out of that other than dizzy, nauseous or even more confused? It's not about spinning them. I mean, spinning your energy is like drama, spinning it up so you get a little charge off of it, but then you're right back to pretty much where you were when you left off. So I'm re-diagramming for here.
So these separate elements finally came together and (Adamus draws) … that's not such a good drawing there, Cauldre. We're going to redo that. Remember our original symbol for you (dot with a circle around it), and those elements have come together, no longer the Merkaba but now New Energy. I'll get into that in just a moment in the 13 minutes that we have left.
But here you are in the "X" zone and the question is, so what can you do right now? What can you do while you're here? You know now that it works out, because you got the human/divine, masculine/feminine, every other duality part of you starting to meld back together. But the critical ingredients in here are trust (Adamus writes), and trust is not blind, by the way. I'm not going to use the word "faith" in there either - faith in what? But a healthy trust in yourself - not a blind trust but a healthy trust - requires or beckons you to really open yourself up, let those formulas dissolve away.
A healthy trust that you're going through a process that's very appropriate and ultimately isn't going to be a process anymore. The process falls away. A trust that you are God also, but don't be stupid or blind to it. Really, really let your human self, your human consciousness feel into it. Does it feel right for you? Does it feel right to open up to your divine? Is it absolutely like a blank wall? Is it like a big abyss when you open up to the trust of your divine? If it is, take a deep breath. There's no rush. There's no race.
The trust has to be real is what I'm saying. The trust in your own divine, in your own self, needs to be real. You can't manufacture it, you can't manipulate it, and actually, this trust really can't be a belief system like you've known belief systems in the past; in other words, just some nice mental structure that you can hang onto desperately. The trust has to be very real.
So ask yourself, as you're exploring this, because trust is one of the keys - trusting yourself. Not Him (pointing upward) or Her, not spirit guides, not a guru, but only yourself. Underline eight times "only" boldface exclamation point. Only! yourself! Not even beautiful beads or crystals or mantras or anything else. The trust has to be real. Don't tell me, "Okay Adamus, I'm going to trust myself," and then walk out of here going back to mistrust of yourself.
You can invite yourself to experience trust in yourself. You can bring that experience into your life. I have to move along here, it's getting late.
So trust. The other, compassion. (Adamus writes) Compassion is so important here - for yourself. Some would call it a forgiveness, in a way. Compassion is accepting every part of you, because you have all these aspects, you've got all these parts and pieces coming back. They need to feel that compassion. It's the welcome home. It can't be manufactured. In other words, you can't just say, "I'm going to be compassionate," and then walk home and start beating yourself up or telling yourself that you can't get to it right away until you improve things in yourself. The compassion has to be honest.
Compassion, as Aandrah and On can tell you, it can be a challenging thing. When you go to the place of compassion within yourself, it would also bring up all of your issues of why haven't you been compassionate. Everything that has not been compassionated … (laughter at Adamus' new word) is going to come up. Every wound, every broken aspect, every evil, dark miserable aspect is going to come up, because ultimately, it wants your compassion but it doesn't really believe your compassion. So again, it comes down to being real with yourself.
Compassion is to be able to look at the worst incident in your life, the worst, and to be able to - you've always looked at it from here (facing forward) - to be able to walk around the other side of that incident and look at it from here (facing backward). And I'm not talking about seeing some phony goodness in it, but I'm talking about really feeling it, really understanding. Don't go mental, but to really understand what really happened in that incident and with the others involved, if there were. What was really going on? You've been looking at it just from one perspective and plane. If you want to really have compassion, emotionally and with feeling, walk around to every angle as an observer and let yourself experience.
You've been carrying a cross with you for a long time - a lot of crosses. Take a look at the cross. The cross wasn't the one to be nailed to; the cross was the intersection of the divine and the human right here - the "X" or cross. So look at it from that perspective. So - we'll get into more of this in the next discussion - but a couple of things in our waning moments.
Free Will & Divine Will
A couple of things. I said last month that, "Do humans have free will?" No. They might have had it at one point, but they gave it up, through their free will. They gave it up. They gave it to a lot of other things.
In this zone, the "X" zone that we're coming back to, it begs a question from you. In here ("X"), free will, to use your definition, but sovereignty - free will - can be brought back, resurrected. You could have that tool once again, but it has to be from a very conscious acknowledgement of your divine will. That will give you something to ponder for the next month. Free will returns to the human when the human consciously acknowledges their divine will.
Divine will is not to be confused with destiny or some distant God. The divine is you, and therefore that will, that waveform is you. When the human acknowledges its waveform as divine, as they come to this "X" spot, free will does come back. When sovereignty is accepted and realized, true free will about everything - about everything that's going to happen to you - absolutely comes back.
So in answer to the question, humans had free will … back way up. Angelic beings had free will. They gave it up. They gave it up. That consciousness was brought to Earth and humans have been told that they have free will, but nobody's ever questioned it. "If I had free will, why do I have to die? If I had total free will, why couldn't I do this and this and this? If I have total free will, why do I still have to abide by laws, by structures and by formulas?" You see.
So, no, humans don't, but you, my dear friends, can integrate the divine will, the free will, back into the I Am where it's no longer differentiated. The I Am is everything. You don't need free will at that point. You don't even need divine will. The two come together, and it becomes the I Am.
Oh, we're running out of time, and I want to do two specific exercises so this isn't just long tedious lectures about the nature of reality and where you're going to next.
Sitting here in the "X" spot … oh, so little time. I'm going to beg an indulgence or I'll pay for one if I have to? I'll have Cauldre pay.
LINDA: It's all good. It's all good.
ADAMUS: We'll need a few more minutes past five o'clock.
LINDA: We'll indulge you.
ADAMUS: So … and I'm going to hurry through this. We'll come back to it next. Month.
First of all, take a deep breath. First of all, I have to get my ball out. (Adamus takes out a red ball) So, now, New Energy. Let's talk about that for a moment and then we're going to go into potentials.
Old Energy, old consciousness, were two separate elements. You had consciousness, as we've talked about time and time and time again. You had consciousness, represented by this (Adamus draws the circumpunct), and you had energy, which was created by your desire to go back Home, that came in to consciousness (Adamus draws) - energy, consciousness - to create reality, to manifest so consciousness could experience itself. They were two separate components - consciousness, energy.
This thing we call New Energy is very different, because it - using the ball for an example - it's not consciousness and it's not a separate element of energy. New Energy is literally the integration of consciousness and energy together in the same packet. In the same packet.
So consciousness doesn't need to call in energy to support it. It already has it built in, and that will provide for a lot of discussion later on. It's already there. That's why it's new. It's never been there before, but it also operates in a very new way. Total new operating system. So keep that in mind. Let's go to the next step.
We're in the "X" zone here, and you say, "What next?" And that's really a very good question. "What next? I'm in here. It's amazing, it's interesting, but - woo! - where do we go from here?"
Where we go from here is we start going into potentials. Potentials are actually not in the future. It sounds like they would be. It sounds like they'd be off on some linear line down there, but they're not. The potential for anything outside of this immediate experience is already right here. Very, very few people actually imagine potentials. They wait for destiny.
So part of the problem has been a lack of imagination.
When certain of you have gone into the potentials of the future, you get
analytical. You want to make it very orderly, or you do it with a very limited
human perspective. In other words, you're imagining small. You're missing most
of the potentials, almost all the potentials. You're not allowing yourself to feel
Plus there is this new potential that's there that you're totally missing, because you are looking for something that was kind of like old potentials. A little bit of consciousness, add a few cups of energy to it, stir it together and hopefully it works out. There are amazing potentials right here, right now, available to you for your 'what next.' Amazing potentials, and some you would call Old Energy, some very New Energy. But they're your choices. They're the field that you have to choose from, and it's almost unlimited.
You can't get there through your brain, and that's one of the other elements back here, when we were talking about basically the symptoms … (Adamus is flipping the papers) I love doing that with the paper. One of the other elements is mental - a tendency to be mental - but the mind doesn't work in here ("X") or not like you think it should. Everything blows the mind when you're in this point here.
So there's a tendency you have as a creator to say, "I'm going to go explore my potentials." Well, first of all, don't go out there. They're right here. Secondly, let yourself explore. Don't think about it; explore it. Feel into it. For years Tobias has been talking to you about feeling versus thinking and you tiptoe into it. Dive into it. You don't have much to lose. Really let yourself go and feel all of the potentials, or as many as you want.
What does feeling feel like? Well, does it resonate? Does it feel like it's really yours? Is it something you would want to experience in your life? You don't have to get detailed or literal, I'm talking just feeling. Feeling. I imagine all these potentials as bubbles floating all around you right now, and you start traveling in and out of them. Feeling them. You don't have to make a choice quite yet, so don't be afraid of feeling. Does it feel dramatic? Does it feel good? Does it feel like you? A lot of them are going to feel kind of flat or old, and suddenly you're going to … as you're drifting around your potentials, something will resonate. Something will just ring the bell, it will just feel right.
I'd like to do just an experience with it right now. So if you would, you're welcome to close your eyes, stand on your head or whatever. I'm going to ask a couple of things that you, first of all, let yourself feel. Secondly, don't go mental. Third, be the observer, wander around, have fun with it.
Now, you have all these potentials of what comes next, and I'm not talking necessarily a job, but what feeling, what passion, what experience in your life? Without getting literal. Now just let yourself wander around these incredible bubbles of potential. You don't have to pay for them, there's no right or wrong, and you actually don't need to choose right now.
(silence for about a minute)
Now let's stop it there for a moment. I know we're going to continue working on this so we'll have plenty of time. And I'm going to ask you to do … I'm not going to call it homework. We'll just say 'an experience,' but it's really homework. To do this is very simple and it takes an incredible amount of finesse and opening up. You're not necessarily going to get it right away, and when you get it, you're going to wonder why you didn't get it right away.
So here's what I'm going to ask you to do between now and our next meeting. Go to a department store and guarantee, commit to yourself you're not going to buy anything, and spend an hour wandering around. A big store that offers a lot of different things - clothing and shoes and perfume and jewelry and household goods - and just wander around, department to department, observing - the merchandise, not necessarily other people - just observing and feeling, because every item is going to feel different.
Some are going to call out your name. Some are going to tickle your fancy. Others you're just going to want to walk away from. This is going to be good training or experience when we come back and discuss more about potentials. You're the observer. You're not trying to figure anything out. You don't have to analyze anything. You're just going in there from shelf to shelf, rack to rack.
What is it like? Because in a way this is like what we're going to continue working with, experiencing, on your potentials. It is like going through a huge store with many items. Feel them, experience them, sense them. We'll come back, in our next session we're going to go much deeper into potentials, where you go from now.
In our next session, I wanted to do it here, but we're also going to then do some potential imagining for humanity. For humanity. Not to save them, but to add. You see, right now humanity, the mass consciousness, can use some new perspectives added to the pool of opinions and perspectives that they already have. You know, they've gotten into their own formulas and ruts, but mass consciousness is actually sending out its own call saying, "Anybody with a different perspective, a different potential, please drop by. Add your consciousness or potential."
So next month we'll actually go into a potential for a new energy source. A new energy source. Don't think about it, because then you're going to get technical and analytical. We're just going to go in and we're going to imagine and then add into the potentials for a new energy source. Obviously, this is timely. This oil tragedy spill thingy, you know, the dark side of it is of course a lot of dirty beaches and a lot of dead fish and birds and animals. That's the dark side, and the environmental damage. You're going to hear that drama for weeks and maybe months to come. And then the politicians are going to use this as an opportunity to step up and say, "We have to do something to protect our environment." Why didn't they do it before? They're grandstanding right now.
But it does bring awareness. That's the bright side. It is bringing huge awareness not to the environment, but to energy. Hello! You've got this energy just oozing out of the Earth, very old smelly, stinky, sticky energy. In the surface and the headlines they're crying about the environment, but the real issue here is energy. What next? Twenty-five, maybe 30 years left with the abundance, the flow of fuel energy. It's not going to go away after that, but it's going to become very valuable.
So this spill, is it a bad thing? Well, let me say, there's better ways to handle challenges, but it actually could be a very beneficial thing for humanity to take a look at energy. And that's what we're all about. We are the New Energy.
With that, dear Shaumbra, remember all is perfect and well in all of creation. It's my honor and joy to be here with you in the "X" zone.
Therefore, I Am that I Am, and you are too.
Until next month, adios.
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