The Masters Series SHOUD 10
Presented to the Crimson Circle June 5, 2010
Original Website http://www.crimsoncircle.com/
I Am that I Am, Adamus
in grand service to you. Welcome, Shaumbra,
on this beautiful day, this gathering of energies from all over the world and
all over the planet.
Good to be here with you, I hope you feel the same about me! (laughter) I hope you feel the same about me when the clock strikes five o'clock and my time is done, I turn back into a pumpkin and leave this place.
So Shaumbra, we have a lot to discuss today. What a dreadfully depressing song that was chosen for the opening! (Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls) It sounds like somebody is going through awakening, (laughter) the worst, darkest, most tearful part of awakening. Who chose that song, Cauldre? I really would love to have some good classical music or at least some happy music.
KATHLEEN: The Beatles!
ADAMUS: The Beatles, anything but that! (laughter) My god, if somebody going through awakening listened to that, they'd want to jump off the balcony out there. (more laughter) And this is how you represent yourselves?
Well… Shaumbra, we have a lot to discuss today, we'll begin with a question - not your question, mine. If you noticed, I don't really like to take questions during these gatherings, the 'inner circle' gatherings.
When Cauldre asked me once in a while to take questions during these other events, some of these Internet shows,* I agree with him as long as he agrees that I can say what I want. And I truly understand the frustration that some of these dear ones are going through, but I also have to point out that well over half of them have absolutely no desire to awaken. They love playing the game. They love - as I put it to one so eloquently the other night - they love chasing their tail. But they have absolutely no desire of catching it, and they want the game to continue.
[* Recordings of these interviews can be found at CrimsonCircle.com > Community > Our Videos & Other Channels]
Some of the questions that are asked are ones that you've asked and passed by a long time ago. There was one good one the other night, one of many, but dear Shaumbra, we have far too much to do to get into processing inane ques… Cauldre didn't … (laughter) … questions that you already know the answers to. So …
(Adamus takes a necklace that Sart is wearing and puts it on) You knew I was going to have to do this. (laughter) You absolutely knew it.
LINDA: Don't take his ear off!
ADAMUS: If I got the ring, you'd never get it back. Hmm, it's still not complete. I want … I want the hat! (more laughter and applause as Adamus takes a fluffy pink cowboy hat from a woman in the audience, puts it on and poses) Yes, I Am that I Am! I don't care what they say about me. (laughter)
LINDA: And Cauldre's certainly horrified. Wait till he sees the pictures.
ADAMUS: No, he's not quite here right now. (laughter) So …
LINDA: He'll see the pictures.
ADAMUS: He'll see the pictures later, then he'll be horrified. But … my, what a nice scarf you have (he takes it). But I am me, I'm not Colleen, (Adamus removes her name tag from the scarf) so I will keep this.
So dear Shaumbra … yes? (laughter and applause as he poses) This is our high consciousness spiritual gathering, and yes, I would like to be your teacher. (more laughter)
So, dear Shaumbra, I'm glad you can still laugh. You get this back - beautiful hat, wonderful hat. It's too warm for the scarf, but you can have it, my dear. (laughter as he gives the scarf to someone else) This I keep. (he keeps the necklace)
So, Shaumbra, first question today - I'm not alone. I'm not just Adamus today. There is a co-conspirator with me. Who would that be? You might have the microphone ready, my dear.
LINDA: Is this a guessing game?
ADAMUS: A guessing game? I doubt. Who's with me? Take a moment, close your eyes, if you would.
LINDA: Who's with you?
ADAMUS: Take a deep breath. Who is with me? (someone says Kuthumi) Kuthumi! (applause) Kuthumi. He's getting ready to come in for our gathering in just a few weeks in Germany. So he came in closer, so you're going to get a little bit of both of us today.
LINDA: Hmmm, wow.
ADAMUS: Yes, a little curry with a little pepper, as they say. (laughter)
So, dear Shaumbra, we have two main things to cover today - the continuing discussion of awakening.
I'm going to simplify this whole awakening thing. We're going to put it into simple, easy to understand terms for the ones that are coming after you. They're going to want it that way. They're going to want the nonintellectual, non-belabored version of what is awakening, what do you go through on the way there and how does it turn out?
We are writing a book together. Every one of you has had very deep and personal experiences - very beautiful, traumatic, life changing, earth-shaking, revolting and incredible experiences.
When we gather like this - Kuthumi, myself and all of you - we join together, we put together this wisdom, and we're not going to make it boring. No. The shots just now with the hat, the scarf, everything, should be on the front cover: "So you're awakening - or just going crazy?" (laughter)
But really, Shaumbra, really, don't other humans need to hear it this way, or do they want to go through years and years of study and methods and boredom? Maybe a little laughter; maybe, just maybe, what you learned, what you experienced along the way could be of such immense help to the others. Wouldn't that make everything you went through almost worthwhile? Close to? A little bit? Yes. The answer is yes. That's why you're here.
So Kuthumi joins me today. We're going to talk about two things: the continuation of our awakening talk, and then we're going to go into some potentials - and I'm excited about that part. It's very real and you'll be able to see the effects in the world around you over the next weeks or months or whatever.
But to begin with, I would ask could you all please turn around for a moment. (Adamus is now standing at the back of the room) Thank you. Thank you.
Now, the reason why I asked you to do this was very simple. You have already awoken, ascended, whatever you want to call it. You've already become enlightened. You're already on the other side of the "X" spot. You've done it. You've accomplished it. And now you're looking back at how you experienced it.
See, when I'm up there, you're looking forward. You're like, "There's something beyond. There's something we still have to do. We have goals. We have to learn something. We have to stop beating ourselves." Actually, in reality, you're looking back on yourself. How did you experience it? How would you want to experience it? I think that's such a beautiful thing, Kuthumi talked about it several years ago right here. It's already done. It is a natural … (Adamus walks back to the front) I would ask you to keep looking back. I'm just walking this way. Joke. (laughter)
It is a natural process that unfolds in spite of you. Sometimes it unfolds even with you. The doubt, the resistance, all the strange methods and therapies and everything else, and more than anything else, dear Shaumbra, we'll get into this later, but counseling, processing - in spite of that, you've awakened. You're already there. You're already there.
So take a deep breath. There's nothing to worry about other than making a choice, going into the potentials of how did you get there. And do you know it's really quite simple. You can pick. You can pick how you got there. You may not feel that way right now. You may feel that mass consciousness, dark forces, the world in general is conspiring against you. But no, no, no, no, no, no. You're conspiring against yourself. That's all, and that's okay. It's actually a lot of fun. I conspired against myself for one hundred thousand years. Would you like to hear the story? (laughter) Nobody? (Linda say's "No") Going once? Going twice? Okay.
So you're just conspiring against yourself really. So I want you to relax. We're writing, creating a living document, a dynamic, potential-filled, energy-filled document about awakening.
So the first question is, and dear Linda if you would be quick on the draw here - we have limited time, you know.
LINDA: Oh yes.
What Is Awakening?
ADAMUS: What is awakening? What is awakening? Anybody - and Linda will volunteer you.
JOSHUA: It's …
ADAMUS: (interrupting) I'm sorry, Joshua. Please, and before you start, lower the microphone a little bit. No, way down. Turn off his mike. Let's do this together. I Am that I Am. We've done this before. I Am that … (audience joins in but Adamus stops and rolls his eyes; laughter)
ADAMUS: Joshua and I, on the count of two. One, two …
JOSHUA AND ADAMUS: I Am that I Am.
ADAMUS: Okay. All alone by yourself now.
JOSHUA: I Am that I Am.
ADAMUS: Hmmm. Hmmm. Audience? (audience not satisfied either) Let's try it again. Take a deep breath - I know you just would like to choke me right now - take a deep breath and let it out like you mean it.
JOSHUA: I Am that I Am.
ADAMUS: Getting a little better. Getting a little better. Sorry to pick on you here, but this is for every one of you. Every one of you … that voice, that … I'll explain it later. You'll understand and then you'll go, "Ah! I wished I'd have just screamed it out." So go ahead and scream it out.
JOSHUA: (much louder) I Am that I Am!
ADAMUS: There you go! (audience cheering and applause) Thank you. It can be done. It can be. So, yes, what is awakening?
JOSHUA: Awakening is …
LINDA: With the mike, please.
JOSHUA: Awakening is being in that place you just mentioned, being aware that you are looking back and having that perspective.
ADAMUS: Good. "Looking back," excellent. (Adamus writes it) "On self," excellent. That deserves an award, actually. And two, one for the …
ADAMUS: One for toning or the I Am, and one for …
LINDA: One moment. Would you empty your pockets first? (laughter) Thank you. The other one.
ADAMUS: Nothing in there. So, excellent. That deserves two.
LINDA: He got his two. Thank you.
ADAMUS: Next, what is awakening? We talk about this thing, but what is it? A lottery prize?
PATTI: Awakening …
ADAMUS: You will have to stand up and …
LINDA: Speak directly into the mike, please.
PATTI: It's all of my aspects, all of my divinity coming back home and then everything going out at the same time.
ADAMUS: They're going out?
ADAMUS: Ah, good, good. I thought they came home and they said, "The hell with this!" (laughter)
PATTI: No, no, sorry. Expanding.
ADAMUS: "We're leaving! Cleaning the house! We'll come back later." Excellent. So it's the integration.
ADAMUS: Yes, an award please. I hope you brought hundreds, thousands of awards today.
LINDA: Yeah, right.
ADAMUS: Good. A few more. What is awakening? Awakening is when you're half asleep and somebody puts a microphone in your face! (laughter) Ah!
LINDA: Nobody's sleeping today.
SHAUMBRA MALE: Consciousness.
ADAMUS: Consciousness. Okay. Yes, but …
SHAUMBRA MALE: Being aware.
ADAMUS: … give me a word to go with consciousness. "Hmm hmm" consciousness. "Hmm" consciousness.
SHAUMBRA MALE: Open consciousness.
ADAMUS: Open consciousness.
SHAUMBRA MALE: A beginning.
ADAMUS: Expanded …
SHAUMBRA MALE: Expanded, yes.
ADAMUS: Expanded, and could I stuff words down your throat?
SHAUMBRA MALE: Yes.
SHAUMBRA MALE: Awareness.
ADAMUS: Awareness. Excellent. Awareness. Now, you're looking forward onto your paths and one of the greatest challenges, one of the greatest problems is limited awareness. Awareness is only what's in that day or in that week or in your immediate life, but almost no awareness of what you would call higher self, Spirit; no awareness of all the entities floating around right now; and really no awareness of your divine - some really bad intellectual concepts that have really messed you up about what 'divine' is, but really no awareness.
I think it was Tobias who said that the divine is your simplicity. But humans make it their complexity. The divine is so simple and beautiful and pure, but there's been this effort, perhaps even a commercial effort or a religious effort, to make divine really complex, really way out there and something that you need an intermediary or practitioners or facilitators to get to. So, yes, awareness - and one more, what is awakening? What happens when you're awake?
ADAMUS: Feeling. Feeling is good. Again, I would call that awareness, because as you're more aware, you have sensitivity, feeling, sensory awareness of everything, of everything. So that's a good one. And if we hadn't given out awards to everybody today, there are no wrong answers. Maybe a few.
LINDA: That's not what you tell me.
ADAMUS: Maybe a few. One more really good one. What is awakening?
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Trusting that everything is perfect.
ADAMUS: 'It's okay. It's great. It's perfect.' Absolutely. How would we put that for our book, to our readers?
LINDA: Trusting self.
ADAMUS: Trusting… I'm going to call it just 'perfect order.' It's everything is in perfection. It's as I like to close our meetings with, "All is well in all of creation, including you." This whole concept that things are really f… screwed up (laughter) is such a lie. Such a lie, and everybody buys into it. So if I may, I'm just going to call it it's perfect. It's perfect. It's perfect even if you don't choose it to be perfect, you see. So, thank you. So perfection. (Adamus writes) Perfection. This is a sharp group.
Now, there are a lot of the more inexperienced awakening-ee's - people who are just getting into this - who assume that awakening suddenly makes you superhuman and all your problems go away, and you become psychic and you can read people's futures and things like that. But as you know, it doesn't work that way and truly doesn't work very well.
So, yes, awakening. Next question. (to Linda) Might as well stay in the audience.
LINDA: I'm not going anywhere.
What Prompted Your Awakening?
ADAMUS: Next question. (Adamus draws) We've talked about this "X" zone over our last few discussions. Now, I'm zooming in on a beautiful process that's been taking place since the beginning of time and experience. (he draws waveforms) We've been having these dances of the waveforms.
Would you have this speaker moved? It's causing a little bit of a distraction. It'll take two or three.
So you've been having this dance of the waveforms - the divine and the human. At some point they come together, which is what's happening right now. So we're zooming in on the process. You see in the past they've always ebbed and flowed like this, but never come together. Now they're coming together and you are in this place right here (the "X" where the waveforms cross).
I'm going to simplify this, and perhaps it's arguable with some, debatable with others, but I'm going to simplify the process. The first step is what I'm going to call the Fruit of the Rose. Step one, Fruit of the Rose. And let's call it also the starting point. The starting point.
From your own experience, what was it that initiated your process? What prompted your awakening? (Clearing throat)
LINDA: Oh ready, ready, ready.
LINDA: I was just so taken in. Okay. What prompted …
ADAMUS: What prompted your awakening?
LINDA: You would need a mike turned on.
ADAMUS: Curiosity. Whose curiosity?
ADAMUS: When did that happen?
KATHLEEN: When I was at the Fruit of the Rose.
ADAMUS: Did you wake up one morning and suddenly say, "Hmmm, I'm really curious about …" And it's not actually funny; it happens. When did this curiosity suddenly strike you?
KATHLEEN: When I was knee high to a grasshopper.
ADAMUS: 'Knee high to a grasshopper.' It is a strange human term, indeed.
KATHLEEN: I came in with it.
ADAMUS: So, curiosity. That's good. (he writes) Curiosity. And how's your curiosity now? Has it been satisfied or has it grown bigger?
KATHLEEN: Probably grown bigger.
ADAMUS: True. So your curiosity has not been satisfied.
KATHLEEN: Probably parts of it.
ADAMUS: Parts of it. Is it curiosity bigger than before? Smaller than before? Have you woken up one day and said, "I have no curiosity anymore. I'm absolutely awakened."
ADAMUS: No, okay. So - and again, not to pick on anybody, but you're here, so why not - so it's still the dog chasing its tail to a degree.
ADAMUS: Curiosity is a very curious thing. It keeps you moving. It keeps you in the game. It keeps you entertained and amused and always wondering. But yes, curiosity. Your awakening. Thank you. Yes.
KATHLEEN: You're welcome.
ADAMUS: Please. You can give her some of Cauldre's money too. (laughter)
LINDA: Not! You're very welcome.
ADAMUS: What happened to start your awakening? There are billions of beings who are going to read this. So, yes, this is important.
JOYCE: Oh. I suppose it's the …
ADAMUS: By the way, if I could interrupt for a minute, which I did. Do you really realize what we're doing here? If you were aware, you would.
SHAUMBRA: We're writing a book.
ADAMUS: We're writing a book, but what else are we doing right now, simultaneously?
SHAUMBRA: Transforming energy.
ADAMUS: Well, transforming energy, yes. We're holding a class in the New Earth! And there are all sorts of beings who are sitting here amazed with the whole process. So you have to keep it simple. They're not terribly sophisticated when it comes to living on Earth. They've never done it. It's all theory. It's all practice, but they're listening in on this amazing classroom. And they're wondering, first of all, if they have to go through awakening - which they will. They're wondering how others have done it. And they wonder what happened. Did somebody come to you one day and say, "Would you like to buy some awareness?" Or were you walking down a street one day and suddenly a piano came from a tall building hit you on the head, and you said, "Ah! I think it's time to awaken." What happened? Next. Yes.
JOYCE: I supposed it's …
ADAMUS: Would you mind standing up? All these young ones, the angels who've never come to Earth really want to see you. They're staring. "What do humans look like? Hmm, ah, hmmm, ah." Okay, yes. So …
JOYCE: I suppose it was all the dramas and traumas in life that just got me so …
ADAMUS: Drama and trauma.
JOYCE: … confused and wanting to straighten it out.
ADAMUS: Drama. And basically you just get barf-tired of all the drama (laughter) … that was Kuthumi. So, I'll write down Kuthumi's words. You just get tired of all the dramas and traumas. Good. Next.
ESTELLA: Learning … um, no that's not what I want to say.
ADAMUS: Deep breath. It's easy.
ESTELLA: I wanted to find myself.
ADAMUS: Wanted to find yourself. That's good. That's good. Yes. Sometimes the term is a little bit overused, but so many lifetimes all of you felt lost - lost on an island by yourself, "Where is the rest of me?" Yes, absolutely. Good. A few more. What prompted your awakening?
CAROLINE: I didn't know I was going to be awakened.
CAROLINE: Didn't even know I needed to be awakened.
CAROLINE: And Vince gave me a book to read.
CAROLINE: And it was Shirley MacLaine's "Out on a Limb."
CAROLINE: And my whole core belief shifted, and I realized I was free …
CAROLINE: … to believe anything I wanted to believe and to realize that everything I had believed in the past might not be so.
ADAMUS: So now you're beholden to Vince. (laughter) Yes.
CAROLINE: And it was the most freeing thing that I've ever had in my life.
CAROLINE: And that was almost 30 years ago and life has been great.
ADAMUS: Good. Good. And I'm going to put "book" down there, because while we have some beautiful concepts here … yes, you may come back for an award.
LINDA: Does Vince get one too? (Adamus shakes his head "no.") Oh, sorry. Sorry.
CAROLINE: I'll share with him.
ADAMUS: No. Yeah, you have to share the pin. Yes. And you're probably able to buy them from Linda for a few dollars, but …
LINDA: Don't even think about it.
CAROL: When I was 12 years old, I was at church and meditating and I spoke in tongues.
ADAMUS: Spoke in tongues.
ADAMUS: And what did you say? (she shrugs "I don't know") Exactly. The old "I don't know what the hell I said."
CAROL: I know I said Buddha and Jesus and Muhammad …
CAROL: … but I don't know what the whole deal was.
ADAMUS: And have you spoken in tongues since then?
ADAMUS: Would you like to now?
ADAMUS: Okay. Say, "I Am that I Am" with your tongue out. (much laughter)
LINDA: I think he's serious. I think he was serious!
CAROL: (with her tongue out) I Am that I Am. (more laughter)
ADAMUS: Kuthumi is pushing my limits. Let's all do it together. Stick your tongue out and say, "I Am that I Am." (Adamus and audience do so) Strange, but true.
LINDA: You guys will do anything!
ADAMUS: So let's call this a trance experience? Okay. All right. So Linda, that's enough for now.
LINDA: Oh, you're done? Okay.
ADAMUS: What is it that prompts the awakening? The ones who are going to be reading our work together, they are going to be looking for really the things like the book that falls off the shelf. Now, there was a lot of other stuff that caused Vince to give you the book. You were ready for it, but they're going to relate to the book that falls off the shelf, the movie that suddenly prompts them to consider life in a whole different way; a really bad dream, a really overwhelming terrifying dream that takes them to a level they've never been before; a spouse, loved one dying; the first time they've really contemplated death. They knew death existed, but they never actually contemplated it. It's going to be something like a car accident. A car accident that puts them into some sort of trauma or even a coma, but jolts them out of their comfort zone.
It could be simply waking up one day and realizing that you're alone. Or it could be the sudden awareness of your overwhelming curiosity. These things have been brewing for lifetimes - lifetimes - and you've finally connected with it.
What has caused the pattern to change - you've been going like this (waveforms) since the beginning - what's caused it to change now, and for the convergence of all the waveforms, of the divine and the human and everything else, is a lot of things. It's, for instance, taking your examples here: been there, done that. How many lifetimes do you need? Most of you have had approximately fourteen hundred. A couple here have had over two thousand. How many lifetimes do you need? That's not a condemnation at all, because sometimes it's just interesting to try on different appearances, take on different identities, play on Earth.
One of the things that is common with what you call Ascended Masters, the ones who really come into their own, is there comes a point in their process when they know they're done. No more Earth, no more lifetimes, no more connections with humans as they knew it. No more sitting around the dinner table. No more taking walks in the woods. No more 'hmm hmm hmm,' you know, with the other person. (laughter at how Adamus alluded to sex)
LINDA: Excuse me?
ADAMUS: Uh, it was Kuthumi! (more laughter) No more gatherings like this. There comes a point every Ascended Master goes through where [there is] a real desire to turn back, to stay a few more lifetimes. Haven't you felt it when you've contemplated ascension? Yes, it sounds so good to get off this spaceship Earth, but when the reality hits - some of you it is your last lifetime - there's something about Earth that is so beautiful, something about living.
Could you imagine living knowing that it's all going to turn out - that it all has turned out? Knowing that you can really create anything you want for yourself. Could you imagine not worrying about your health? Not worrying about death, any of that? This planet is amazing.
There are a lot of other life forms out there, a lot of others, but none
like the human life form. None that is the gateway into ascension. None. No
life forms that are more intelligent or, let me say, wise. Oh, there are some
intelligent life forms out there, but they're really not very wise. They have
yet to learn that.
Kuthumi was talking to me before our gathering. He said, "Wouldn't it be amazing to do a movie about a very intellectually advanced society but that really has no wisdom, that has never really learned for the soul. Wouldn't that be amazing?"
So, dear Shaumbra, where were we? So in this awakening, there are a lot of things that occur before this point of - that I wrote on the board there - the Fruit of the Rose. By the way, the Fruit of the Rose is a term Tobias invented, and it was the reminder that's in your reality landscape, a reminder somewhere in your consciousness that you can go Home when you want. You pretend that it's not there, you frolic through lifetime after lifetime, even ignoring it when you stumble across it. But one day you realize the key to get back Home has always been there. Always been there. That's where people start.
Now, remember back to when you hit that point - you got the book, you woke up with curiosity, somebody brought you to a class that just opened you up; prior to that there was things like maybe frustration with human life, maybe the deep longing to be back with yourself, with every part of you. That deep longing like - it's often misunderstood - this term "the lost love" or "soul mate," like there's this other being out there in the other realms waiting for you, the greatest love story ever told. It's actually very true, but it's not another being. It is just yourself. It's just you.
Sooner or later … I'm watching my time here carefully. Sooner or later everybody is going to come this way. It might be a lot later for some. You just happen to be on the leading edge of things. Yes, there are some Ascended Masters who came before you, but not many. You're actually what I would consider, truly, the first group to be going through this. A lot of individuals up until now, but you're the first group.
So, if you recall your experiences at this point, for most of you, exhilarating; overwhelming; made you reconsider everything; made you just filled with anticipation, joy. You felt like - for many of you - like dancing in the street. You felt like getting on a bicycle and riding down the street and knocking on everybody's door. That was funny.
LINDA: Ha, ha, ha, ha.
ADAMUS: Converting them. You felt like talking to everybody about this new incredible wisdom, this joy that you had found. "I'm going Home!" Remember?
So this is the point of awakening. It's brilliant, absolutely brilliant. It leads to a tremendous amount of studying right away - everything you can get your hands on, everything spiritual - and you read philosophy, you read about religions, you read every new age book, every channeled entity. There are people on the website right now who are in this spot - they're on the Internet - and they're reading everything. They're obsessed. They can't get enough. They can't get enough of it. I'm sure some of you have been there.
And then you become spiritual. You put on that spiritual badge. You say now you are a spiritual being, and not really knowing what the hell it means, but it sure feels good. It gives you a kind of a medal of honor, and it gives you something to relate to and it reminds you, yes, you are on a journey. This phase lasts for a few months maybe, a few years possibly.
Awakening, Phase II
And then a really interesting thing happens. You go into phase two. (Adamus writes) "Ouch." That's what I'm going to call it, "Ouch." Ouch! "What a …" (Adamus writes "WTF") The other one, "What's That For?" (laughter) Or, as I like to call it, de- … (Adamus writes) Cauldre can't spell today. "Destructuring." Destructuring. Ouch, ouch, ouch. You've all been there, done that, and you're still feeling the side-effects from it. You're ready to go Home, whatever that means. You are now becoming a wise spiritual person. You even start talking different to other people with a kind of arrogant, obnoxious, om-ing type of sound, and something happens. Your life falls apart. You destructure.
I don't want to say it's unfortunate, perhaps it's somewhat necessary, but it doesn't have to be so painful. It doesn't have to be so grueling. It doesn't have to be so death-like. It's going to happen, because in this "Ouch" zone, everything that you thought you were, every belief that you've ever had starts falling apart. It's really transmuting; it just appears like it's all tumbling down. Crumbling like an old building in an earthquake. And the human aspect comes screaming out, "What the … is going on with my awakening!?"
Now, you've got a tremendous contradiction. You're a spiritual person whose life is going downhill. You've told other people how great you're going to become, and now you're becoming nothing. (laughter) They laugh, "ha, ha, ha," behind your back, once in a while right at your face. You lose your job, your spouses, your health, your mind; everything falls apart. You're destructuring.
Celebrate! (someone in audience says, "Yippee!") (Adamus chuckles) What's happening is a variety of things. You are now in the experiential part of awakening. All the old religious values start to shift and change, all of the belief systems.
So many of you have an aspect of you that was born and raised to - that aspect was going to be successful in this life and to have a good job and a good family and to make people proud of you and have children who you would be proud of - and it didn't necessarily happen that way. That aspect, by the way, still lingers. It's still there saying, "Hmm, shouldn't you have been doing these other things, and you got off on this crazy spiritual path and now look at my life." See, that aspect doesn't care about your life; that aspect wants its fulfillment. It wants - what would you call it - the "Leave it to Beaver," (1950's television show about an idealized family) the storybook kind of life. Fantasy life. And some actually have it, but it's just an aspect that's playing out.
So suddenly everything is falling apart and you start actually going crazy. You become mentally, physically, financially and especially spiritually imbalanced. Nothing makes sense anymore.
The aspects - ooh, this is party time for aspects. (laughter) They are going to come back. Some of them have been out of contact with you for a long time, lifetimes and lifetimes. They haven't emailed. They haven't come around for dinner. They've been way out there, because they were sick and tired of you. So they've been gone somewhere else, and suddenly they have this urge to come home.
They hear the same calling that you've heard. They feel something is
getting stirred up, so they come back home. They're not necessarily on a
permanent basis, they're coming back to see (a) if this is the time to really
take over, where they run the show, or (b) there's part of them that's
curious. "Maybe we really are going home." And then they laugh,
"No way. No way."
But the aspects come back. They come back, as Aandrah and On will tell you, in wave after wave after wave. Now I know there's perhaps a glorified understanding of aspects coming back, that you just take a deep breath and they all come back home. Some of them do. Some of them do. They're happy to be back. But some of them are just so annoyed with you. Some of them have so much disrespect for you. Some of them think that you're the fool. And some of them just - they're aspects; they just want power and control. They don't know why, they just want power and control.
So this is a really difficult time. I'm surprised you made it. Oh yeah, you too! (laughing) I'm very surprised you made it. This is a fragile, but yet extremely important time that you go through.
The "Ouch" Zone
Could you imagine for a moment, looking back on it now from this perspective, looking back and saying, "You know, it was just about destructuring. It is just about transmutation. It was just about releasing old stuck energy so we could all evolve, we could all ascend or awaken," or whatever you want to call it. How would you do it different? Knowing that it already turned out, what would you different? Microphone-in-the-audience time. What would you do different? What advice would you have for the ones coming in the next wave right behind you? And they're waiting, by the way. Gail?
GAIL: I wouldn't do a thing different.
ADAMUS: You wouldn't do anything different.
GAIL: No. I'm glad I experienced every single thing, from the agony to the ecstasy.
ADAMUS: Who's been drawing on my board?! (laughter as Adamus discovers some used pages in his notepad)
GAIL: My aspect. The artist!
ADAMUS: So you wouldn't do anything different?
GAIL: No. You want me to be honest with you?
ADAMUS: Would you even … have you not been honest with me?
GAIL: A couple of times.
GAIL: Once in a while.
ADAMUS: I know that. Yes. So you …
GAIL: I've always wanted a hug.
ADAMUS: (Adamus chuckles then gives her a hug; audience says, "Aww")
GAIL: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Thank you.
GAIL: You're welcome.
ADAMUS: Love the tat.
GAIL: Thanks! (she shows the tattoo on her arm)
ADAMUS: For the camera. (she turns to the camera) Yes.
So what would you tell them? Nothing? "It is a secret grasshopper. You must discover for yourself." (laughter at Adamus' silly accent) That's what I would tell them.
GAIL: You must follow your heart.
GAIL: No, you've got to follow …
ADAMUS: Absolute bullshit.
GAIL: No, no matter how shitty it feels at any given time …
ADAMUS: You're going to tell them to follow their heart! They have no idea they have a heart.
GAIL: … you've got to follow the heart.
ADAMUS: They don't know what heart is. Their heart is so screwed up … Kuthumi's laughing. I'm sorry, but … yes …
GAIL: Oh, that's okay.
ADAMUS: We hug, we fight. Okay.
GAIL: You've got to trust yourself. You've got to follow your heart, no matter what it appears in front of your face right now.
ADAMUS: And the next morning they shoot themselves, because they have no concept of what you're talking about. That is … I have a little word for that. Oh, I call it makyo. Look it up on the Internet. Makyo. (Adamus writes) Okay, next. Makyo. Okay, I won't explain it now. Keep you in curiosity. You love curiosity.
So, please, now, you're sitting with somebody who's in this crisis zone - their life is falling apart, they are suicidal, they are angry, they are confused, like me (Adamus is flipping through his pages, looking for the right one). They have no idea what's going on, and they look to you and see somebody they feel - they don't understand - but they feel something in you. They feel a wisdom. They feel a balance. They feel like they want to suck your energy and take what you have, but you're not going to let them. I know I'm talking too fast, but yes. So what would you tell them? They just lost their job and their wife walked out on them, and they have no money in the bank and the doctor just told them that they are diabetic. You're going to tell them to follow their heart? (Adamus gags)
GAIL: No, I would tell them to take a deep breath. To breathe.
ADAMUS: Okay, and they take a deep breath and then [he gags]. (laughter)
GAIL: Yeah, then go jump off a cliff. Walk in front of a train. Go for it.
ADAMUS: (humming) Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm. What are you going to tell them?
GAIL: That it's going to be okay.
ADAMUS: Ah, thank you. That was my answer.
GAIL: It's going to be okay. Yeah.
ADAMUS: It's going to be okay. Now, actually, that sounds like bullshit, but do you realize …
GAIL: I tell that bullshit to myself everyday.
ADAMUS: Exactly! And that's an honest answer, because you know it's going to be okay. Oh, they might have to come back for ten more lifetimes …
GAIL: Not all the time.
ADAMUS: No, it does. It's … you're already there. You already made it. You're already there. Whatever games you want to engage in while you're getting there, whatever experiences you want to have, but how do you know you and I aren't sitting in our respective Third Circles looking out our Third Circle window and saying, "Hey Gail, how you're doing today, you ascended being you?"
GAIL: Well, the I Am that I Am knows that I'm there. This part of me here right now knows that I'm here. But I get back to my own place and I get back into the world, so to speak, and it all kind of disappears.
GAIL: Reality sets in.
ADAMUS: But I like that simple "It's going to be okay." Ask Linda. Microphone to Linda.
LINDA: Yeah, it's going to be okay. Going to be okay.
ADAMUS: It's going to be okay, and that is a true honest answer. It's going to be okay. Now, you don't necessarily want to read them the fine print of what is going to happen. (laughter) That'll come later. But, yeah, it's going to be okay. And they'll look at you - really wanting to believe you, by the way - they'll look at you, "Really?" And you say, "Really. Now take a deep breath." Ahh. Ahhhhh.
You know, Shaumbra, it's going to be okay! The only regret that I think any of you are going to have is that you didn't realize that it was going to be okay; that you fought that it was going to be okay; that you didn't believe even, when you could make that choice to believe, that it's going to be okay. The only regret in this whole amazing process is you're going to say, "Damn, I wished I had enjoyed it more." (audience says, "Yeah") Yeah! It's going to be okay. (audience applause)
You know what? Just … (Linda hands him an Adamus Award to much laughter from Adamus and the audience) Only if you pin it on. (she pins it on his shirt)
Now, just then, the energy absolutely changed in the room and online. Imagine what it would do for others. The energy changes. Oh! all that tension, all that anxiety. All of that worrying for absolutely nothing other than just to have a little anxiety and worry, but I think you're tired of it. (Adamus is walking to the back of the room) All of that looking forward and fearing the unknown when you could just turn around … (Adamus clears his throat; audience turns around to face him) and just turn around and look back on your experience and choose the potential from where you've arrived to on how you got there.
Now, don't think about that; just feel it, because thinking will cause you to say, "Yeah, but, well the reality of life, Adamus, you know, is that you have to do this and that. And I can't do this because of my kids and my job" and blah, blah, blah. Now you're right back into the old game.
Really, I mean you can just look back from your Third Circle and say, "How do I want to experience getting there?" That is more real than the linear going forward in time. And if there is anything I and Kuthumi could really get across to you today is you are looking back on yourself, if you choose to. If you choose not to, if it's always going forward into the deep unknown and everything else and you want to process your way to ascension … that was funny. (laughter) You want to process your way to ascension, you can. But if you want to look back and say, "Here's how I choose to do it," you can. It takes a little practice, because you've had eons of time of doing it the other way, but not that much practice.
So what else would you tell somebody in this zone?
LINDA: Oh, I got one. Here. (the person is reluctant) No?!
MAURY: What can I say?
ADAMUS: What would you say?
MAURY: Well …
ADAMUS: I'm going to be Maury.
MAURY: Oh my.
ADAMUS: And I'm going through the tragedies of awakening. I'm in the "Ouch" zone, and I'm Maury talking to a highly conscious and awakened Maury. More he! (Adamus chuckles, then rolls his eyes) Ohhh, Kuthumi. That was Kuthumi. That was not me.
ADAMUS: It was cute, yeah. Slightly. It was three on the scale of ten.
So, you're the higher consciousness of Maury talking to the human Maury. What would you say, Maury?
MAURY: Well, you know what I'm guided to do is to just really be with that connection that goes on in the moment. I just feel that, you know, it's that feeling of … (he stops because Adamus is shaking his head, then rolling his eyes, then he "shoots" himself in the head, then "collapses" against the chair and reaches for Norma; much laughter)
ADAMUS: Norma! Help me breathe! Help me breathe, Norma!
MAURY: Yeah, breathe. Take a deep breath.
ADAMUS: Take a deep breath, yeah.
MAURY: That is true. That's what I usually say first.
ADAMUS: Now, and I'm having fun with all of you, but … (Adamus spits)
LINDA: Ooh! Ow! Oh!
ADAMUS: I spit on processes. I spit on … that was Kuthumi, sorry.
LINDA: That was my shoe. Oh!
ADAMUS: I spit on processes and structures and all of this thought. That's where you've tripped up. Do you want to trip up somebody else?
MAURY: No. Simply breathe.
ADAMUS: Breathe. Okay. That's a good … take a deep breath, and then what would you tell them?
MAURY: Just be with those feelings.
ADAMUS: Possibly. They might hate being with those feelings, but yes. You know what I would do?
MAURY: What? What would you do?
ADAMUS: I'm asking you if you knew what I would do.
MAURY: Oh. Well, that's why I'm asking.
ADAMUS: You know what I would do, one of the things that I would do is just ask them to take a deep breath with me. I'm not going to say anything necessarily at that moment; I'm going to let them feel my presence. More powerful than any words, more effective than any therapies, a lot cheaper than drugs. So I'm just going to let them feel my presence, Maury to Maury. (Adamus puts his arm around Maury) Doesn't that feel good?
MAURY: Well, the compassion of connection is a key piece of healing. Yes, it feels wonderful.
ADAMUS: Yeah, too many words. Deep breath. It's just Maury to Maury. (they both breathe deeply) Ah! Much better. Thank you. Thank you. (some applause)
MAURY: Thank you.
ADAMUS: So, another quick one.
LINDA: Is that an award winner? Award?
ADAMUS: Oh yes, absolutely.
LINDA: Okay, here we go. You've earned it. You've really earned that.
ADAMUS: So what else? What would you tell them in the "Ouch" zone, in this traumatic period?
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Go ahead and jump.
ADAMUS: Go ahead and jump!
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Go ahead and jump.
ADAMUS: Not bad. Go ahead and jump. I've heard Aandrah tell it to people in a very loving and compassionate way. I love it!
LINDA: I have a disclaimer on that. That is not medical advice.
ADAMUS: No, we're talking about jumping over from just being human to being awakened.
LINDA: Watch where you're going.
ADAMUS: Now, let's get even more deeply honest. How many of you have used the victimness of awakening to get a little energy or a little attention. (audience members raise their hands) Thank you. Thank you. Linda?
LINDA: I had … my hand was up! (laughter from audience and Adamus)
ADAMUS: "My life is falling apart. I don't know what to do." Now, that's a true statement, but sometimes there is kind of a "needy feedy," I call it. That was Kuthumi - needy feedy. Yeah, you like that. Let's have shirts. Sometimes there's this "poor me" thing. "Poor me, I'm going through awakening."
LINDA: I'm sorry. Who would wear a shirt that says, "Needy feedy"? (lots of laughter, some audience members raise their hands)
ADAMUS: I've got 18 orders right here online. Who online would wear … (looking into the camera)
LINDA: Needy feedy?
ADAMUS: Needy feedy? Would you wear …? See? Twelve billion people just responded. (much laughter) I don't know if I'm going to invite Kuthumi back again. This is difficult sharing, and … One body, two ascended beings. This is difficult.
So, dear Shaumbra, everything starts to fall apart here (the "Ouch" zone). It looks dismal. It looks dark. You're at the end. It is really the biggest death process you'll ever face, including physical death.
Physical death is a walk in a park on a sunny day compared to this, truly, because you just go. Generally, you go days before your body does. You lose connection and consciousness, so you just evaporate away over into the other side, and then your body dies and everybody cries - most everybody. But this is tougher. This is the death of self, the self that has been constructed carefully, designed impeccably, and manipulated by a pro for lifetimes and lifetimes. It was designed by parts of you to be eternal, and it suddenly discovers it's not.
I'm not talking about the physical body; I'm talking about the manufactured human identity. This robotic aspect has been programmed for human perfection - beautiful body; gorgeous face; impeccable sense of clothing, of course, of fashion; wealth beyond wealth; intelligence above anybody's; ability to work miracles simply by waving their hands - and, of course, the smell of chocolate chip cookies all the time.
So this robotic - it's actually a group of aspects - have been carefully designed like robots and set out there. And suddenly, you and the robots, the aspects, all discover that was one great big illusion. You'll never reach that state of human perfection. Unattainable. Unattainable. You're never going to ascend in that status; it happens different. Awakening is different.
This period, this "Ouch" destructuring period can last anywhere from approximately 10, 15 years for those who are fast-tracking, to 3, 4, 5 lifetimes or more. Slow studies, maybe 20, 30 lifetimes. Truly. Think of your accumulated garbage, all the accumulated beliefs and delusions and illusions and anger and wound and everything else. Think of how long it took to accumulate that. And think of how long it might take to clear it.
We had a bet on the other side - I lost - and the bet was, with the angelic beings … we have something, oh, kind of, we call it Human TV. It was the first reality TV series and it's us looking down on you! (laughter) "Whoa! Amazing! Weird, but amazing!" That's its sister program, "Weird but True: Human Thoughts and Actions."
So we had a bet about the awakening: how long would it take for what we would call, I don't like the term, but a more advanced - let's call it more desperate (laughter) - human to awaken? General consensus was 3, 4 maybe 5 lifetimes. My dear friends, you've cost me a lot of spiritual moolah! (money) (much laughter and applause)
You know who won that bet? Tobias.
LINDA: We did.
LINDA: We did!
ADAMUS: And you did. Obviously, you did. But it was Tobias who said, "No." He said, "I've worked with them before." Tobias who said, "I have known them in the Temples of Tien. I have loved them. I have walked in their smelly shoes." And Tobias had said, "No, they're going to do it this lifetime, and it won't take 90 years. It's going to take 12, 15, 20 years." Most of you have been on that track for that many years.
The ones coming behind you, if they haven't … oh my dear, we're running out of time. The ones coming behind you if they have enough passion in this, they could be doing it in 5 or 6 years possibly. And the years don't matter - other than to you. If it's already done, it doesn't matter. But yes, there's part of you that's saying, "How much more is this going to take?"
In our book, we're going to talk about it more in the book. We'll give details on that spark that causes the awakening, and then people will discover it wasn't a spark necessarily. It's a pressure that's been built up for a long time. Sometimes there is so much what I would call psychic energy as a result of the wave patterns, so much build-up of psychic energy, it just is going to force it to happen. And one day the awakening … the awakening can be defined. It doesn't really birth there, but it can be defined at that point of a book, of a movie, of a tragedy, something that happens to turn.
This ("Ouch") zone here is where we'd like to concentrate. In helping people to understand what they're going through is relatively common, and it's going to be okay, if they can get through that.
In this destructuring zone is also when they really feel the loss of their spirit guides, where they feel so alone, where nothing makes sense anymore. So we'll talk more about that.
The "Meld" Zone
Now, you come to the next step, which is what I'm going to call the meld. The "Meld." By the way, these are not clear barriers. You don't go hop from one to the other, they kind of flow through each other. I'm oversimplifying it.
You come to the "Meld" in this process. Now the waveforms are inevitably coming together. Suddenly, you realize, "Damn, there's no going back. It is happening." You try to go back, but you can't. You try to forget, but you can't forget what you know. You even test it. You say, "Can I blank all this out?" But you can't.
This next is the meld where, at a very deep level, you actually start to feel yourself, your divine. You still feel very human, but suddenly you get glimpses of clarity. Probably the most significant part of this is suddenly you get a creative burst. You haven't had it in forever. Suddenly, you are drawn into things that are creative in nature - music, artwork. You never gave a rip about it before. Suddenly, you see a beauty in things that have always been there, but you haven't noticed.
Now, you're still going through a lot of the chaos and the trauma of the "Ouch" zone, the destructuring, but now you've got some hope. You're seeing evidence that this is really happening. You start to actually connect and communicate with nonphysical entities. Not that you're going to turn into channelers, thank god, but suddenly you find yourself talking to other beings. And they answer, and then you doubt it of course. But you do it again, and there's a little bit more clarity the next time.
Suddenly, the fog starts to appear to lift, but then the next day maybe it gets heavy. And suddenly you feel some deep new passion, but the next day it seems to have kind of faded out again. You're in that funny middle zone, and that's, dear Shaumbra, that's where you're at right now. You still have the anxiety. You're still gun shy, as they say, a little in shock, overwhelm and awe of this process you went through. And you didn't know you'd gone through it. There's still the anxiety that you're going to either have to go back or it's still there or you're just making all this up.
But, dear ones, in this melding, you're starting to feel your self, this lost love. It actually becomes more intense, more desire, and the funny thing is in this phase here, not only is your heart aching for your lost love, but you can feel it is aching for you as well.
It's a feeling beyond words, indescribable, to know that every part of you has missed you and cared about you and felt separated from you and wants to come back to you even more than you want to come back to it. It's an amazing beautiful experience. It may last for a hundredth of a second, but it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter.
Good lord - good inner lord - I'm running out of time.
So here there's something that happens. It's the melding. It's the knowing that this is real. It's suddenly discovering that what you've been searching for really is there. You feel like you're just about to break through. You feel like you can almost taste, almost breathe, that whatever it is. Whatever you want to call it - enlightenment, awareness, ascension - it's so close, you know it's there. It's not a far off dream anymore; it's right there, but it's still eluding you. It's really not, actually. It just feels like it is.
Something happens here that I want to address, so I'll go a little long, but I want to address. This is very important.
Here - this is for you when you're teaching or sharing with others - this is the point of getting extremely distracted. Right here. Not here ("Ouch"), but here ("Meld"). You're starting to taste it - suddenly, the distraction.
What are the distractions? And you should be able to answer this, because you're experiencing it. What are the distractions? Please. Linda's going to volunteer you.
ADAMUS: Yes. Excellent. Excellent choice.
PATRICIA: What are the distractions? Uh…
ADAMUS: Deep breath, go down here. What distracts you? You're starting to feel this returning to self; what will pull you away?
PATRICIA: Mundane concerns.
ADAMUS: Thank you. Yes. Mundane concerns. List one that you personally have.
PATRICIA: Professional and financial worries.
ADAMUS: Be specific.
PATRICIA: Be specific. Creative outlets …
ADAMUS: Getting a project done.
PATRICIA: Getting a project done.
ADAMUS: Thank you. Yes, thank you. Getting the project done, whatever it might be, because it has implications on your professional and financial future.
ADAMUS: So, wonderful distraction. Wonderful distraction. It gives you an excuse - a rather cheap excuse, by the way - for not doing what's really in your heart and what's really there. And could you imagine looking back on yourself, could you imagine saying, "You know, I got so damned distracted and it really wasn't what I wanted to be writing. It wasn't … I was so forced and so …"
PATRICIA: By whom? Myself.
ADAMUS: … methodical. Absolutely. And, "I made myself write it and it's not what I wanted to write." Perhaps. So it's a distraction. Could you imagine suddenly the awareness of the I Am, whatever that means, but the awareness. It's like turning on the lights. You got it. You're there. Whew! It doesn't matter. The projects and everything else were just a distraction. So, thank you.
PATRICIA: Thank you. Do you remember my name?
ADAMUS: Let me put it another way.
PATRICIA: My nickname that you were going to call me.
ADAMUS: I do, but let's focus on this. Let me put it another way. (laughter)
ADAMUS: It distracts. Now you've distracted poor Cauldre. So let me put it another way, is that instead of struggling through the project, it could actually manifest very, very easily if you'd looked backwards at it from already having done it.
ADAMUS: So good. Thank you.
PATRICIA: Thank you.
LINDA: What was the nickname?
ADAMUS: Keep moving.
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: My distractions are my fears.
ADAMUS: Fears. Good one. Fears. So I'm going to list … (Adamus writes) Some of these are, as you said, mundane. Some are very emotional. Fears. And what's the fear?
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Well, it's about the daily life.
ADAMUS: Okay. Is there a fear about going into full awakening, no longer even relating to life on planet Earth?
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Yes, but I'm not aware of this.
ADAMUS: Yeah. But yes, fear is good. And the fear of mundane daily life, what is the fear?
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: The fear of change.
ADAMUS: Fear of change. Excellent. Good. Wise group here. Thank you. Others. There's a very important one here.
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: I was going to say fear of …
ADAMUS: Would you mind standing?
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Sure.
ADAMUS: Thank you.
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Other fears that I have, one of them is that my body's not going to keep working.
ADAMUS: That's a good one.
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: I'm not going to have enough money.
ADAMUS: Does it matter?
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: It seems like it matters while I'm in it.
ADAMUS: You've got your choice here.
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Right. I know.
ADAMUS: Body that works well or absolute enlightenment. Which one?
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Absolute enlightenment. No question.
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: No question.
ADAMUS: Don't worry about the body then.
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Okay.
ADAMUS: Body can take care of itself. The more you tinker with it, the more you worry about it, it just automatically responds to you. Say, "Dear body, I'm kind of going through this important opening, blossoming, enlightenment. Could you please just take care of yourself?"
SHAUMBRA FEMALE: Okay. That's good. That's great.
ADAMUS: It's quite simple. Yeah. Good. So the body issues. That's a good question. Will your body be able to withstand the intense, overwhelming energies that are coming in? I think Laughing Bear mentioned that last month. The intensity was go great - he didn't mention the body - but the intensity's so great, can you handle it? Can your mind handle it without blowing its circuits? There's the fear. Can your body handle having the DNA rewired, having the organs and the blood and the cells and everything go through a change process?
It's up to you. It's absolutely up to you. You can determine. You can say, "Dear body, dear mind, you know how to balance. I built it into you. You know how to fix yourself. Now, damn it, do it." Be that clear. Don't say, "Oh body …" (whining) And then don't say … I won't even get into it. Time is short. So, yes. What is a distraction?
RICKI: Family and relationships.
ADAMUS: Absolutely. That's what I was looking for. Let's call it loved ones - or partially loved, sometimes loved, occasionally loved ones. That's a big one.
Now, you have children, you have partners, you have people you've been with for a long time -what if this means that you're not going to be there for them or them for you? That's a huge, perhaps number one distraction at this point. Huge. And it's honorable, but it's kind of not honoring yourself. See, it's honorable perhaps for them, but really not honoring yourself.
They are not actually the ones creating the scenario; you are by saying, "Yes, but if I ascend, will they ever ascend? Will it take them 1,000 lifetimes? Who's going to be there for them? Let's do this together or we won't do it at all."
That is your choice. Absolutely your choice, but I want you to stop for a moment and look at something other than just that potential. What, just what if you became fully aware? What implication would it really have on them? What are some of the other potentials - that your light might shine on them? That you might be of some service to help them to see who they really are? Might you not be the Stan… sorry, not to do double negative. You'll be the Standard for them. You will be the example. And maybe - contemplate this for a moment - maybe you have some old agreement that you'll go first and they'll be there to support you. That you'll go first to be a Standard for them. That you'll go first so they can take care of some of the routine things here. Maybe, just maybe.
There are a lot of other distractions that occur, and unfortunately, so much to talk about and so little time. I would like to pick this up again in our next gathering. One of the biggest distractions in this zone is, it's a funny type of spiritual arrogance, and I can talk well about that. (some laughter) It's your own spirituality.
You become so engrossed with yourself, because it actually does feel good
and you have learned a lot. But you're actually puffing up your old spiritual
values rather than destructuring them. You've actually kind of taken a detour
and you suddenly become the guru, the wise sage one. And you know, it's kind
of nice being in that position. Kind of lofty, kind of gives you an edge over
the others. And you're having a real experience, but there's a tendency to
stay in that zone, because you kind of like playing this role for others. You
kind of like your newfound spirituality. Why go any further when you can have
your cake and bless it too?
So … hard to get a laugh, Kuthumi. So that's where most of you are right now. You're in that melding. You're experiencing it. You're feeling. It's there - you're feeling the touch, the whisper of yourself like you've never felt before. I'm going to go into distractions more next month, but I want to get to the point of where I'm really trying to go here.
The Next Zone
This zone, also, you're in or you're just getting there. (referring to the zone after "Meld" and before "X") I'm not sure what to call it. Perhaps you'll help me to discover a name, but in this zone, in this - really, it's the final phase that one goes through - philosophy doesn't mean anything anymore. It's all B.S. Spirituality - you suddenly realize how phony so much of it was. How it was like fly paper; it got you stuck. It was amazing in one way, but how it's really a lot of crap. It really is. You don't sit and tell a person about compassion and about, you know, the path that they're on when they're down on their knees. You tell them it's going to be okay. Everything else is really kind of crap. Later, you come back and you can explain in nonintellectual terms.
Anyway, in this zone, some of you I would say have entered it. Others are going to be entering it this month. It's beautiful. It makes all of this destructuring a thing of the past. What happens here, to use Tobias' immortal words, it doesn't matter. Stuff comes up in your life. Those aspects come back to just give you hell, and you just take a deep breath and it doesn't matter. You don't have to give yourself fancy little spiritual cliché phrases. You don't have to go to your quote of the day, your marshmallow messages, your fluff and puff cereals, or anything else like that. It all seems now so ridiculous, so contrived; perhaps helpful at some point, but now so childish.
Here you're going to … in this zone, for example, some of you has experienced this recently. An aspect - an unintegrated aspect - and there's still some out there, the big bad ones - but you're realizing they're not so big and they're not so bad - but they come in to give you a ration of intellectual hell. You know what that's like. All of sudden you've got this stuff going through your mind. Where did that come from? "I was having a nice day, and suddenly I'm abusing myself."
Doubt. Please, the doubt is only yours if you accept it. In this zone, these aspects come back and they try to really terrorize you. They're really testing you. They're really seeing if you're really up to the awakening. But they come back in and suddenly it doesn't make a difference. Suddenly you're not involved in this intellectual/emotional dialoguing with yourself. Suddenly, you're not doubting yourself and giving yourself these old put-down words, these old …
You know how that happens. You don't feel good about yourself for whatever reason, I don't care - you're getting old, you're tired, you did something wrong, you feel you're not as good as somebody else - and suddenly you're in that old doubting thing. What do you do? You throw a little sugar and syrup on it, and even say things like, "I Am that I Am" without believing it. Or you maybe go run and read some spiritual quote or something. It doesn't work anymore in this zone. It doesn't work, and that's the beautiful thing.
Suddenly, reading religious, spiritual text - as Kuthumi would say (gags) - you can't even do it anymore. It seems like so yesterday. Suddenly, all this intellectual dialoguing for the sake of spirituality is so tired and so old. Suddenly, you just laugh - literally, you break out laughing - and say, "It doesn't matter. It really doesn't matter."
It's a beautiful place to be. You know, it's a type of quiet. It's a type of quiet that you haven't experienced in hundreds of lifetimes. You could say it's an awareness of a new balance. It's not about meditating. It's not about praying. It's not about any technique. This zone is perhaps "Sans." It's nothing. It's nothing and it's everything. Sans. Nothing. You don't need anything here. It's the true beginning of the realization of the I Am, not just saying it. Matter of fact, in this zone you come to a point where you don't even want to say it anymore. It just is. It just is. This, my dear friends, is really where you're at.
I want to give you this overview so you understand what's happening. I want to show you the process that one goes through so when you're working with others in your own words, in your own ways, you can explain the process.
What happens here is everything kind of goes into a quiet beauty … quiet beauty. You don't have to effort anything. In a way you don't care about anything, because cares become old. Yeah, there's still the human pressure to make money, pay your bills. But in a way you kind of don't care any more. "So what. They can have my house; I've got me. Nothing better than that."
Now, the funny thing is it doesn't turn out that way, for the most part. You don't lose the house. You don't lose your health. You don't lose all these things. You gain. You gain. But we're going to go back to distractions next month, so I'll warn you right now. There are some distractions in there also.
Please understand you're coming to this "Sans" zone, this quiet zone. It's the calm after the storm. It's after the storm, after this relentless, grueling battle that took place back here in this destructuring zone, and still remnants of it here in this melding. The quiet zone.
I bring it up so that you can give yourself permission to experience it this next month. Give yourself that experience of saying, "You know, it just doesn't matter." It's not indifference, and it doesn't mean you don't care. It doesn't matter because you know how it all works out. You know the end of the story before the other chapters are ever written. It's so simple, and anybody who makes it complex should be … something. (chuckling)
So, Shaumbra, let's do something now. Let's switch gears. Take a deep breath.
There's an energy crisis going on, in every way definable, an energy crisis on Earth. It starts with the energy that is being used by consciousness, energy that's being called forth from the great reservoir of all energy. It's being called forth by consciousness, by you, by others.
The old way of calling forth psychic energy, nonphysical energy, is changing. That's why the world is changing. You can see it in the symbols or the actual practical applications. The world is basically out of old fuel sources. And they're playing with solar and wind, please, no. Those are bandages on a gaping wound. Those aren't the answer for humanity. Those are toys. Those are jokes. Those are distractions. I'm sorry, but they are.
The world is facing a huge energy crisis in every possible way. It's all as a way of stimulating going to the next level.
As I said last month, the oil spreading out from this rig on the Gulf; it is causing short-term environmental problems, but what it's really causing is awareness. Awareness - a big word. It's causing awareness of the need to stop drilling into the ground, because that's not the answer for the future.
There is energy all around us right now in a neutral
state, energy enough to power the biggest cities in the world contained in
this room - in the air, in the water, in your bodies - but it's not being
utilized. It's thought to not exist, but it does. Of course, at one point it
was thought that the world was flat - and maybe it is! (laughter)
So, dear Shaumbra, let's do something. Let's have fun. Let's go in and feel potentials for energy for this world.
Now, before we do, I want to point out some of the fine print. Say a new energy sources discovered next year, or the year after, whenever. It has a dramatic effect on the infrastructure - we'll go back to structure - the structure of human day-to-day life. Automobiles, people who make furnaces, the people who make the power, the people who dig the coal or pump the oil - they're going to be out of jobs. It's done. Fini. And with this new energy you don't necessarily need a lot of people working at it, it kind of works for itself. And it's very potent, extremely potent. What if it got into the wrong hands?
So all of these things come up. Yes, the concept of New Energy sounds incredible. We'll bring New Energy to Earth, but understand what you're up against. Understand the implications - ad you do, because you've gone through it - the implications of your own New Energy, destructing change process.
Was it worth it, looking back? Up to you to answer.
Let's go into the potentials, and we're just exploring potentials. The interesting thing about potentials, they're kind of like the balloons (from part of the intro segment). They've been there all the time; people just haven't seen them. They haven't been hidden, they just have been unseen, because with limited awareness, you're not going to see the real potentials. But this group has beautiful awareness, and you've learned how to feel, and you've learned how to go beyond mental thought. Mental thought's still important, but you learned that there's something else.
So let's take a journey, a journey to right here. All the potentials are surrounding us right now.
Now, potentiating - I made up that word - potentiating is an art. (Linda writes) It's not a science. It's something that takes practice and finesse and trust and compassion, because in true potentiating you go beyond the mind. You don't think of New Energy. You don't try to see New Energy; you experience it. You feel it. You let it buzz in your heart. You feel it vibrate or expand in your body. You feel sometimes an emotion with it, but it's not a thought. We're not trying to analyze. We're not trying to analyze. What does New Energy feel like?
You can close your eyes - or not. I always find it helpful to hum a little bit to myself when I potentiate. Poten … what the …! (laughter at Linda's spelling) I thought I was bad at creating words! I like to hum when I'm potentiating. (audience begins humming) It helps me to feel into and not think.
What does New Energy feel like?
What's the song of New Energy for Earth?
What does it feel like?
Dance with it a little bit.
Breathe with it.
New Energy …
See, if you're thinking, you're not potentiating. If you're feeling, you are attracting. You are calling out this potential. You're bringing it out of dormancy. You're bringing it out of the resting, the sleeping that it's been in.
This planet is ready for it now, for New Energy. It wasn't ready for it 20 years ago, 50 years ago. So you've got a beautiful combination of desire and need, and you've got a beautiful potentiator - yourself - one who can feel into potentials. And when you do, by the way - oh, you can take a deep breath, relax for a moment - in my opinion, this is the true meaning of the law of attraction. It's not thinking about something, intellectually, mentally forcing it to come in. It's feeling it. It's letting it come out of its long hibernation, or at least out of neutral, and now it's attracted to you and to your personal life. It now is attracted, coming closer to Earth, closer to becoming a chosen reality. It comes in close to be with you.
It's kind of like, you know, a seed. A seed - you're going to grow flowers or some vegetables - a little seed in a pack, that seed just waits and waits. It's in neutral, just waiting. That's what potentials are like. They're seeds - invisible seeds - that are just waiting to be planted. They're planted with consciousness and choice, and they're waiting to come into this reality to blossom, and that's what you just did.
If you get to thinking about, constructing it in your mind, you are not potentiating. You are thinking, and it has a certain degree of success, but not much. If you are feeling, then you are absolutely attracting those potentials to your life.
So, dear Shaumbra, it works on a global scale. You're not inflicting it on anything, but who knows - a scientist might wake up in the middle of night and go, "Where did that idea come from?" and run to the laboratory and work for days and days tinkering away. Where did that come from? And then he thinks, "I'm really smart." Where did it come from? Maybe from right here.
Just to let you know where we're going, we're going to do more of this kind of thing in every meeting, every gathering, and in the meantime, you can do it for yourself. You're looking back - you're going to in just a moment, be looking back - from your point of completion, ascension, fulfillment, enlightenment, whatever you want to call it. You're looking back on yourself and you say, "What potentials do I want to bring to life? What do I want in my life?" You're no longer at the mercy of mass consciousness. You're your own Self.
And, dear friends, as I love to say, absolutely, without any if, ands or buts, all is well in all of creation, and you are the one who chooses your creation.
With that, I Am that I Am, Adamus in service to you. Until next time, au revoir.
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The Crimson Circle Materials with Tobias, Adamus Saint-Germain and Kuthumi lal Singh have been offered free of charge since August 1999.
The Crimson Circle is a global network of human angels, called Shaumbra, who are among the first to transition into the New Energy. As they experience the joys and challenges of ascension, they become the Standards for other humans on their journey of discovering the God within.
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